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Green Town is a modular city. The city naturally changes its appearance depending on the season.
Autumn is nostalgic and calming, Winter is white and lovely, Spring is flowery and colorful and Summer is greenful and beautiful. And then there's Tsuyu...
Tsuyu has no color. The colors of nature is overshadowed by the lack of light covered by the clouds, the strong rains and winds dominate the city and because of that, there are fewer visitants during the two-month season.
Prosecuting the criminals feels different during this time. Walking around Green Town with an umbrella in hand, going to the court and bring justice to those people while there's a heavy raining outside and even with the possibility of thunder and lightning showing up.
Everybody looks more solemn than usual, and even some look more upset. This is more present during a thunderstorm. The thunder that overshadows the hearings and the lightning with the constant fear of striking the court and cause a fire or a blackout... That can change a melancholic ambient into a depressing and uncertain one.
Everybody look at me with curiousity because I always smile, no matter the season. The real reason is that I smile but that doesn't mean that I'm happy. I feel melancholic as well when Tsuyu arrives. It's just that I can camouflage it.
Ironically, Tsuyu gives me a weird comfort feeling.
This season feels apathetic and melancholic. I didn't liked this season before but now, with my current mindset, it feels like home to my soul.
I can't feel anything while bringing justice to criminals. I realized that I can't stop crime. I'm incapable to do that even if I bring justice everyday. After this realization, I realized that my dream was just, childish. An impossible dream that I woke up.
I used to be hopeful for a society without crime, since crime is a impurity to this world, and Justice is fair and right all the time.
But now I feel... Nothing. Apathy. Bringing justice can't make me feel anything anymore. We're trapped on a vicious cycle without an end. Repeating the same routine of a person committing a crime, them being caught, bringing justice to them and let their souls rot in the punishment room.
Over. And Over. And Over...
I accept that we're trapped, as a society, in a vicious cycle and nothing can interfere it.
And Tsuyu reconciles my apathy and hopelessness. Standing up while watching the raindrops while feeling the wind blowing my hair calms my mind.
If I die, I prefer it to be in Tsuyu. Lying on the grass, looking at the dark sky and feeling the raindrops while my body withers.
After all, we are like flowers. With a warm light we shine our best side. But without it, we wither and turn cold, and eventually die.
I doubt I'll find that warm light that would give hope to this heart that search for Justice.
I want Justice. My Navi wants Justice. We want to think that justice exist in this world and will eradicate crime once and for all. Because if is not the case, I don't want to live in this world.
June 16th, 20XX