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Kiyoomi lived with his roommate Atsumu. They had been roommates for 2 years. It might be important to add that Atsumu was a famous actor and he was a small but still popular singer. The two of them had started living together before Kiyoomi blew up with a song. Atsumu had been a child actor so it was important to add that he was used to the paparazzi and attention. Kiyoomi was not, Kiyoomi had a problem with germs and crowded places. It seems silly that he choose acting as a career but apart from having to talk to people and be touched without warning or consent he loved it. The people he got to meet and the opportunities he had were all he had ever wanted. Atsumu and him used to be super close, when they were in high school they were inseparable but something changed when Kiyoomi graduated and Atusmu went off and became a full time actor instead of finishing school. They had lost contact, and neither wanted to be the first to communicate.
Kiyoomi wasn't sure how he had ended up living with Atsumu, but he was happy he did. They had both been looking for apartment and Sakusa’s cousin, Komori had been working on set with Atsumu and had suggested they moved in together. They had known each other previously and were ok with living together as long as they got their privacy. So they agreed and within a few week everything was a routine. Sakusa would wake up at 6:30 and sart his day and Atsumu would sleep until noon. Kiyoomi had written a song last year and posted it on youtube. It had been doing well compared to other songs he had written/posted but the song ended up blowing up even more. Atsumu was doing an online interview with some magazine and he had a bunch of questions he had to answer and one of them was what is your favourite song at the moment. Atsumu, to Kiyoomi’s surprise, had said “bad idea”. Bad Idea was Kiyoomi’s song, Kiyoomi’s new song and he didn’t even know Atsumu had listened to it apart from when he had showed it to him. Not even 10 minutes after the interview was posted his song had gone from 10,000 streams to millions. Then within a month it was at 23 million and it was all over social media. Kiyoomi had made a year’s worth of rent, mind you their apartment was in central Tokyo. Kiyoomi had run to Atusmu and thanked him and in the midst he had said i'm so happy I could kiss you Atsumu. Atsumu had kissed him. Kiyoomi hadn't expected it but he also didn't hate it. Atsumu had immediately started apologising and Atsumu was bright red. Kiyoomi was pretty sure he just stood there in shock until Atsumu shoved him.
They hadn’t talked about the kiss, but it was the only thing on Kiyoomi’s mind for weeks. Then one day Atsumu came home late and drunk out of his mind. Atsumu had always been touchy when he was drunk but that day he was overly touchy. He had been holding onto Kiyoomi like he was going to leave. Atsumu had said that he loved Kiyoomi in more than a friend way but Kiyoomi had played it off to the alcohol in his system. That was the first time of many. Almost every Friday Atsumu came home blackout drunk and told Kiyoomi he loved him, then when he woke up the next day he went on a date with another random girl. Kiyoomi hated that Atsumu only told him how he felt when he was drunk, even if they werent dating Kiyoomi wished Atsusmu would talk to him about why he was going and getting drunk every week. Atsumu seemed unaware that he was telling Kiyoomi how he felt every week. It annoyed Kiyoomi because he was starting to like Atusmu and not just because of the confessions though that did contribute. Kiyoomi was sick of it, he couldn't deal with Atsumu so he started to ignore him when he came home drunk. Every week there was something about Atsumu in some gossip magazine and it was about him and some girl and how he spends his money on shit he doesn't need, which isn't a lie but it still hurts. Kiyoomi knew he was the second choice. At first Kiyoomi was okay with it but that was until his feelings kept getting stronger and he couldn’t deal with being second choice.
Kiyoomi had started writing a new song, he started off with just a name. Midnight Love, and he got that from all the times Atsumu had told him he loved him but only in the darkness and while he was intoxicated. Kiyoomi had a few lines, then it all suddenly came to him. Kiyoomi had finished the song within a few weeks of starting it, he had written it so you couldn't tell who it was about unless you were them. Kiyoomi hoped that this would hopefully make Atsumu realise but he had always been clueless. Kiyoomi had started recording one night when Atsumu walked in drunk out of his mind and sat down on the floor next to Kiyoomi who was on the couch with his guitar, microphone and shitty camera. Kiyoomi ignored him and kept recording, though it was hard because Atsumu seemed really focused on him. Kiyoomi felt awkward singing about his unrequited love with his crush next to him, so he told Atsumu to fuck off because he was trying to focus. Atsumu stood up abruptly and ran out of the room, Sakusa felt bad so he put his stuff down, turned off his camera and made his way to Atsumu’s room. Kiyoomi was about to knock on the door when he heard a sob, it was Atsumu.
“ I just don't get it Samu, I tell him every week yet he still doesn't believe me.”
“ Maybe its because your drunk every-time you tell him.” Osamu, Miya’s twin, said bored. “ Anyways Suna is begging me to make him dinner so i'm hanging up. Goodbye, call me when you have you shit figured out.”
Kiyoomi heard the phone call end and he heard a body flop onto a bed, then the quiet sobs began. Kiyoomi thought about going into the room and comforting him but decided against it because it seemed like a personal matter. Kiyoomi went back to his room where he kept recording, Kiyoomi was almost done but he must of fallen asleep. When Kiyoomi woke up he noticed he wasn't in his chair at his desk but in his bed, Atsumu must of put him there. When he got up and dressed he walked out to the kitchen which Atsumu would usually be in waiting to talk to Kiyoomi before he went out, but there was no sign of Atsumu. Kiyoomi didn't care, not one bit. Kiyoomi went back to his room and continued to sing. By the end of the day he had the song done, Kiyoomi went to Atsumu’s room without thinking because he always showed Atsumu his songs before he posted the,. But that was when Kiyoomi heard the noises, Kiyoomi knew that Atsumu had a very active sex life but they had an agreement that neither of them were allowed to bring someone back to the apartment though Kiyoomi didn't have to worry about that because his OCD stopped him from letting anyone touch him apart from his family and Atsumu. Kiyoomi had always been happy that Atsumu respected that rule because he would have to listen to moans, groans everyday if they hadn't made that rule. Kiyoomi was mad to say the least so instead of going back to his room he knocked hardly on the door and called out.
“ Atsumu, what the fuck are you doing. You know I don't want anyone else here especially not for what your doing with her right now.”. With that the door flew open and Atsumu was standing naked with a sweaty looking body and an annoyed face.
“ Sorry but can’t you hear that i’m a little preoccupied right now, so if you’ll excuse me my boyfriend is lying naked in my bed waiting for me. Fuck off.” and with that the door was slammed in Kiyoomi’s face. Kiyoomi would of been mad if he wasn’t malfunctioning from the fact that he saw Atsumu naked and sweaty and the fact that Atsumu had a boyfriend. In a different situation Kiyoomi would be screaming into his pillow, giggling and kicking his feet at the discovery of Atsumu’s sexuality but not in this case. Why had Atsumu been so rude to him and why had he broken their only apartment rule. Kiyoomu hadn't gotten to see the man that was supposedly on Atsumu's bed, though Kiyoomi hoped they would run into each other at some point so he could see what type of guy Atsumu likes. Kiyoomi figured he should call his cousin and show him the song instead, which did make Kiyoomi want to be sick because there hadn't been a song he had posted where Atsumu didn't listened to it before he posted it. Kiyoomi rung his cousin and played him the song, it seemed like his cousin was just as dumb as Kiyoomi remembered. Kiyoomi's cousin seemed to like the song which gave him enough confidence even if Atsumu hadn't listened to it first. Kiyoomi posted it not expecting much because his last song was only popular because of that interview Atsumu did. Kiyoomi closed his laptop and went onto his phone, ordering himself some dinner. He thought about Atsumu and reckoned he'd be hungry after his activities. Kiyoomi walked quietly towards Atsumu's room not wanting to make his presence known incase they were still busy. Kiyoomi calmed down when he didn't hear any noises, so he knocked quietly on the door. Atsumu called.
" What omi?"
" I'm ordering food and I was wondering if you and your partner wanted anything."
" Akira is gone, but yea i'll just have some of what your getting."
" ok Atsu."
Kiyoomi smiled, because it seemed like Atsumu wasn't mad at him anymore and he called him his old nickname from high school. The food arrived 30 minutes later and Kiyoomi called out to Atsumu to tell him the food was ready. Atsumu walked out of his room in track-pants and a white tank top. He sat next to Kiyoomi and picked up one of the 2 forks Kiyoomi had put out for them. Kiyoomi couldn't really focus on eating when he was still confused as to why Atsumu had been so mad earlier. Atsumu seemed to notice him staring and he turned too look at Kiyoomi, thier faces were only a few inches away from each other.
" I heard your new song Omi, Why didn't you show me it?." Atsumu questioned.
" I was going to but you were with your bo-"
" I didn't mean that, Akria is just a hookup."
" Oh ok, but do you like it?."
" I like it but it seems sadder then your other songs Omi-Omi."
" Yea I guess it is, but other then that it sound nice to listen to right."
" Of course Omi, anything you write is wonderful."
" You can't say things like that Atsu."
Kiyoomi dropped his head to rest on Atsumu's shoulder. Kiyoomi decided to tell Atsumu that the song was about him because he read some where that if you tell them that you can get over them quicker.
" Why can't say things like that Omi, you know I love everything you write."
Kiyoomi felt himself stand up as he raised his voice.
" You can't say things like that Atsu because it makes me feel things. Things that I shouldn't feel about you."
Atsumu's face twisted into a look of confusion.
" What do you mean it makes you feel things Omi."
" Who the fuck do the think the song is about Atsumu. You always come home drunk and tell me you love me but as soon as you sober up your out on a date with some random person. It makes me feel like shit Atsumu."
Kiyoomi hadn't noticed but he was tearing up. Atsumu had stood up now and was reaching in to hug Kiyoomi but before he could sakusa shoved him away and stood a few steps back.
" You can't just hug me Atsumu. Are you not hearing what i'm saying. Im in love with you Atsumu."
Kiyoomi was shouting now. Atsumu looked shocked but then a red blush spread over his face.
" Omi why do you think I hook up with so many people. It's because i thought that you would never want to be with me. I've loved you since high school. I became a full time actor because you said it was cool once when you were drunk and it stuck with me. All the scandals i've been in where done in an attempt that you would notice me. And when your cousin said you were looking for an apartment at a pub with all our friends, I'm pretty sure i screamed that i needed a new apartment as well. But wanna know something funny Omi. I had just bought a new apartment not even a week before but I would of rather to live with you then in some apartment way to big for one person."
Kiyoomi was sure he was the one blushing now. Kiyoomi was full sobbing now and he had walked forward and fallen into Atsumu's warm arms. Atsumu wrapped around him like a blanket as he calmed Kiyoomi down.
" Well now i've just written some sad love sing about you for no reason." Kiyoomi chuckled.
" Well I just signed a deal for some sad gay love story where it's unrequited for no reason."
They made their way to Sakusa's room. Atsumu laid Sakusa down on his side of the bed and he tucked him in. Atsumu got in on the other side. Atsumu wrapped his arm around Sakusa, and leaned over to kiss his forehead.
" Night Omi, I love you."
Sakusa never wrote a sad love song again.