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When TK lost his mother, there were so many questions. But the one question that racked his brain more than anything was, "Why?"
Why did it have to happen to her?
She was the perfect mother, took care of him, understood him, and loved him unconditionally. Even if he didn't understand why at first if it wasn't for her he wouldn't be here right now himself.
TK did not want to lose another person that he loved more than anything in this whole entire world. And he wasn't going to. He was not going to lose Carlos.
Stay with me.
CPR. Mouth to mouth. Narcan. He's alive.
And it's a parallel to when he almost died himself for the first time. He promised his mother he would stay sober but a broken heart made him relapse. He felt so much pain in his heart and what if he lost Carlos? He would feel the worst pain of his life. He would have the worst broken heart and he would not be able to live without him. The first time was a mistake. He was saved to find the love of his life in Texas and as they make it to the hospital where Carlos is going to be okay there is a bit of relief but the pain is still there, Gwyn is still gone.
Carlos pulled TK closer to him in the hospital bed, the gash to his head bandaged up just like TK once had.
"I can't believe you got hit in the head with a shovel." TK gently caressed the bandage.
"At least it wasn't a gun," Carlos made a joke and TK cringed at him, hitting him softly on the shoulder. "Too soon?"
"Carlos, please, I almost lost you. I almost lost you." TK choked out his words, repeating the words over and over in his head even after he said them. I almost lost you.
"I was so worried they were going to hurt you too," Carlos added latching his hands around the bottom of TK's shirt to keep him as close as he possibly could in the small hospital bed made for only one but somehow they always managed to cuddle in them.
"You're the one that almost died." He said it again.
"How many times have you almost died?" Carlos raised his eyebrow with a tiny smile. "I'd say we're even now,"
TK smiled slightly shaking his head as his fiancè, "Don't, don't, please don't...you were never supposed to get hurt." TK's hand ran down Carlos' chest and back up to rest over his face, "All I could think about was the love I have for you and the way I know I can't live without you. You are the one that is supposed to keep me alive." He trembled needing to kiss him but the tears that began streaming down his face stopped him and instead, he buried himself in his neck and breathed him in.
"Ty, I have never loved anyone the way that I love you. I know how you feel. We are each other's lifeline." Carlos promised him and peered away from him a little bit just to be able to capture his lips. He tasted all of the salt from his tears, but he was used to these kinds of kisses and they were in fact quite soothing. He let the kiss linger for a few more seconds before gently cupping his face and making TK look at him, "I know why I love you so much, more than I did yesterday, more than I did the day I met you, more than I did a few seconds ago..." He closed his eyes and could feel himself falling again, always falling in love with him. "...because your mother is in my heart, and when I was talking to the dude's mother about you I told her that, I told her that Gwyn is right here in my heart and I feel her love for you...every day I think about how I love you and how much I'm going to love you each and every single day and that's what kept me alive," Carlos promised.
TK frowned his lip quivering as he tried to keep the tears back, but with Carlos speaking like that - he understood every single word that he said. "Carlos, I..." He couldn't say what he needed to say back, his words were drowned by more tears.
"Shhh, don't say anything, I know. I know." Carlos promised pressing soft kisses to his face to keep him from shaking any more than he already was.
"My mom is in heaven watching over us and you know what I think?" TK sniffled clearing his throat a little bit with a soft smile which actually felt really good in that moment as he looked into those beautiful soft brown eyes that he could get lost in, "She put heaven here on earth for us, because when I'm with you...I'm already there...heaven is now. Heaven is the place you feel most alive and I won't know until I get there if it's all that it's meant to be, but it won't be heaven if you aren't by my side." TK nodded firmly never feeling anything more true in his heart than that.
It was Carlos' turn to find tears and he had to shake his head, "I won't let you get there first,"
TK stuck out his tongue, "Heaven is right here in this hospital bed with you."
"It really is considering we both cheated death," Carlos added.
"And we've come full circle," TK mentioned with a little peck to his lips, "...last time when it was me with the bandage on my head, you told me your father knew about us, now here I am in your arms as you have a bandage on your head and I saved you with your father."
Carlos whimpered giving TK a soft nuzzle and nod, "We really have, thank you for saving my life."
They really did come full circle in their relationship and if it wasn't for their parents and all of the love that they had in their hearts for each other they would not be right here right now safe.
"Thank you for loving me..." TK answered him and closed his eyes and nothing else needed to be said.