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"Now look over there."
"Here?"
"Yeah but keep your face turned towards me."
He was taking photos of you. A lot of photos. You hadn't known when he called you from work, to wear something you like and be ready by five, that this was how he planned the night.
You weren't exactly ignorant of the actual purpose for this date. And you couldn't nerve yourself to ask. After all, you'd been doing the same. Albeit, discreetly.
One look at your phone and you'd be exposed. Hundreds if not thousands of pictures of your boyfriend.
Some at the library. Some from when you went to the kitten cafe your friend recently opened. Some from your late night kitchen endeavors. Some right after he'd come out the shower. When he'd lay on the couch reading his favorite webtoon. When he'd be hunched in his chair, completely absorbed in the game he was playing. And so much more.
Ones where he was totally uninformed. Ones where he'd caught you in the act. Those being your favorite. You loved his smile.
Damn you were going to miss him. But you absolutely refused to cry. It'd hurt him to see you like that. And you would never hurt him.
So if taking photos of you came as any form of comfort from what was going to happen, you'd let him.
"I know it's really bright so close your eyes and open on the count of three okay?"
"Alright!" You agreed.
"One." He counts.
~•~•~
"Oh my goodness!" you looked up at Seokjin completely frozen in place.
"You want to hold it?" He questioned, his face beaming with excitement.
"Yes I- yeah I want to hold it." You couldn't stop the tears brimming over.
"Did you just get us a kitten?" Your voice cracks as you open your arms wide in invitation.
"Yeah I did. And she's all yours." He whispers as he lowered the feline into your chest.
"She's so pretty." You know you're ugly crying when her warmth engulfs you.
"And she fits perfectly." He points as you let out a loud sob you can't hold back.
"She's.. Bounty." You state, your lips jutting out.
"That sounds lovely. But I only got her for an hour so give her back now."
You could safely say your jaw touched the floor. And your heart completely stopped.
"I'm only kidding, I'm only kidding!" He wheezes, the words washing you over with relief.
"I hate you!!"
He chuckles.
"No I love you." You whine, correcting yourself.
He smiles. Boldly. But it soon fades away.
"I have some news love." His tone suddenly serious.
~•~•~
"Two." Another count.
You lick your lips in anticipation. Fixing your posture.
~•~•~
The first time he confessed.
You were sitting at the beach, toes curling in the sand, as your eyes reflected the waves crashing over each other. Loud. And beautiful. You had always liked the ocean.
His eyes? They reflected you.
"You know, I've always denied it. To myself. But I think it's time I realize it. I want to come to terms with it."
"Realize what?" You turn to look at him. Your best friend of three years.
"Realize that maybe.. I do like you – a lot."
"Well of course you like me, I like you too?" You're confused.
"No I.. you don't understand. I- I can’t stop thinking about you. When I wake up, when I’m about to fall asleep."
He looked exhausted.. Like he's been holding it back for too long.
"You.. like me." It was like the last piece of a jigsaw. One to complete the full picture.
"I want to wake up next to you. Every morning. I want you to be last thing I see. Every night."
You knew his lips were plush. You didn't know exactly how soft, warm and sweet the kiss would be when you leaned in.
Exactly how loved you'd feel when his hand grazed your neck, fingers lightly tracing behind your ear.
"You know there's no going back from this, don't you?" His voice, several octaves lower than his usual timbre.
You leaned in for the second time.
~•~•~
"And.. three. Say cheese!"
His camera clicked.
When you returned home that night you went straight to Bounty and brought her to your living room where you insisted Jin sit with you.
"You know, you have dark circles under your eyes."
"Jinnie.." you knew well and good what he was insinuating, but you couldn't go to bed. No. Every moment mattered now. Now that he was here only two more days. you couldn't let a second go to waste. No you could not.
He must've seen the fight within you,
"That’s it, I’m carrying you to bed."
"Jin-"
"Just.. lay down with me. We don't have to sleep just yet." He looked tired.
You savored every time he'd hold you. Tenfolds now more than ever.
"Here, let me get you tucked in."
He held you so close. Close enough you could practically feel the definition of his muscles. Still, you'd pull him closer if you could.
His arm rested over top yours, his whole body wrapped around your back. The other arm, you used as a pillow.
His fingers fiddled with yours. Stopping to brush over the promise ring he'd given you when he told you about his enlistment.
"I promise Y/N. I'll be back in no time. But you have to promise me too."
You sniffled in response.
"You'll take care of yourself while I'm gone."
"Hmm."
"I'll be back so early, I won't even have enough time to miss you." He let out a dry chuckle.
The words a complete conflict with his tone.
He'd miss you. He'd miss you more than anything. And you knew that.
"I'm in love with you Seokjin." You whisper.
His hand now rested on top of your thigh, patting slowly, with a gentle rhythm he knew would ease you.
"I'll be ready by then too.."
"For?" You asked, your voice meek.
"For the family you've always dreamed of."
You hated that you cried. You hated it. But you couldn't stop yourself. He kissed your ear, pulling your hair back.
The rest of the night was spent saying I love yous. Desperately. Breathlessly. With hope.