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I know who you pretend I am
~ I've been so in love with this boy for as long as I can remember my heart pounds in my chest when I look at him when he smiles at me. Golly, when he smiles at me my heart aches and yearns for him. he's everything I've ever wanted he's so sweet and kind and golly he makes me so happy
~ he treats me with such kindness now, it only made me fall more in love with him. he calls me such beautiful names such as "love" and "darling" he tells me he loves me, and as much as I love him back and I wish I could let him know how much I do love him, I know *why* he treats me this way now.
~ he treats me this way because *she* left him, I'm easy to get I know I am. Everyone also knows that I loved him, everyone knows that I am weak in the knees for him. he pretends I'm her, I can't even be mad because she was no she is amazing.
~ he treats me like how he used to treat her, it hurts so bad to hear the man you love most call you another woman name. It's the worst pain I've felt in a while. I already knew long ago that he was using me but I let him because of my love for him, hell I still love him even now you just can't choose feelings like that as much as you wish you could they just don't go away.
~ I knew who he pretended I was. was I okay with it? well, what other choice did I have? throw out the love of my dreams or just pretend I didn't know. if I didn't know how could I face it? if I didn't know it couldn't hurt me.
~ I still love him, he makes my heart pound still he makes the heat rise to my cheeks whenever he tells me I look pretty,golly I still get all sweaty when he holds my hand. I still want him in my life, ill always want him in my life. I just wish I *at least* didn't know who he pretended I am. I wish that at least I could sleep beside him and not pay attention to the fact he says her name while he sleeps, perhaps then I could sleep myself instead of thinking of her name all night.