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March 27th, 1988. Two years since the earthquake. Two years since Martin Brenner died. And a year since Vecna died. Everything’s normal, for Hawkins at least. But Steve isn’t happy about that. Sure, he’s happy that everyone is safe and can live somewhat normal lives, but he’s busy thinking about everyone who’s been lost to the war against evil in the past years. Barb, Billy, Patrick, Chrissy, the list went on, and included was the lover he never thought he’d find, Eddie Munson. And today is the anniversary of his death. It’d been two years, isn’t it supposed to get easier the longer someone’s been dead? Why isn’t this getting easier? Steve doesn’t understand. He just wants to forget. Wants to pretend he still hates Eddie. He wanted to go back to normal, before Eddie and Billy and Barb died, when he was still friends with Tommy and was liked and not just someone who worked at Scoops. He wanted to be normal. Or maybe he just wanted to be back with Jonathan before he became King Steve, when he was happier and didn’t have to pretend to be someone else. He wanted Eddie back, but he knew the second he was back he’d never get anything done because he’d be clinging to Eddie, too scared to let go in case it was a dream and he woke up.
He decided to spend his day at Eddie’s grave, he’s going to try and talk to Eddie like Max did with Billy, before… before she almost got killed by Vecna.
“Hey Eddie… If you can hear me, please know I miss you. I love you, I never said it really while you were alive, but I love you.” His breath hitched. “It’s been 2 years, I thought it would get easier the longer you were gone. I don’t want to forget but I don’t want to have nightmares about that day anymore… I… I don’t know why I’m even doing this. It’s dumb. I guess I want to believe youre still alive, here in front of me, not torn to shreds by some stupid fucking bats. I guess I miss the way you touched me and made me feel whole, safe, loved… I love you Eds. So fucking much. Please… come back to my arms.”