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Jonny didn’t know what time it was; he had no idea how much time had passed since she had gone Out. What Jonny did know was he hadn’t from where he stood his hand pressed against the airlock. How could she leave them all like this? Why did she leave? Aurora wasn’t the same? That wasn’t true at least Jonny didn’t think so. There had to be another reason, right?
She wouldn’t leave without a good reason. She didn’t do anything without a good reason, but then why did she leave? Jonny wasn’t sad no he couldn’t be sad he didn’t have a heart, so he couldn’t be sad. He was just confused. Jonny wasn’t crying because he couldn’t cry he didn’t have a heart, so the wetness rolling down his face wasn’t tears they were something else.
Jonny's heart ticked loud in his chest; it was the only sound coming from the room, as since she went Out Aurora hadn’t hummed or made any noise. He took a shuddering breath, and finally backed away from the airlock. Why had that god-awful thing taken two of his family members now? First, the Doc who he didn’t hate nearly as much as he claimed, and then her. Fuck why did it have to take her? Why couldn’t he have done a better job as the fucking captain, and stopped her? He should’ve followed after her. Why didn’t he?
Jonny stared at the airlock for a moment more then finally started to walk away. No, he wasn’t sad that the closest thing he had to a sister left him. No, he wasn’t crying because she left. Jonny wasn’t doing either of those things because he couldn’t. He didn’t have a heart. It couldn’t break, so he couldn't cry.