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Since childhood we were always the one who knew each other the best, when it came to you I was alike a experienced researcher knowing everything about you to heart.
Your favorite tunes, the stories you adore, the way you nuzzle to the crook of my neck, all your dreams, your nightmares, your weaknesses, your everything.
I knew it all.
Or atleast that was what I had thought.
And so when you came to me and uttered such words, I felt as though a bucket of cold water had been dumped onto my head, chilling my bones in a way that the snezhnahyan weather wasn't capable of. Like the tight string beneath my feet finally gave up letting plunge into an endless abyss.
"It's okay."
It's not. But I keep those words inside me showing the most realistic emphathetic smile I could muster onto my face.
"I understand."
I don't. And I would rather not.
I watch you as you turn your back to leave, just then I felt an urge grow ever so strongly inside me consuming all of that I am. My breath quickens as I took a step forward, teaching out for my hand.
My heart seemed to screaming.
Grab him.
Don't let him go.
Tie him to your side.
Never give him the chance of leaving your side.
In a panic I grabbed the string that tied us both together, I took it into my hand coiling it around as if it would stop you from leaving. I held on to it fiercely like a mad man.
But I still couldn't stop it. No matter how much I tugged you kept getting farther, until I couldn't even see your back.
I tugged.
And tugged.
And tugged.
I let go.
I let you leave.
I collapsed on the snow as I held my chest in pain, the cold going in through my lungs freezing my insides.
I let out a chuckle as I smiled deprecatingly "heartless as ever Ajax"
I know you.
Your favorite tunes.
The way you nuzzled to the crook of my neck.
Your dreams.
Your nightmares.
You weaknesses.
Your everything.
But I seemed to have forgotten your heartlessness, your cruel, callous nature. Your danger, and your threat.
I knew you.
'I know him well' I suddenly feel as though I can never utter such words again.
I won't forgive you.
Not even after the string under my feet snap,not even when the universe ends, not even when nothing remains of my being.
Never.
Not in this life and all of my nexts.
I held my hand up letting snowflakes fall into my bare fingers.
The snezhnahyan weather seemed to be even more unbearable today huh?