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You look so pretty in that suit.
Every step you made took my breath away. My eyes could not stop worshipping every single inch of your body. The way your face looked the happiest. How the sun kisses your skin so gently. The white roses in your hands as you held it so close to your heart.
Your cheeks, prettily painted in soft red.
Oh how much I loved it when you held my hand as we walked down the aisle.
Never knew that this will happen to us so soon.
I could feel my heart beat faster when you glanced at me. The way your fingers were trembling against mine.
I understand why you were so nervous. I would be too.
The future where we are together...
It wasn't that long ago when you promised me the future. How we shared our first kiss under the starlight. The way we would sneak out from our houses to get that minute of freedom, where it felt like forever when I'm with you.
I saw you looking down, staring at whatever your eyes landed on. Those shoes that I chose specifically for you, I was happy that you trusted my choices.
Few hours earlier, there were so many people came to congratulate, one by one. I had a hunch that you could not even focus on whatever they were saying.
Of course you won't. It's the day where we both had been waiting for.
It wasn't long time ago when the big announcement was made. Everyone was ecstatic and words spread faster than fire.
So many of our friends attended to witness this beautiful event. I'm glad they were here.
As you were fixing your suit, I stared at the end of the isle.
The time is getting shorter. I took a deep breath when I heard the soft melody playing in the background.
"Are you ready? It's time"
I took your hands into mine. The curtains opened and everyone stood up to see the star of the day.
It felt like forever walking down in such a short aisle. I saw someone in the crowd sent a small smile to me and so I did back, to throw away these feelings.
"Ukiki"
Your voice was so soft calling out to me and I was immediately snapped back into reality.
You smiled at me.
I let go of your hand.
I backed away, standing at the line of friends at the side where you stood.
As you read your vows to the woman in front of you, I closed my eyes.
Oh how much I missed the way your hand felt in mine.
I had never expected this moment will happen to us.
My heart had never been so broken when I walked you down the aisle.
I was so nervous on letting you go.
The future where we are together...
The promised that had been long forgotten when you moved away. The kiss that I would never forget. When that night of sneaking out was my last time knowing what freedom really felt like.
When one day you came back with the lady who stole your heart, and asking me help with your wedding outfit.
Suits, tie, and shoes. That was the dream wedding I wanted to see you wearing. I saw us.
As our friends congratulated you was the day my nightmares had been waiting for. I'm glad they were here to help me if I cried.
I wish time was slower and longer. But it perished when your wedding song started to play on the piano.
The curtains immediately hid away the tears forming in my eyes, I confidently held your hand into mine as we started to walk.
Alban, Sonny and Yugo spared a glance to me amongst the crowd. As much as they wish for Fuuchan's happiness, they couldn't help feeling bad for me as well.
I only smiled at them.
"Fuuchan"
Was the words that had never left my mouth, wanting to stop this wedding and take you away with me.
But how could I?
Your smile had stopped my selfish thoughts.
I backed away, feeling your hand one last time. Listening to your vows full of love and sincerity to the woman.
It hurt me.
"You may kiss the bride"
I wish I was the bride.
As both of you had sealed the deal, I stood there watching my happiness crumble.
When you fed her cake, I wish that was me that you fed.
But like the younger us had promised each other,
I will always be there at your happiest.
But...
I don't think you can be there for mine.
Not anymore.