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this was it
....
this was his breaking point. after this, he simply couldn't go on. how could he?
Thomas Simons.
Also known as TommyInnit on the internet. He was a famous twitch streamer, vlogger, world wide influencer. He really was, "big man Tommy".
He's also known as the "token straight" of every friend group. He's the Wife Haver, Woman Lover, he gets girls, it's said they swarm him. It's of course an inside joke, but he was known as straight. There was absolutely no way, he could be anything else.
That's what he tells himself. He'll happily continue to tell himself that. It's the norm, what everyones used too. LGBTQIA+ Ally only.
Well, that's what he told himself.
But it isn't true.
Thomas Simon's
Also known as TommyInnit on websites and social media. Loved by all genders.
Found out, he might love more than one gender. Or maybe this only implied to one person. He's never really felt this way about anyone else. He's had girlfriends in the past, yes, but he didn't feel how everyone would say they had in relationships. Was he doing it wrong? He was with pretty girls, he would hold her hand, compliment her, be her emotional support and stand behind her as moral support. He, said he loved her.
He never really felt love. To be completely honest, he felt like a brother than anything. Was that normal?
Thomas Simons.
Known as TommyInnit on twitch.tv/tommyinnit.
Was Inlove with his best friend.
Sweet, how kind. Except, his friend. Was a guy.
A man.
This made Tommy,,
Gay? Bisexual? Pansexual? He could be anything, anywhere. All he knew, was it sure as hell wasn't straight.
Thing is, how can you not like this man? He's perfect, in Tommy's words.
A gentle, yet deep masculine voice. He was strong, he had a muscular frame, but it wasn't intense and overly flashy. He was tall, for sure, but it fit him well. Perfect, fluffy hair that would blow in the wind perfectly. He was kind, sweet, loving, caring, he wanted the best for his friends, would always check up and make sure everyone's okay. He was a gentleman.
He effortlessly perfect.
In Tommy's eyes, he was a godsend. He was an angel, he was more than just another teenage love.
Thing is. Thomas Simons is straight.
His viewers, what would his viewers think? And his parents? His friends? His friends would hate him, no doubt. They liked the token straight that went along with them, since they were all over the community. He would be ruining their combo, their brand. He'd be stealing their spotlight, stealing their views, their fans. If he were to come out, they'd no doubt hate his guts.
But, he needed to talk to someone about this. He'd been "dead" on social media for the last month.
He had said it was for a break, the viewers respected that, so had his friends.
But each day, it gets worse. He can't handle this, he can't handle his feelings.
Not by himself.