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Cinnamon in my teeth.
From your kiss.
Hoseok finally got everything he wanted. Everything that he asked for. A wonderful boyfriend, an amazing life...wait...
A wonderful boyfriend and an amazing life? How funny.
Everything was going well for him. He got the courage to ask out his crush and he accepted. They finally ended up together and live in an apartment that they could call home.
You're touching me.
But what happened?
What made his distance from Yoongi so far?
He and his lover stopped being so close. They stopped kissing each other, touching each other, etc. Hoseok can still taste the cinnamon in his teeth. He misses him.
Does Yoongi also miss him?
All the pills that you did
Violet, blue, green, red to keep me
At arm's length don't work.
His Yoongi hasn't been the same. He always left him alone to go meet some friends, but they don't only meet. They do drugs together.
Hoseok still remembers the colored pills that he once found in the bedroom drawer. Is that the reason that Yoongi has been pushing him away?
You try to push me out.
"Why were you going through my stuff?" Yoongi asked Hoseok who looked up at him.
"I...I was just worried about you...why are you doing drugs..?" Hoseok could feel his lips quiver since he hasn't seen Yoongi that irritated by him.
Yoongi tsk-ed "you don't have to worry about me, Hoseok." He called him by his government name. He never did that. "Plus it's my business. I get to do whatever I want." Yoongi was about to walk out of the room. Hoseok watched him and quickly followed him.
But I just find my way back in.
Hoseok then hugged him from behind making Yoongi stop walking away.
"P-Please...don't go..." The younger male said as his tears rolled down his rosy pink cheeks.
Yoongi heavily sighed as he just stood there while Hoseok continued hugging him from behind not wanting to let go of his lover. The only love of his life.
Violet, blue, green, red to keep me out
I win.
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There's things I wanna say to you
"Yoongi can we talk?" Hoseok walked in on Yoongi who finished getting dressed.
"What is it?" Yoongi looked at him who stood by the door and then walked over to him to sit on the edge of the queen-sized bed.
Hoseok's hands were shaking. He felt if he spat it out his mouth, Yoongi will get mad and leave him.
He didn't want that. He loved Yoongi so much that he'll do anything for him. Anything to taste the cinnamon in his teeth again.
But I'll just let you live.
"I... never mind. I forgot" Hoseok looked down and felt Yoongi getting up but Hoseok grabbed his wrist and the oldest looked down at him.
"Seok I have to go."
Like if you hold me without hurting me
You'll be the first who ever did.
"Please hold me..." Hoseok said to him. He wanted to feel his touch again. Just once more.
"No."
"You won't hurt me..." Hoseok knew that that was Yoongi's fear. Hurting the one he loves.
"Hoseok just fucking let go of me!" Yoongi pulled his arm away and left the room. Hoseok watched him leave. Water formed in his eyes and turned into tears.
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A year passed and everything between him and his lover became toxic.
He lost his trust in Yoongi. He frequently received lies from Yoongi. Yoongi didn't let him go out with anyone.
Hoseok started to feel insecure about himself thinking that Yoongi didn't want him because of his body or his love.
Hoseok felt fucking drained. He always waited for a day when Yoongi will go to him and change for him. Instead, his boyfriend controls him. He can't do anything about it. Yoongi ignored all of his needs for love and support.
Suddenly, his phone rang.
It was Yoongi's friend.
"Hello?"
"We are trying to get Yoongi back home but he won't get up."
"Where is he?"
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Yoongi was laying down on the green grass. He was laying on his left side and he felt guilty. Why was he feeling like this all of the sudden?
He closed his eyes for a minute until feeling someone's presence in front of him. Also laying down on his side.
Yoongi opened them and it was Hoseok. He stared at his gorgeous brown eyes that were glowing under the moonlight. Fuck. He did love Hoseok.
There's things I wanna talk about
But better not to keep.
"Let's go home..." Hoseok said to the other who formed a smile with his lips but then broke down crying. "Yoongi...?"
"I'm sorry, Seok...I'm fucking sorry..." Yoongi continued crying feeling guilty for everything. Why did Hoseok stay even though he kept on hurting him?
Hoseok placed his hand on Yoongi's cheek and caressed it with his thumb.
Somehow, Yoongi could feel his heartbeat heart beating so fast when he felt Hoseok's touch.
"Let's go home."
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When the couple arrived home, Yoongi quickly kissed him. Hoseok was in shock. His heart was beating and his cheeks were heating.
Hoseok kissed the other's lips back. He missed him.
But if you hold me without hurting me
You'll be the first who ever did.
Yoongi wrapped his arms around his small waist as their lips moved. Hoseok wrapped his arms around his neck and their bodies got closer to each other.
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Hold me, love me, touch me, honey
Be the first who ever did.
The room was full of Hoseok's beautiful moaning. Yoongi was on top of the other giving him the love he never gave him before.
The younger male had tears rolling down his cheeks as he felt the pleasure and pain. He could even feel the oldest touch him all over his body and give his love marks.
They were both making unforgettable love.
Hoseok was a moaning mess and didn't want Yoongi to stop.
Hold me, love me, touch me, honey
Be the first who ever did.
After a while, Yoongi was giving him aftercare and cuddling him. He looked at Hoseok who was all smiley and looking at him too.
"I love you, Seok," Yoongi said to him.
"I love you too, Yoon"
They smiled and kissed each other's lips passionately and gently.