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"How was your day, Midoriya?"
I don't know Katsuki, I really don't know. I have no idea if I feel happy or not. Maybe I'm good, maybe I'm bad? I don't, I don't know anything. I don't even know why I am like this. I wish I could know. What is the reason for this mess inside me, why do my alter personalities hate me? I have no idea why my heart is this empty, why I am like this, what caused this, believe me. I wish from the bottom of my heart to be happy, I wished to be normal, but it just didn't happen. I am sick, I am aware, I am sick, I am very sick, maybe I am not aware, but I am sick. You know how they say, it passes, the season passes, it's seasonal, there's a mercury retrograde right now, there's a full moon tonight. But none of it, I'm just unloved.
I'm tired, I'm tired all the time, I'm getting tired per second. I am nonstop tired. I was so tired, I could not rest at all. If I smile one more time, even if we'd go back and smile one more time, my smile would never fade.
"It was nice, why?"
You frown, "I couldn't feel you were happy, but if you call it nice, it is."