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Sanzu had just returned to his cozy home in an apartment building in Shibuya. Hand pressed the door lock code, then fingerprint again, swiped the magnetic card and then entered the house. Many times he criticized it because it was confusing but then stopped because of some other convenient aspects it brought. Hang your outerwear on a pole and then toss your shoes on the shelf. Step by step closer to the sofa and then fell down to lie on the other couch. Soft and smooth, along with the cool room temperature, Sanzu blinked and gradually fell asleep on the chair.
That's right, it's been three days since Sanzu lacked sleep and barely slept much. Part of that is thanks to the sudden increase in the amount of work that makes a NO.2 like Sanzu also have to work overtime and then bring the work home to continue them; the rest is mostly processing work and checking information, can't stay awake without drinking coffee. Originally, he didn't want to do it, but he hesitated because Mikey's words made him realize how responsible his position was, and put the king on top of his head and couldn't help it, and at the same time didn't want to offend the king. I tried to solve all of them as quickly as possible. Including the tasks assigned to him and many other trivial things that are not so important that Sanzu does all the work by himself, sometimes leaving others to do it if it does not require his hand.
Sanzu trudged home around three o'clock in the afternoon, which could be considered earlier than usual, and accidentally fell asleep on the troposphere sofa in the living room. It's the weekend and he too can rest in peace. This tired body is much easier to fall asleep. Sleep soundly until seven or eight o'clock in the evening. Only then did Ran open the door to his house. He lived in the same house with Sanzu for a long time. Both are still the same.
In the house, the lights were on brightly, someone was still wearing a white shirt and lying on a chair. Looking at the scene in front of me, I could only sigh. Sanzu slept outside the room, who hadn't showered yet, the air conditioner was turned on at 16°C and it looked like he wanted to catch a cold. His hand shook gently to wake him up.
Sanzu woke up and was still a bit sleepy and daydreaming with nostalgia for a good night's sleep. He rubbed his eyes and looked at Ran, his words were full of languidness, probably not sleeping yet. Sitting on a chair looking dreamy.
''You're back, since when''
‘‘Just arrived, not long ago. Go to your room and sleep.'' Ran replied, gently reminding him to go into the bedroom and sleep. Sanzu listened and stood up again, leaning on the chair's handle. He took off the tie that was still around his neck and threw it at Ran and went into the bedroom to continue. His steps staggered as if he lost his balance, but Sanzu didn't fall, just squinting in annoyance as he looked at the way into the room.
Ran's face ate the whole purple tie in his face, held it down, his eyes followed the back who was walking into the bedroom and shook his head, who is unruly but can't help but tolerate him. work in this house. Ran worried about Sanzu because he had to work without rest for several days, deciding that he would take a shower and take care of dinner tonight, cooking something Sanzu would eat when he woke up.
Meals in the house, usually the two will take turns cooking and sometimes will go out for dinner if the two are too lazy to cook and clean the messy kitchen.
When Sanzu woke up, looked at the clock on the small table showing the number 11:00 PM, then hurriedly pulled the blanket over to the left, got out of bed, and yawned a few times, her hair was now messy because of the movement. When I went outside to look, I realized that he was always sitting in the chair (he guessed) with a computer, several files stacked on top of each other and a cup of coffee still smoking, Sanzu assumed he was freshly brewed. It wasn't long, but he himself knew it was the second drink of the evening.
Their eyes met, Ran stopped typing and looked up at Sanzu intently, both of them stared at him for a while until he asked him:
‘Wake up? Eat something, you must be hungry.”
Sanzu didn't reply to Ran, just nodded and pulled out a chair to sit opposite the purple-haired guy; Hand pulled the plate of food towards me and then ate. Sometimes, he pokes the plate with a fork to make a clunk sound to attract the opponent's attention. Hands on chin to sit and eat until half an hour later. Sanzu is not a slow eater, he swears, it's just that he eats while looking at people so he doesn't have to worry about eating. In fact, he could have chosen not to eat, because someone had managed and nagged, forcing Sanzu to change the pattern of skipping meals so much that he was now half reluctant to eat.
The clunk sound from the china plate attracted Ran, who raised his head to look with the same blank expression at the man who was wondering why he wasn't a fan of the game. Sanzu also looked and was silent, he didn't know what to say anymore, originally just wanted people to notice him but now he can't find a reason to justify in this case.
“Ah, nothing at all.”’ Sanzu said briskly, then moved his chair away, putting the plate of food in the sink, then turned back and sprawled on the table in frustration. The job was taken from Ran forever, even if you want to do it, you will be scolded and beaten like: ''You worked so hard and didn't rest, I did it.'' or ''Have a good break. want me to beat you to the bone'' and many more
Having been taken from his job, he was bored and lying on the table. That guy worried about him too much, obviously bothered. Sanzu didn't know why Ran cared for herself so affectionately, caring for the intimate and disguised (actually secretive, caring for her lover) brotherhood.
Ran felt that it was also his fault, so he got up and went to the refrigerator to find his favorite Cozy Corner cheesecake, putting the whole box of pink and yellow crust cakes on the other side, quickly attracting his attention. Sanzu leaned over and pulled it towards him in a hurry, before Ran could take the fork to eat anymore, his hand opened the box, the wonderful smell of cheese emanating with the sweet and fatty taste of cream mixed into each layer of yellow cake. With a fork in his hand, he took each piece of cake and chewed it, laughing like a child receiving his favorite toy. Looking at his smiling face, he smiled happily. Sanzu looked really pretty when smiling peacefully (not when he was mad), unlike back then, where he was just warlike and insane. He kept on eating each piece of that cheese cake, Ran sometimes looked up and then looked at the computer screen at work, watching her lover happily enjoy the sweetness of the cake.
The distance between the two of them seemed to narrow to only a small distance. In this apartment there is only one guy working and one person sipping the sweet and savory flavors of cream and cheese.
The smile on the lips with two corners of the mouth gradually disappeared, the hand holding the fork stopped in front of the half-eaten cake in the container. Nose choked with unpleasant spicy aftertaste. Tears flowed down the skin from both eyes, rolling down to the chin. He rubbed his eyes and wiped his tears away but he felt strange, obviously trying not to cry but why… his eyes were watery. This uncomfortable feeling made Sanzu choke in his throat, he didn't know what it was like right now - like a numbing of Sanzu's sensory senses or more.
Sanzu's erratic changes caused Ran to temporarily put work aside, looking at him with worry and pity. Approach him and hug him from behind, asking in a soft voice if Sanzu is okay, how is he and many other things. His tears rolled more and his voice trembled without words. I've never wanted to cry so much as I do now. He himself was always alone, the attention from the previous captain was almost as if Sanzu did not receive too much attention from anyone, being asked by Ran made him a little surprised.
He didn't understand why Ran cared so much about him now and for what, he didn't understand. Sanzu snuggled into his lap, sniffling a few times. Having someone he can trust makes him want to open up more than in the midst of hesitation, he doesn't want to open up anymore. Sanzu thinks that he should not open up to anyone anymore, he… is not worthy of attention.
Ran used her hand to pull him out of the chair, to the sofa in the living room, and held the pink-haired man in his arms only a few centimeters shorter than himself. Sanzu was still bewildered and confused with confusion, not knowing why his co-worker, subordinate and housemate would give such favor.
''What's wrong, tell me.'' He still spoke slowly and gently to the other party.
“‘I… I… I don’t know, it’s just… you care so much, I’m not used to it.’” His voice was shaky with a trembling and somewhat hesitant tone. Exactly, Sanzu didn't know anything, didn't know how to say it. About the sudden crying for no reason or the more special attention than usual from him? Whatever it was, he didn't know how, his mind was tangled into a tangled spool of thread. Sanzu wished there was someone who could vent the troubles from his brain, he would be grateful if someone pulled him out of this brain-ache.
Sanzu, who doesn't like to touch, just silently accepted Ran's hug and didn't say a word for a long time, it took ten minutes for Sanzu to come up with some faltering words.
He didn't know what to say. Everything, Ran, the cake, ... all in front of Sanzu made him both surprised and appreciated more than anyone. Want to cherish these precious times.
(Probably) other than his former captain, this was one of the rare times when he felt a sense of care so he paid a little more attention. Being cherished by a loved one makes a small happiness suddenly become so big.
Sanzu reached for the tissue box on the table and wiped the tears and the mucus from his nose that was filling up so that he couldn't breathe, then spoke slowly, full of hesitation and hesitation. He thought maybe he would tell a little bit, after all, Ran has been a friend and acquaintance for a long time, so it might be okay to tell a little bit, he cheered himself up in his heart. Sanzu thought he would tell this story to Ran
Sanzu is the second child in the family, but he always feels lonely as if he doesn't belong in that house, so he hates his Akashi name so fiercely. I don't want to have anything to do with my brother Takeomi and younger sister Senju, to be honest. Because the scene of being alone is also quite common, both of them… no, the whole family except for the little sister who rarely cares, no one has ever cared about him. Sanzu also accepts himself as being alone in the house. Childhood is like that, nothing is too rosy or interested in him. You also create a barrier between the world and your inner self.
Some time later, in different time lines and worlds, there will be times when it will be cut in the eye and leave a scar in the eye, sometimes it will be close to Mikey and Baji, and also know the Sano family. like their close friends and a lot of things around his home, about his life and relationships. It is also possible that during his time in Touman, Sanzu was really quiet and didn't want to say too much to others, only putting his captain and king first. Then, until he was in Tenjiku, for the first time, Sanzu saw the Haitani brothers with his own eyes and were still in the same place, so they gradually became acquainted until later, until they were in Brahma.
The happiest time can be considered when being with Mutou, because that guy used to take care of him a lot. From the origin of the favorite cheesecake, to the guidance and care, care and concern for Sanzu very much; I even played with him shogi or Go when I was bored.
Sanzu still clearly remembers how the captain took care of him during a fight, reminding him to pay attention to everything. Like an older brother, yes, that's how Sanzu sees Mutou as a brother. But after that, no more. Because he had killed this older brother with a favorite katana ruthlessly, decisively and without mercy. Sounds really scary.
A madman that is not normal also contains a different anomaly.
But Sanzu was so simple that it was a little truth, that the more something in his hand, the easier it was to slip out of his grasp. Mutou can leave Sanzu at any time, when that guy leaves Touman and joins Thien Truc means that he will only have two paths to go. One by two in. But no matter what, it is the latter that will kill people with their own hands.
That realization made him quite extreme with this life. Just always wanted to be alone. Because if someone steps into life and then leaves. Sanzu felt himself pathetic and terrible. He thought that maybe the problem was with himself, so it was all new.
Sanzu also has a face like this. He can be mad, can be belligerent, insatiably violent, cruel, cruel and uncompromising, selfish, putting the king first but sometimes in that soft world. He will be a scared little child who wants to avoid, quit, rebel and many other things. A soft, weak side that no one can touch. Bury it deep in your mind and keep it to yourself. No one can find it.
When he was born, he did not have a good family, so it made this kid not bright at all. Even so, growing up, he was still a person full of mental abnormalities.
Ran was quite surprised when he told him that he had an unstable past and that Sanzu had a soft spot. Although he was a joker, with this one, he didn't want to bring it up as his usual teasing joke. He knows what to play with and what not to. What's more, this person in front of her is a lover, Ran doesn't want Sanzu to show a grudge against her and then stay away, at that time she wanted to live together, maybe she couldn't. He hugged and comforted him like a baby, the way he coaxed his younger brother to stop crying when he was a baby. It has always worked, and this time too.
Sanzu let Ran pat her head and then hugged herself. It makes him feel safe and can trust the other person with peace of mind. Otherwise, he would not have opened his heart to those who liked to laugh at people. Sanzu thought the relationship between the two was co-workers, subordinates and superiors, housemates and acquaintances, and many other things - a complicated relationship; For Ran, he is the lover. Sanzu is the person he wants to spend his life loving, holding himself in his loving arms. (That's why we let Rindou live on his own instead of living togetherthere If you make any false statements to Sanzu, he will die.)
Ran doesn't know since when did she fall in love with her lover, falling in love with someone like Sanzu - a madman who is also a superior. He found this to be very absurd, and he didn't know why he would miss people. Called love, he is not sure, he can give up this feeling whenever he wants, Ran thinks so. Ran is a beautiful person but not very suitable for love. The capricious and somewhat selfish nature and the nature that made people want to avoid, a giant redflags that can walk.
This relationship can also be called ambiguous. Ran likes to be vague, because he can kick people whenever he wants without getting involved too much or falling in love with the chicken coop. That's it until the end. But it seems the play is over, because now he loves Haruchiyo more than ever.
The two never realized how much they loved each other. Just that one binds oneself to the past, one can only silently worry. The two of them went back and forth like the old children's butter-tube conversations. Because it's from both, but far from the distance, Sanzu doesn't open up too much. Ran has a cautious attitude towards the whole world and is wary except for her younger brother. The wire connecting the ends of the butter tube was as thin as the one connecting the two of them. Just the slightest touch and the thread that binds the two will break and they will lose each other, in a sense called complete severance. Don't appear in the other person's life anymore.
But even so, both of them tried to close the gap between the two of them closer to each other. Touch the private world of both sides. They want to be the other half of the other. Become an indispensable item of the opponent. They both want it, maybe closer to the other.
Sanzu's inner world is full of childhood traumas, family problems and the surrounding life that makes him not want to open up to anyone or show his true nature. Marks his crazy gait with his composure. Nor let anyone set foot in their own world. Isolating and shrinking, it's not much different from Ran, because with only one younger brother by his side, he will obviously put his younger brother first, putting the boy first; only Rindou and the strong one, Izana, could subdue him. Carefully scrutinize, don't trust anyone. The two look different but still have a few small things in common with each other.
But having something in common, the time they lived together made them both understand each other a little more. For example, Sanzu loves cheesecake but hates spicy food, or Ran hates sweets and prefers milder things with a bit of bitterness like coffee. In a moral sense, the two complement each other - from personality to eating or whole life are contrasting or opposing each other.
Ran and Sanzu, are both magnets on each side and then attract each other. Because the distance between the two is now closer than ever. It is fragile and like a thin sheet of glass. Reflects the other person's image and is easy to break. Maybe it just takes a little more effort and everything can pay off in the most rewarding way. Can reveal the innermost feelings hidden inside the heart, tell the other person that he loves the other person very much. Can't stop thinking about the other person, feeling jealous of the other person next to each other or the simple happiness that a dinner, a few questions or a late-night cup of coffee runs the organization's deadline.
Now, Sanzu was lying in Ran's lap, letting him hug him easily because of their height. Being hugged by him was like a soothing opiate, full of lightness and a little bit of a sense of security. Haruchiyo is like an arrogant cat lying on his lap for his owner to stroke. Ran covered her mouth with her hand and smiled, not expecting this guy to be so soft and gentle at times. The time spent with this co-worker felt like a new horizon.
Lying in his lap, seemingly sleepy, Ran helped him into the room to lie down. Sanzu vaguely leaned on her body as if clinging to a small floating buoy. Afraid that if there was no one to help him, he would probably crash into the house somewhere. Because everything in the house was so dim that Sanzu couldn't see anything clearly, just splashes of color and dark space and a terrible headache like a hammer.
Placing Sanzu's body caused a thud in the room, Ran was about to leave but was pulled by his hand, he could only look back questioningly. Until he tried to sit up and talk.
‘‘You are the only one by my side now and in the future. Thank you so much for being by my side. Always care and take care of people. It's good to have you by my side, Ran."
That's right, after killing the captain, leaving the hukou by himself, Sanzu was nowhere to be found. Now Sanzu's wish could only be to be with Ran for a long time. From now until the future is uncertain. Every moment wanted to be with him longer. More than ever, I want to stay like this forever.
After hearing that, Ran seemed a bit hesitant and then kept quiet, but in his heart, he wanted to cry, but he still pursed his lips and tried to keep calm. Little by little, little by little, his feelings were reciprocated. Not a fancy word, just a normal word from the other person. He rushed over and pulled Haruchiyo to his lap and hugged him. Feeling truly happier than ever. Ran wanted Sanzu to belong to him, only him. Maybe it's a reality now.
They will be a couple and together. From now until now.
Two criminals, with a (small) apartment and a tender love for each other, sounds like a joke but to Ran and Sanzu it's not real because it's happening now and until the future.
Ran even bragged to his brother about how to get a girlfriend or a bunch of trifles about everything around him and Haruchiyo. Rindou swore that he heard this brother rambling about his lover - co-workers and boss Rindou was so fed up and overeating, at times he wanted to grab a rag and stuff Ran's mouth with it, because he was really showing off. too much hurt this brother because he was alone. That's what their brothers were like, but Rindou still had a kind heart to wish for his brother.
As for Haruchiyo, he still obediently sat in his lap enjoying Ran's hug, he liked it and it's been a long time since this crazy NO.2 has been able to hug someone. It's been a long time, and it has to be measured by the number of years, the time after Tenjiku lost - there was no one to hug him or give him gentle things and even pay attention to him. But with Ran, it was different, after living in the same house, he took care of him little by little, even paying attention to his life and buying Haruchiyo the cheesecake he always loved until he almost overeating because he ate too much. Willing to do the work for him, damn it, Ran really took notice of almost everything about him. From the base or to the house, most of those things were almost all his attention to detail. It can be said that Ran is not bad but he thinks a lot.
Now he just wants to ignore them, put them aside and focus on the soft sofa and be hugged by the person he loves. Ran was so gentle with Haruchiyo at the base that Rindou thought the younger brother could just go to the bathroom and throw up his shirt just because it was too much for him to imagine. Expressing intimacy is like marking others. The two of them fell in love too hard to understand, Ran's younger brother could only helplessly shrug and ignore the other two.