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Taehyung and Jisoo had somehow gave out a sigh of relief after having posted their song on their soundcloud account. They had been quiet for a while now and their fans deserve to know the truth. They had waited so that both of them is ready when their truth came out. The fans deserve to know. The fans who had been with them since the beginning of their relationship. The fans who had supported them in almost everything that they do. They know that those very same fans will understand them and hopefully love them just the same. Both Taehyung and Jisoo know that whatever happens they know that they got each other.
The song that they had just released is co-written by both of them and produced by Yoongi. While working on the song, Taehyung had already given Yoongi creative freedom that he needs. But one afternoon, Yoongi called them over to the studio. He seemed emotional as he sat them down.
“Why are you guys bullying me?” Yoongi sounded exasperated. “This is very personal. Don’t leave it up to me.” Yoongi said waving at them the lyric sheet they had given to him.
Taehyung and Jisoo were confused. “What do you mean hyung? We are not bullying you.” Taehyung told Yoongi.
“We—” Jisoo looked at Taehyung. “We had already talked about it. We trust you with that.” Taehyung and Jisoo truly trusted Yoongi. Personally and professionally. He was undoubtedly talented and everything he touches is magic.
Yoongi looked at the couple in front of him. He knows that they are serious with this. He thanks them for trusting him. But Yoongi doesn’t know if can really do justice to their song. He very much knows that both of them are very capable of doing the song on their own. Both Taehyung and Jisoo could produce this if they really wanted to.
“How did the song sound like in your head when you wrote the lyrics?” Yoongi asked.
“I just literally wrote lines and gave it to Jisoo. I just helped her in the lyrics.” Taehyung said. And that made Yoongi looked at Jisoo. Jisoo had a shy smile in her face. Yoongi was right. One of them had an initial idea of how they want the song to sound like. Jisoo hummed the melody to Yoongi. And Yoongi now knows how exactly to work for both Taehyung and Jisoo.
It wasn’t that long when Yoongi had called back the couple to now record the vocals. Both Taehyung and Jisoo portrayed and reflected the emotions that they wanted for their song and it was beautiful and magical.
Jisoo was reading through twitter on what the fans thought about their songs. The fans cried and understands them. One posted the true topic of having lost a child and then Jisoo bitterly smiled. The original poster was one of their fans from the beginning. That fan must really know them both. They did not hide it that much but she had read between the lines.
Its true. Jisoo had a miscarriage. Jisoo and Taehyung had lost an angel. They had known they were pregnant a few months after their magical wedding.
“Come on! Let’s just try it!” Taehyung excitedly convinces Jisoo to take a pregnancy test. With those puppy eyes, Jisoo could not resist to even say ‘No’. So, they did buy a pregnancy kit. Jisoo was feeling a bit under the weather today. She was vomiting and tired. She thinks that they had just eaten too much food from the day before. She can’t be pregnant because it still hadn’t been that long that since she stopped her birth control so it can’t be that.
Taehyung handed her the kit and she went hurriedly into the bathroom.
“So?” Taehyung asked her behind the door. He could’ve just entered. There was nothing he hasn’t seen already. He seems a bit excited for this. She chuckled. “I haven’t even peed yet. Relax!”
As if on cue, she was about to urinate. She placed the kit in place and then placed the cap on it after. She gripped it in her hand then walked put of the bathroom. The both of them beelined to the couch. “It said it would take two minutes,” Taehyung read from the box the instructions.
Jisoo placed it in between both of them. “We shouldn’t put our hopes up with this. We know we just had too much sushi,” She wasn’t sure if she was talking to Taehyung or was she talking to herself.
Two minutes was up and she looked at Taehyung and he was as expectant as she was. Glad she wasn’t alone in this. Her hands was shaking as she was about to flip the thing to reveal the result.
‘Pregnant’ it showed on the thing. She couldn’t believe it. She once again looked at Taehyung and he was crying. Tears were falling down his face rapidly. She was probably crying too. She was speechless. She is over the top happy and he knows Taehyung is too based on his reaction.
“We’re going to have a baby!” Taehyung’s shout echoed and shook the whole condo unit. She too shouted with Taehyung. They hugged each other as they cried together. She didn’t expect it to be real. The thing that started as a joke gave them something beautiful. It gave them a new life.
The next few weeks were hectic. The couple decided to turn their spare room into a nursery. They had gone shopping for the necessities for the baby. With the help of their friends who gifted them other items for the nursery, they were done in no time.
11 of them squeezed inside the room and admired what a wonderful job they had done. Yoongi and Jennie handled the interior design and the architecture of the baby’s room. Taehyung was in the store with Seokjin and Hobi so that they could get the stuff that Yoongi and Jennie had bought online. Namjoon and Jungkook would carry the things to their condo. Jimin and Rose was in charge of the snacks—the buying and the eating, both. And Lisa, she kept Jisoo company. No one would make Jisoo lift a finger during this project making. Basically, the baby’s room was a team effort.
Everything was perfect until one unfortunate day. Jisoo was left alone at the house. Taehyung had one schedule that morning—a photoshoot for a big fashion magazine. Jisoo was just preparing their lunch so that she could have lunch together with Taehyung. She felt a sudden pain in her abdomen. The thing that came to her mind was to call Taehyung. She grabbed her phone from her back pocket and sped-dial him.
“Please come home. I’m hurting so bad,” Jisoo said in between pants. It was so painful that she thinks she would pass out. She dialed the 911 but she blacked out before even pressing call.
Taehyung was in his make up chair removing the make-up on his face when his wife called him. He grabbed his bag and immediately ran out of the dressing room. He was not going to panic because it would just cloud his judgement. His wife needs him. The location of the shoot was not far but he was not going to make it as fast. He called Namjoon and his hyung answered immediately.
“Hyung, something happened to Jisoo can you go see her. I already called 911 but I know you can make it to her first,” he told Namjoon. Namjoon lives just floors below them and could easily tend to his wife.
Namjoon was with Jisoo in the ambulance. Taehyung was just told to just get to the nearest hospital. He ran as fast as he could to the ER and was at Jisoo’s side when their doctor arrived. Jisoo was still unconscious when the doctor brought him the news.
“How are they, Doc?” Taehyung asked the doctor.
“Ms. Kim is fine upon doing the tests. Ms. Kim had a miscarriage and I’m sorry to tell you but the baby didn’t make it.” Taehyung’s whole world crumbled. He lost his child. How is he going to tell his wife? He doesn’t have the heart to tell her. He doesn’t have the heart to break her heart as well. It’s inhumane.
When the doctor left, he went back inside Jisoo’s room. He sat down beside her and grasped her tiny hands between his. He just closed his eyes and bowed his head. Praying to whoever was listening that this was just a bad dream and that it will all be okay when he wakes up. Because right now, it hurts. And he doesn’t know what to do.
“Yeobo?” He was brought back to reality when he heard Jisoo’s voice and her other hand ran her fingers through his hair. He raised his head and looked at his wife in the eyes. His face might have given off something because Jisoo mirrored his feelings. “The baby?” she asked.
Taehyung couldn’t say the words. With his lower lips shaking and the tears streaming down his face, he shook his head. He looked at his wife and she was also crying now. Taehyung couldn’t handle it. Looking at Jisoo while both their hearts were breaking was shattering. If its even possible, his heart was now shattered into even more tiny pieces.
Both of them silently crying now. Taehyung and Jisoo crying in each other’s arms as they sat side by side in the cramped hospital bed. Holding each other for support.
Jisoo settled down first and she wiped her tears off her eyes. She looked at Taehyung, his eyes so puffed up that he can barely see. She wiped the tears off of his face as well. How did he even handle know the news first without crying? She looked at her husband and thinking he must have been so brave and strong holding up while she was unconscious.
When Jisoo was in excruciating pain earlier, she felt that she was losing their baby. And it pained her emotionally and mentally. She wanted their baby to hold on—grasp whatever it could grasp so it could stay. Sadly, it didn’t happen. She still lost it. Hearing and confirm it from the doctors broke her. Their little bundle of joy inside her was lost.
“Yeobo, thank you for staying strong for the both of us.” She kissed Taehyung’s forehead and snuggled deep on his neck. She felt Taehyung hug her tighter.
“I’m sorry I wasn’t there with you, yeobo. I left you alone—in pain.” Taehyung had said then he started to cry again. She hugged him tight. It was sad hearing that from Taehyung. It wasn’t his fault.
“You don’t have to be sorry. It wasn’t your fault, okay?”
Jisoo and Taehyung went home when she was cleared by the doctors to discharge. When they arrived at the condo, both of them stared at the door of the baby’s room but none dared to open it. Jisoo went first to their room, stripped off her clothes and went to the shower. She let the water cascade down her body. Hoping it would also take away the sadness that is filling her entirety. She is sad. Taehyung is sad. Thinking about the would’ve, could’ve, and should’ve. But life must go on for the both of them. It may be hard right now but they will make it through this. Their baby wants them to be happy again. But right now, they are entitled to feel what they have to.
Jisoo and Taehyung agreed not to hide their sadness from one another. They will cope. They will talk. And they will be there for one another. They also agreed with their doctors that they should undergo counselling and therapy.
Writing became Jisoo and Taehyung’s coping mechanisms. Together they wrote poems. One time they had a conversation about feeling okay about everything. About things becoming better. Then they talked about writing something that would sum up their feelings. The decided to make it into a song. A song that they shared to every one they care about, their loved ones, their fans, their friends –every one around them. They want to open up about what happened and take this chance to step into finally becoming ‘okay’. This is them now –Taehyung and Jisoo version 2.0. The Taehyung and Jisoo who had undergone heartbreaks and heartaches. The Taehyung and Jisoo who had risen through it all.