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2022-11-25
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2023-07-19
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Fallin' Flower

Summary:

Hansol Vernon Chwe is a boy diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder, nothing serious, but he is a mess when he wants to socialize.

When he arrives at his nineteenth year at a music academy with his best friend Dokyeom, he realizes that performing in front of a large group of people will bring back crises from his childhood. The shyness will return every time he has to perform or teach something in front of his class, however, a kind dancer who years ago held him back on his first day in Seoul has come back to meet him.

Feelings Vernon had not experienced before begin to grow, feelings he read about in songs and didn't really understand.

The challenge now was, growing up as an autism spectrum performer and deciphering what he felt in the presence of a boy without going into a nervous breakdown.

Notes:

Each autism spectrum is different from each other, so perhaps this spectrum is not similar to many novels you have seen. This spectrum is my version, which I have lived day by day with someone.

Chapter 1: Message to readers

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Message to readers: 

 

When I feel angry and desperate about everything, music is the only way to calm me down inside.  - Therese Joliffe, 1992.

I could learn to cope with a given situation in a given context, yet I felt lost when faced with that same situation in a different context. - Donna Williams, 1994. 

When things did not work out as I had anticipated, I had to formulate a new theory. There had to be a way to understand the world. - Gunilla Gerland. 

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People who have a different neurological condition must struggle day in and day out to understand the day, to understand different situations and to add to that understanding their feelings. They feel the same or even deeper than a normal person, but they do not know how to process or express their feelings well enough for the receiver to fully understand. 

Hansol Vernon Chwe is a now nineteen-year-old boy who grew up as a boy with mild autism spectrum disorder. Therapies helped his stigmata, coordination, speech and way of thinking to mold over the years, however, nothing would prepare him to compete against people who have the same dream as him, let alone process his first love and how to get it.