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May 12th, 2018
Today, I brought a stray cat home. Joshua got mad at me at first, but upon seeing how cute it was he let it pass. Now I have two cuties at home, my husband and my sweet feline child. We named him Noche, since he is as dark as the night.
The rest of the day we spent it just lazing around in our cozy home while Noche slept in Joshua’s lap.
May 15th, 2018
Joshua decided to clean the attic all of a sudden today. It’s been a while since we last went up there. Needless to say, he almost gave me a heart attack since he almost fell trying to dust. I swear this man will be the end of me. I told him we weren’t as young as we used to be, but he just laughed and said: “We’re never too old, Kenny! Nor too late~” He cooed.
I rolled my eyes, but smiled anyway. I love Joshua so much, I can never be too mad at him. We ended up cleaning the attic and setting up a mini cinema there. It was actually pretty nice, we even took Noche with us.
May 18th, 2018
I love my husband so much. I really do. Nothing special happened today, but does anything have to happen to love my lifelong partner? I’m very lucky to have him in my life.
May 21st, 2018
Our anniversary is getting close! I think we’re too old for big surprises, but a small gift doesn’t hurt. I already bought his gift. It’s his favorite pair of shoes, the old ones were sadly injured by our mischievous Noche. We’ve been married for so long, but I’m still nervous if he’d like my gift.
Calm down Kenny, I’m sure he will. You can do it.
May 24th, 2018
It’s our anniversary! It was so much fun and everyday, I feel luckier to have been married to this wonderful person. For breakfast, we went to the café we love to go to every morning. Then, we took a walk down the park where I confessed my feelings to him. In the afternoon, we went to our first date spot and had a picnic with Noche. We spent a lot of time reminiscing about our young days. Finally, at night I took him to the fanciest restaurant in town which also happened to be the same place I proposed.
We exchanged our gifts there and I smiled when I opened mine. It was the first book from my favorite childhood author and as for my gift, he really enjoyed it. “This time, I’ll hide them from Noche.” He said. I laughed and gazed into those warm chocolate eyes. God. I really do love him.
May 27th, 2018
I had a horrible nightmare today. I dreamt that I was at shore and watched Joshua staring back at me with a sad smile as he drifted away in a small boat. I wanted to run up to him, but I couldn’t move. It was horrible.
Joshua consoled me with small pecks on my face and spooning. I know living forever is not an option, but I at least wish to leave first rather than see him go. I don’t know what I would do if he leaves first.
May 30th, 2018
Found Noche and Joshua sleeping together. It was a cute sight to see, so of course I took a picture of it. And now, it’s my wallpaper. Good thing Andre taught me how to use a smartphone.
June 3rd, 2018
It was raining today and I didn’t feel like doing anything that day. Joshua made us some coffee and watched Noche try to catch the rain droplets in the window. In all honesty, I prefer winter rains rather than summer ones. After it stops raining, it’s too hot! I rather be curled up under my bed sheets during winter than sweating like crazy in summer.
June 6th, 2018
Andre introduced us to his school friend. Well, “friend”. I can see the look in Andre’s eyes that he feels more than platonic feelings for her. They hung out with us in our small bakery shop and when they were gone, we gossiped about them with Andre’s mother. Apparently, we weren’t the only ones to notice.
Ah, young love. I remember the times where I would find an excuse just to help Joshua out at his family bakery and spend time with him.
June 9th, 2018
Well I’ll be damned, I really do love my husband. There’s nothing in this world that can describe all of my feelings for him. Well, there probably is. But, it still wouldn’t be enough. Telling the whole world, no, the whole galaxy how much I love Joshua will not be enough to show him my sincere feelings.
You know, I do believe in soulmates and I know, even now, that Joshua is mine and I am his.
June 12th, 2018
Today, Joshua got sick. I panicked because I remembered my nightmare. But, the doctor said it was just hay fever and prescribed him medication. We closed our bakery for today and I nursed my husband all day. It reminded me of how I would often take care of Joshua whenever he got sick.
In sickness and in health. I will always be by his side, no matter what.
We had to ask Andre to look after Noche until Joshua got better, I wonder how Noche is doing? He’s in an unfamiliar place right now. I hope he doesn’t cause trouble.
June 15th, 2018
I had that dream again, but today, it didn’t help that Joshua started to feel pain in his chest. I’m starting to get worried and worried. Is there some way to keep someone alive forever? Andre said that “Google” had all the answers.
Google, what to do in order to live a long life?
June 18th, 2018
Love me tender, love me sweet. Never let me go. You have my life complete. And I love you so~
I love that song. I always sing it to my Joshua.
June 21st, 2018
Joshua and I decided to watch our wedding video today. I forgot how much I cried that day, geez. I’m getting old, but it was only yesterday when Marlene was just a teen and now, she is a single mother raising Andre. Time sure flies fast, huh?
Speaking of old memories, I found my old writing box. It was filled with old poems and letters of love I had written to Joshua. As I read through them, I can see that literature wasn’t my best subject. But, Joshua claims that they were good poems and letters, but I don’t believe him.
I mean, I showed the same letter to Andre and he told me my writing sucked. I even misspelled beautiful as boutiful and I was fifteen when I wrote this! I’m so ashamed, but my husband proudly stapled them on the board in our bakery and now everyone can read my embarrassing writing.
I love my husband, but sometimes I wonder what goes through his head.
June 24th, 2018
Joshua was diagnosed with cancer today. He’s been feeling sick these days, so I took him to the hospital. The doctor said that since he’s lived a healthy lifestyle, with treatment he’ll get better.
God, I hope so.
June 27th, 2018
Andre told us he confessed to his friend, but was rejected. They are still friends though and Andre is fine with that. “I didn’t expect her to like me back, I just wanted her to know.” He said. What a good kid, one day he’ll find his soulmate.
Not all childhood friends end up together after all.
June 30th. 2018
Today is my mother’s death anniversary. We went to visit her resting place today. As usual, I “caught up” with her and changed her flowers. I’m very glad that my mother accepted me and did not push me away like father did. I miss her sometimes.
I wonder how mom is doing up there? I hope she’s watching over us.
July 2nd, 2018
Somehow, I have a feeling that something will come to an end. That scares me. I hope I’m wrong.
July 5th, 2018
Today, we slowly danced to Elvis Presley's “Can’t Help Fall In Love With You” . Noche wanted to join in too, so he jumped to my leg and I laughed. We had to slow dance with Noche between us and as much as it was fun, I hoped it was just us two.
Oh well, we did spoil Noche too much.
July 8th, 2018
I don’t think we have much time left, so we made a wish list and tried to make as many wishes as we could. Am I being too hasty? I just… don’t want to lose him, but if it has to be that way, I want him to be happy until the very end.
July 11th, 2018
We’re halfway done through our wishlist! Joshua seems happier these days and I’m glad he is. Honestly, this is so much! We’re basically doing a lot of stuff back in our day we couldn’t do so openly. Andre and Marlene have been helping us with the list too. I really appreciate their help.
We can do this. Let’s finish this.
July 14th, 2018
Today, Joshua and I decided for the first time to be in the presence of a sunrise and a sunset. It’s beautiful. As we bask into the orange sky in complete silence, I say it one last time.
“I love you, Joshua.”
“I love you too, Kenny.”
July 17th, 2018
If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied. And illuminate the no’s on their vacancy signs. If there’s no one beside you when your soul embarks. Then I’ll follow you into the dark.
Joshua, when we meet again… I want to tell you how happy I was for the both us. Until then, please watch over me and Noche.