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My lord was a powerful being, a divine being that has surpassed humans and is now a God. But being a God is not fun as you think it is.
You would think that being a God, you can do anything. Create anything. That is true, but it has its perks. You wouldn’t live in the universe you created, nor restructure someone that you remembered. No, being a God has rules. That’s what my lord, DIO, has experienced.
I admired him then, and I do now, but if I must say… he looks… well, tired. Tired of what? Being a God? A divine being? He can do whatever he wants, just like before, he eliminated the Joestar’s.
But what I’m not understanding is that, after eliminating them, his eyes are different. You’d expect him to be happy that he got rid of them, but he looks tired and bored.
Why though?
Is what I always say myself, every time I look at him. I tried talking to him, but he stays ever so quiet, and just gives short, simple answers. It irked me a bit but I can’t judge my lord, no, that would be improper of me, since I’ve always looked up to him.
After getting back from doing a mission from him, I decided to ask him a question, even if he doesn’t answer completely, my curiosity would be eating me.
“My Lord, I have a question that I want to ask you.”
My lord was quiet for a while until he spoke,
“Ask away, my friend.”
His voice even sounds lifeless, should I be saying that about a God?
“My question is-“ is what? Should I just ask him of why he sounds lifeless? No, I’ve asked him many times if he’s alright or why he’s bored, what should I ask him about? The Joestar’s? No, I feel like he could be sensitive to that topic. Maybe…
“Forgive me for saying this but, what- makes you happy, my lord?”
My lord gazes at me, with those dull eyes, not even widened or anything, just stilled.
I don’t know why, but I now felt awkward, with just him staring at me and saying nothing. Thoughts rushed through my head. Did I make him mad? Or sad? Or what? I need to know, now.
Until he spoke up, “What do you mean, my friend?” He says in a flat tone.
“Ah, what I mean is- is that, you just seem… bored? So I thought I could maybe lighten you up a bit? I know you’re not always committing to such conversations about your actions nor emotions, but I thought it would feel better for you to at least communicate with someone.”
My lord stares again at me. It was quiet for a second.
“What is there to talk about? Hm? I know you don’t wanna talk about my actions or emotions, you just wanna know something that’s what causing for me to act like this, don’t you?”
I freeze, speechless. I mean, what he said is basically true. Should I be honest or just lie? No, lying is a sin, and I can’t lie to my lord.
“Y-Yes, that- that is something I wanted to- talk about.” I said, quavering.
My lord stares at me for a little while, is pensive of what to say, till he closes his eyes and relaxes in his throne.
And then he gives out a big sigh, and then speaks in a quiet tone, “I’ll only tell you this once, since I trust you enough to not tell anybody else. I’ve found out that I have feelings for someone, someone who is gone, obliterated. All because of me.”
My lord rests his head on his fist, his arm positioning his head.
“Each time that I restructure them, no matter how many I make; they’ll never be same, never be like their actual, original self like before, like the one that I knew and grew up with…”
My lord closes his eyes.
“Because of course, I would structure them in my way that I want them to behave as or try to structure the one I knew of before.”
I stood there, unsure of what to say to comfort him. I don’t know if I should say anything at all, it sounds like that my lord… was… in love? It- it sounds like it.
So curiosity started to struck me, and I ask the first question that comes into my mind.
“Who was it that you tried creating?”
It was at that moment, the first time in- what, decades? Light years? That I’ve seen him smile. My lord is smiling, he’s smiling. Even his eyes started to sparkle. Oh my heavens, how long has it been since I’ve seen him smile?
“His name was JoJo.”
My lords speaks in the most softest tone of all, till his smile suddenly starts to fade, his smile didn’t last for long, nor did sparkle in his eyes either. He then slumps into his throne. I suppose he quickly learned that this is reality, and wishes don’t come true in a snap of a finger.
“JoJo?” I repeat back, curious.
“Yeah.” My lord replies flatly, but tone hinting of fondness.
Like- the Joestar’s? He was in love with a Joestar? But- I thought he hated the Joestar’s? I probably shouldn’t mention that to him.
“Who was JoJo?” I say, curious. After saying that, my lords eyes started to sparkle again and his smile returning. It was at that moment, that I feel like it was a mistake to say that, but it was oh so worth it, considering how my lord was starting to look happy again. So I did nothing but just stood there and listened to my lord, who was in love with someone before.
“His actual name was Jonathan Joestar, but he went with being JoJo.”
Ah, so I was correct, a Joestar. Oh, how tragic since I just realized.
“He was a gentleman, kind at heart, to everyone and anyone, whether they be good or bad.”
He suddenly starts to smile widely.
“His blue hair would always remind me of the night sky. The way his eyes always sparkled with stars over simple things. His goofy-looking smile always shined brighter than the sun, could easily make anyone happy, just like that.”
He looks so in love. Wait, am I seeing things or… do I see red on his cheeks?
“While he wasn’t the brightest, he wasn’t dumb either. No, he was talented in his own way. But he was still a fool, and always clumsy.”
My lord smiles a little while, till he slowly drops his smile. He then leans forward a bit, to clasp his hands together, and rests his arms on his knees.
“Then all of that went away, because of me. After everything I did to him, he still gave me kindness. I didn’t deserve his kindness at all.”
My lord leans backward towards the throne, and relaxes his head against the throne.
“I realized 100 years later, that I started developing feelings for him. I thought the feelings would be admiration, but I was confused then. It was now that when I became a God… I realized, finally, that it was love… all along. Not admiration, just love.” He says in a hoarse voice. His eyes looking down at the ground.
Till he swifts his head and eyes towards me, I stiffened.
“Pucci, is it wrong for a God to love? Even if they’re gone?” He questions in a sadden voice.
I gaze at him for a while, then gazed to the ground, in thoughts.
It was quiet a while, till I spoke up.
“While being a God has its perks, a God could still love a mortal. Since God is love. But it is not wrong to love someone you truly adore.” I reply, while looking at him softly.
My lord then starts to avert his gaze away from me, to look at the ground. He sits there, then clasp both of his hands on his eyes.
I was confused for a second of why, till I see a tiny droplet fall from his face.
Oh.
My lord is crying, crying for the loss of his love. Who he obliterated. Oh. He got rid of him, when he finally realized that he loved him. Oh, I even feel like crying as well, this is all too tragic.
Even for a God like Dio.