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"Merry Christmas Teumes!" Doyoung take a closer look at all the cheeful faces of their beloved fans or teumes, as what most of them use to call these precious group of people who was one of the reasons of him standing here, among the blinding lights, the deafening cheers and his 9 brothers.
9 brothers, huh
Doyoung still feels empty, seeing that there's only 9 of them beside him and not the usual 11. He quickly shook the thoughts off, he was not supposed to be thinking of this here, he did not want Hyunsuk to be worried again, he almost blew his cover when he cried a little bit too much during his own birthday celebration, thank god that time he was quick to give a reasonable explanation.
To be honest, his heart felt so empty, everything feels different and he still wanted to keep hoping for a miracle like everyone else, he still can see in his mind, how happy will he be if he was here with them, doing a world tour is their shared dream. Not to mention his voice, his melodious laughter, his crescent like eyesmile, oh god he just missed him so much, he felt like flying back to Korea this instant and finally meet him again, or at least catch a glimpse of him from afar.
Is he okay? Is he eating fine? Did he catch a cold because he's been playing in the snow too much? Is he crying after everything that happened? Is something bothering his mind? Is he happy now? Did they gave him enough love and support? All these questions bombarded Doyoung's mind as he walked towards their van. He didn't even realize that the concert had ended, he took a deep breath and went back to the usual smiling Doyoung, not wanting to make anyone worried.
This season always reminded him of his Mistletoe cover, Doyoung was there when he said he wanted to record a Christmas cover, he was there to listen to the whole recording process too, he can still recall very vividly how angelic he looks that day, with that beautiful blinding smile being plastered on his face. "I hope the cover will bring a smile to their face during this festive season Doyoung-ah, may everyone have a cozy and happy Christmas." That was what he as said. That day was when Doyoung realised, how he only wanted to make others smile with his music and also the reason why this cover was so special for him too.
Thank you for this hyung, I will definitely cheer up while listening to this. Thank you for making my Christmas the cosiest this year.
Doyoung was just falling asleep while listening when he felt a light pat on his shoulder.
"Hyung, I will be joining Hyunsuk hyung and Jihoon hyung eating outside. You look tired so I told them to let you rest, I got the keys so rest well okay?"
Doyoung managed to smile and mouthed a simple 'thank you' to Junghwan. This kid has really grown up huh? So dependable.
Doyoung was ready to cry his heart out the moment he stepped into his room, but shocked when he was greeted by a hug instead.
"Doyoung-ah, I missed you so much."
This overly warm and familiar voice, this embrace, this warmth, this scent was all it takes and Doyoung's walls was broken completely, leaving him in his vulnerable, broken state.
"Doyoung-ah, why are you crying?"
Doyoung sight was blurred by his own tears but he can clearly see, him, the love of his life whom he has been missing so badly, wiped the tears from his eyes and holding both of his cheeks tenderly, making both of their eyes meeting each other.
"Hyung—"
Was the only word he managed to say, before he was pulled into another warm hug, the warm, resurring hug he always got whenever he as nervous before their monthly evaluation, the hug that makes him feel protected and safe, as if nothing can break him apart.
"It must have been so hard on you, Our Doyoungie. I'm sorry it took me too long to come and meet you. I'm here now, you can cry as much as you want Doyoung-ah."
That night was filled with both tears and laughter from the two of them. It was all thanks to Hyunsuk and the managers, since they can see through Doyoung's act so clearly. He will only show his vulnerable self to him, that one special person whom will always be his guardian angel.