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I excused myself quietly, going into my room and locking the door. This was the first time I was ever sneaking out. I was nervous I'd get grounded forever but I didn't care, I needed to see her
I probably shouldn't be so easily influenced by a girl, but I couldn't help it. Something about her was so special...I know my parents would hate me if they knew about me and Kira. I'd probably get killed for sneaking out like this.
I've never done anything like this...was this a bad idea?
You know what?
All my life I've been the good kid, I've never once done anything bad. It's time to start on that.
I opened my window climbing out into a tree. I carefully made my way down and ran as fast as I could to where me and Kira would usually meet.
There Kira was with her head hung low. I could barely tell it was her because of how dark it was out.
I walked over to her "Kira?" I called out. She turned around with shock on her face and tears in her eyes. "Kira! What's the matter?" I rushed over to her to see what was wrong, but Kira just stared at me in disbelief.
"You're here?" She asked, touching my arm "umm...yes?" I replied confused
She looked at me suddenly hugging me tightly "I'm so happy you're here"
I smiled and hugged her back "Why were you crying?"
Kira didn't say anything, instead she asked me a question "Why are you here? It's thanksgiving"
I smiled "I wanted to see you"
Kira frowned "what about your family. Won't they be mad?"
I shrugged "I'll be back before they even know I was gone"
Kira still looked at me with the same frown and teary eyes "enough about me...why are you crying" I asked once again, wiping the tears from her cute chubby cheeks.
"Another fight with my aunt...Honestly I'm so tired of this fighting...I just want to leave forever."
I frowned "If you leave I'll be sad"
Kira looked at me slowly separating herself from me. She looked down "I'm no good, to you or to anyone else around me."
I grabbed her face making her look at me "what do you mean?"
She moved away from me, her eyes unable to look into mine. "just think about it- because of me you snuck out right?"
I nodded, not saying anything as she continued to explain "If you never knew me you would have never done that. I'm not good for you...you need someone like you...smart, amazing, religious-
Before she could continue, I stopped her "you know I'm not religious”
She rolled her eyes "Either way you need someone you can introduce your parents to, I'm not that person."
"but you're the one that I want"
Kira looked at me tears rolling down her red cheeks "I'm not the one you need"
I looked at her in disbelief "Kira you can't be serious"
Kira stood up looking down on me "You know I'm right"
I stood up grabbing her hand "no you're not" Kira shook her head "Please let me go Henry...don't make this harder than it needs to be"
"What do you mean? What's with the sudden change? We were happy together!"
Kira didn't say anything, she just looked away, her tears falling into the grass below.
"This was a bad idea..." she pulled her hand away, not saying anything else as she turned around and began to walk further away from me. I stood there frozen, unable to run after her. What am I supposed to do?
I'm a coward, I can't run after her! But I really want to...I want to hold her and tell her she's wrong...I want her to know how perfect she is for me…
But instead of doing any of that I sighed turning my back on her.
Everything in me told me I was making a mistake, but I couldn't do anything else.
Suddenly my phone rang "Yeah?" I answered only to be surprised by mom calling me
"Where are you” she asked
Fuck…
"In my room?" I replied she sighed "come out our family is leaving"
I hung up, turning around to see if Kira was still there, but she was long gone by then.
I reluctantly ran towards my house, tears clouding my vision.
FUCKKK
I looked at the giant tree I had to climb to get back into my room.
I wiped my tears and started climbing.
And I made it just in time!
"Henry? I'm coming in" the muffled voice of my mom was heard
I jumped into my room laying down on my bed pretending I've been here this whole time. My mother walked inside rolling her eyes "hurry up and come here" I nodded my mind on Kira for the rest of the day.
When they finally left, I made my way up to my room again. As I laid down on my bed, I stared up at the ceiling thinking about...well you know.
I kept beating myself up for not running after her but would have anything changed If I did run after her? Would she have stayed with me? Would I have been enough?
Questions kept rolling in my mind, keeping me awake until the early morning.
Eating breakfast with my family felt like torture. I had to pretend everything was okay when it wasn't...how could I lie to my parents like this?
Wait...was this how Kira felt?
I sighed even now I can't keep my mind off her...Kira please come back…
Time passed and I had nearly lost all hope of ever seeing Kira again. But just as all hope was lost, I found her!
Well…
"Kira?" I called out. Kira turned around, her eyes widening as she saw my face. Shock written all over her face while I smiled brightly happy to see her again. "Hey!"
She stood quiet just staring at me. Time passed slowly before she realized we were at a store standing in the middle of a line staring at each other "follow me" she said walking out the store. I followed her to a food court where she finally spoke back to me "what are you doing here?"
I shrugged "I’ve been coming here hoping I’d find you one day" she sighed "Henry I left for your-
I stopped her "No. Ever since you left, I've been miserable. I missed you more and more as time passed, I couldn't think about anything but you to the point my grades started slipping"
Kira stared at me with shock "You're grades...Did your parents get mad?"
I sighed nodding "I got grounded...and you know"
Kira frowned "I'm so sorry"
I shook my head "Don't apologize for anything. Just please come back to me”
Kira hesitated but she smiled hugging me "You have no idea how much I've missed you"
I chuckled, holding onto her tightly not wanting to let go scared she would leave again.
From that day on we began going out again. I realized I didn't know much about Kira and as time passed, I learned some things that might've driven me away if I didn't love her. We fought quite a bit, but It always resulted in Kira apologizing and me forgiving her. Because of our many fights Kira decided to see a therapist and she seemed to be getting a lot better, which was perfect since we were finally going to have a child. We might've been too young but we didn't care. We were in love. We were very excited to have our first child...We weren't married yet or even engaged but again we didn't care, we were happy as is.
Having our little bird coming I decided I should probably tell my parents about Kira who even after so many years refused to see my parents. I thought it was finally time they met the love of my life.
"They will hate me..." Kira said, trying to get away from me.
I shook my head "they won't hate you honey! They'll love you"
Kira frowned "I am pregnant, and we aren't even married! I have tattoos and I have depression-
I stopped Kira from continuing "I love you for you and I'm sure my parents will to"
Kira looked down "If you say so" I smiled and we both got in the car. I drove us to my parents house which was pretty far from ours.
Once we made it, we both got out of the car. I turned towards my beautiful girlfriend to see her visibly anxious, so I held her hand as we made our way to my parents' front door. I knocked twice the door opening just moments later. My parents' faces turned from shock to anger to a smile all in the span of a few seconds. I smiled back holding onto the hand of my girlfriend who held my hand a bit tightly.
They let us in, and we all sat down in the living room where I told them about Kira. Their smiles never left but I could tell they were furious with the fact I JUST told them about all of this.
"one last thing...you're going to be grandparents" that's when the smile on their faces left and all you could see was anger and disappointment. Kira looked at me and I could see it in her eyes that she wanted to leave and NOW. I looked down to see her leg moving up and down rapidly. I knew she was extremely anxious right now.
sighed knowing I couldn't put Kira through any of this anymore. "We will take our leave" I said, grabbing Kira's hand and getting up. My parents got up stopping us from leaving, which I knew scared Kira who held onto my arm rather tight.
"You...you're not married are you?"
Shit…
I shook my head "We aren't..."
The pure disgust on my parents' face was hard to look at. "Get out!" my mother yelled. My heart broke as I looked at her. "you can't be-
"GET OUT" she yelled once again.
Kira immediately pulled me away since I wasn't moving at all. As we made our way into our car my mother said "I taught you to wait for marriage! I knew she was no good, She's a whore son! She's going to hell and she's dragging you down with her!"
I stood still looking at my mother anger boiling inside me
No one talks about Kira that way.
"You know what? At least I'm fucking happy! If you really cared about me you'd accept us! You talk about God yet you treat your own child like this! God would be disappointed in you." I yelled before getting inside my car and driving away. As I drove away, I could see my mothers angry expression. She was fuming but I didn't care.
I sighed, turning my attention towards Kira who was visibly shaking.
Shit
I looked around to see where I could park and thankfully, I found a good place pretty fast. I parked my car, got out and went over to Kira who continued to shake. I hugged her tightly "I'm so sorry I put you through that. Please don't listen to my mom. I love you and only you, I don't care what she or God has to say. I love you Kira and I'll never stop loving you."
Kira hugged me back without saying a word. I could hear her sobbing quietly, so I just held onto her tighter whispering I love yous in her ear.
This went on for some time until Kira calmed down. "Don't listen to my mother, she knows nothing about you, you are amazing in every way."
Kira nodded but deep down she didn't believe that.
We made our way home. Once we arrived I picked Kira up who had fallen asleep on our way home. I brought her inside, laying her down on our bed. I kissed her softly making sure not to wake her up before admiring her beautiful features. She was perfect in every way.
After what had happened I noticed Kira growing distant but I didn't look into it too much. Years passed and me and Kira had a house with 3 kids, our life was perfect...except for those times Kira would leave for days then come back and not talk at all...I wasn't quite sure what was happening and I didnt know what to do.
Kira seemed to be getting worse and worse so I talked to her. She yelled and got upset t me but still agreed to talk to her therapist about what was happening. Everything seemed fine, Kira stayed at home with the kids while I worked and we were happy together. I would come home to see Kira and our little black bird painting together...They looked so happy it always put a smile on my face.
Everything came crashing down when my parents sent me that letter.