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Jiwoong and seobin are now done with their 30 minute Instagram live. Before this live they had taken at least one or two sips of wine —they weren't drunk nor sober. that's why the live was longer than usual. The two interacted with their fans by answering a few questions and talking about themselves here and there.

Seobin said his goodnight to jiwoong and went straight to bed. The latter nodded and just continued staring at his phone —he wasn't really even concentrating on his phone though, he was in deep thought. After  sitting there for a good five minutes he decided to also go and sleep. As he walked towards his bedroom he peeped inside seobin's bedroom and noticed the younger wasn't tucked in so went in to cover him. It's winter he might catch a cold.

“Seobin, did you really mean it?" Jiwoong said as he caressed seobin's hair. The latter suddenly stirred in his sleep and slightly opened his eyes. Jiwoong retracted his hand and stood up hastily.

“Hyung, are you not sleepy yet?" Seobin said as he rubbed his sleepy eyes.

“Yes I'm sleepy. Goodnight " he said and started walking towards the door. “Hyung" seobin called and jiwoong turned to look at him. “Can you sleep here tonight " jiwoong felt a little tensed at the moment. He stood there blinking rapidly at seobin “Why" he asked.

“Come on hyung... It's extremely cold today and sleeping in this big bed alone is not helping at all " seobin said in a whiny voice. Jiwoong just stood there not saying anything.

“hyung~~ please, I mean it's not even the first time" jiwoong still did not barge. They slept together so many times but this one felt kind of different. He suddenly tensed up at the mention of them sleeping together, this is the first time it happened. He looked at the now sulky seobin and decided to push away his train of thought away.
“okay" he said after letting out a soft sigh.  Jiwoong closed the door and went to join seobin in bed. He laid facing the ceiling since he got in and seobin didn't fail to notice.

Jiwoong used to be the one who always wanted them to share a bed most of the time and he would be cuddling with seobin at times like this squeezing him so tight close to him, but now he is sleeping at the far end of the bed not even wanting to get close or look at seobin.

“Hyung" seobin called and jiwoong hummed in response. “Did something happen?" He asked

“No, why?” jiwoong asked.

“i mean you're just so awfully quiet today I'm not used to seeing this side of you."

“Everything is fine Seobin " he managed to put a smile on his face —a fake one of course. Seobin looked at him for a while.

“Hyung you know you can tell me anything right? Please seeing you like this is me worried you know." This time he sat up facing jiwoong. The latter laid down for a couple of seconds before sitting up too. He let out a heavy sigh and looked at seobin.

“Seobin, it's just that I've been thinking about what you said earlier during our live" He asked in a low shy voice. Seobin gave him a confused look

“what did I say?"

“You know... during the live you.... said you liked me and that I'm your type. You even said we are boyfriends" He said the last part in a low voice but seobin still heard him

“oh that. Well... hyung that wasn't a lie" he also started getting shy and looking away from jiwoong “I guess the wine made me a little brave huh"

“So it's true you like me too?" There was a little excitement in jiwoong voice. The younger nodded in response with a smile on his face.

“Wait, ‘too’?" Seobin suddenly asked he seemed to be shocked.

“mmh, because I like you too seobin" jiwoong said reaching for seobin's hand.

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Jiwoong woke up earlier than seobin and watched him as he continued sleeping. He still couldn't believe that they were now officially boyfriends so he patiently waited for the blonde to wake up so that he could ask him once again. He started playing with the younger's face drawing lines with his finger and poking at his cheeks, which obviously made seobin to wake up.

“hyung~ let me sleep." He whined as he tried to pull the blanket up to cover his face but jiwoong pulled it back down to tease him. He really liked seeing his cute reactions everytime he teased him. “do you know what time it is?" Jiwoong asked as he cupped the seobin's cheeks. “what's the time " he spoke through his squished cheeks. Jiwoong swore he wanted to feel those soft, pink lips on his at that very moment but he shrugged those thoughts off.    He stretched his hand and grabbed his phone and handed it to seobin “here, check the time." The latter quickly jolted up when he saw what time it was.

“Why didn't you wake me up?" He slightly slapped jiwoong's chest. “I just did" he moved so close to his face which made the younger to look away with a shy smile, and lord was jiwoong enjoying this, absolutely.

“Seobin." Jiwoong suddenly changed to a more serious tone and the other male turned to look at him with a curious face. He's not used to seeing his hyung that serious. This was new to him so he didn't know what was coming.

“You remember what you said yesterday right?" Seobin could see how nervous jiwoong seemed but he didn't know why.

“Wh.. what did I say?"

“wait, you don't remember?"

“I mean, I know I said many things yesterday so which one specifically." Jiwoong let out a sigh before reaching for seobin's hands.

“You said you liked me too."

“Did I?" Seobin gasped. Jiwoong slowly let go of the younger's hand and looked away. He didn't want seobin to see his sad face. Tears were threatening to fall but he tried so hard to hold them in. There was nothing else for him to say so he decided to leave but before he could, seobin held his hand.

“Hyung~" he leaned forward to hug him. “I'm sorry. I pretended not to remember because I wanted to tease you." Jiwoong couldn't hold his tears back anymore. He let them fall as he hugged seobin back.

“Yah, don't... ever do that again. I really fell for it." He held onto seobin so tightly until seobin couldn't anymore so he broke the hug. He cupped jiwoong's face as he wiped his tear stained cheeks.

“First time seeing you crying. You look cute when you cry though" He chuckled which made him earn a sharp look from the other.

“So are we now boyfriends?" Jiwoong asked shyly. The blonde leaned forward and placed a soft kiss on jiwoong's lips before answering.

“Yes... What, why are you so shocked? Can't I kiss my boyfriend?"

“ of course you can. I was just not... expecting it."

“well then you better get used to it coz I'll be doing it more often." He then moved closer to him and wrapped his hands around jiwoong's neck.

“Bring it on. I've been waiting for this" jiwoong smirked before joining their lips for a more slow and sweet kiss.

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The rest of the day it was just them watching movies, playing video games and munching on snacks here and there. Since they were on vacation they had the whole time to themselves. And before they knew it was already dark outside. They decided to go eat out since no one was in the mood to cook. They made sure to dress warmly before going out. Jiwoong already had a restaurant in mind so Seobin just followed him.

The bells chimed as the door opened. The owner was cleaning the tables as he spotted the two guests.

“Please have a sit " he immediately welcomed them.

Though this place wasn't a big restaurant, it was mostly famous during winter. It was know for it's speciality which was udon noodles. The owner was also very kind and handsome which is also another reason why that place is always lively.

“Two bowls of udon and one bottle of soju." Jiwoong ordered.

“How did you know this place?" Seobin asked looking around.

“I'm friends with the owner. Well the owner's boyfriend." He said pointing at a certain blonde that was taking an order from another table.

“Their food is really nice. You'll like it. you might even ask for another serving." Seobin laughed.

“Yah hyung I'm not trying to gain weight." He pouted. Their food finally arrived. Jiwoong let Seobin taste the food first to watch his reaction. The younger's face lit up after one bite. He gave Jiwoong a thumbs up before taking another scoop.

“See, I told you." Jiwoong said as he also started eating. Hot udon with a bottle of soju really hits the spot. Especially during the cold season. The two ended up ordering another serving and ate to their fill.

“Hyung if I gain weight it's your fault." Seobin said as he held his stomach and the other just laughed at him.

Jiwoong asked for the bill since he noticed the younger starting to get a little tipsy. He's such a light weight.

“Hi Jiwoong, long time no see and oh my god Seobin." Holland gasped at the sight of the other.

“Hi." Seobin replied awkwardly

“Are you two on vacation." He asked.

“Yap a little get away." Jiwoong answered.

“Let's talk some other time. My boyfriend is tired let's go Seobin." He paid before getting up. Holland just nodded as he watched Jiwoong fix Seobin's coat.

“WAIT!! BOYFRIEND!?" He finally processed what the other said. Jiwoong just smilled before waving goodbye and walking out the door.

Holland was left standing there in shock.

“What are you staring at?" He finally got back to his senses.

“Guess what. Jiwoong and Seobin are dating." He told Gichan who was now clearing the table the couple were using.

“I wouldn't be shocked. Those two were quite obvious since long ago. I guess they finally realized their feeling for each other" Gichan simply said as he walked passed his still shocked boyfriend.

When Jiwoong and Seobin got home, they immediately freshened up and went to bed. Jiwoong helped dry Seobin's hair and Seobin did the same.

“Hyung… how do you think the fans will react when they find out we are dating." Seobin asked.

“Well I'm sure we're going to get mixed reactions. Are you scared?" Seobin hummed in response. The elder reached for his hand and pulled him closer to his chest.

“I'll be by your side Seobin, we are in this together. okay? " he then placed a soft kiss on the younger's forehead. The latter smilled and nodded.

“Goodnight hyung"

“Goodnight love."

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AAAHAHHHHAAA fuck my life 😫. Someone please push me off a cliff

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The next morning, Jiwoong and Seobin woke up to the warm sunlight streaming through the curtains. As they enjoyed a lazy breakfast together, Jiwoong couldn't help but think about the revelation from the night before.

"Seobin, no matter what happens, we'll face it together," Jiwoong reassured him, intertwining their fingers. "Let's focus on our happiness and not let external opinions affect us."

Seobin nodded, appreciating Jiwoong's support. They spent the day exploring the town, taking pictures, and creating memories. As the sun began to set, Jiwoong received a message on his phone – their dating news had leaked.

"I guess the cat's out of the bag," Jiwoong sighed, showing Seobin the article on his phone.

The reactions were indeed mixed. Some fans celebrated the news, expressing their support for the couple. Others struggled with the revelation, unsure how to reconcile their idol's public persona with a romantic relationship.

Weeks after the revelation, the reality of their relationship being public started to weigh on Jiwoong and Seobin. Negative comments and judgmental stares became a daily struggle, casting a shadow over their once carefree moments.

Late one evening, Jiwoong found Seobin sitting on the balcony, staring into the distance. The city lights reflected in his eyes, but the usual sparkle was replaced by a glint of sadness.

"Seobin, are you okay?" Jiwoong asked, his voice barely above a whisper.

Seobin sighed, his gaze not leaving the cityscape. "I thought we could handle this, but it's harder than I imagined. I never expected it to be so... isolating."

Jiwoong sat down next to him, shoulders slumped. "I know, love. It's tough for both of us. But we can't let them break us."

As days passed, the weight of public scrutiny grew heavier. Fan events that were once filled with cheers were now tainted with whispers and judgmental glances. The constant pressure took its toll on Seobin's bright personality, dimming his usual enthusiasm.

One evening, Jiwoong found Seobin in their shared apartment, sitting in silence. The atmosphere was thick with unspoken emotions. Jiwoong gently placed a hand on Seobin's shoulder.

"Seobin, I can't stand seeing you like this. Maybe we made a mistake," Jiwoong admitted, his voice wavering.

Seobin looked up, eyes filled with a mix of pain and resignation. "Maybe we did. I never thought love could hurt so much."

Tensions reached a breaking point as they faced growing pressure from the industry. Rumors and speculations fueled the fire, leaving Jiwoong and Seobin feeling like prisoners in their own love story.

One night, after a particularly harsh wave of criticism, Seobin couldn't hold back his tears any longer. "I can't do this, Jiwoong. I can't bear the weight of their expectations and judgments."

Jiwoong pulled Seobin into a tight embrace, both of them drowning in the silence that echoed their unspoken fears. As they clung to each other, the realization that their love might not conquer all settled in, and the future seemed uncertain.

In the midst of the storm, Jiwoong whispered, "I'm sorry, Seobin. I never wanted our love to be a source of pain."

As the night unfolded, the echoes of their heartaches mingled with the city's distant sounds, painting a picture of a love struggling to survive in the face of a world that couldn't understand.

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I miss them 😭😭