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Very depressing subjects⚠️
LOUIS' POV.
Ever since the night she died, I've been having these weird dreams and these weird hallucinations... It was only just after her funeral that I saw something I could correctly process. I stood that night as lookout, watching the stars and seeing the clouds slowly drift past the moon.
I then heard a voice right next to me.
"Hello?" She asked softly.
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"Clementine...?" I responded. I looked around but I couldn't see anyone.
"Yeah... Hi." Clementine said. I smiled as she spoke. "You're the person who ended up with my power... "
" Mhm... " I answered.
" Have you seen any corpses or injuries yet? " she asked curiously.
" Nope. " I answered bluntly.
"Well that's good. You're the last lookout for Tonight and no ones nearby. You could totally go to bed early." Clementine spoke.
I sighed and nodded. I was fucking exhausted.
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It's been a while since that night... I haven't heard her since. Some nights though, I dream of her. I know that they aren't real the moment I wake up. Every morning I wake up alone... It's like this stupid power is just fucking with me.
I lie in bed humming a short tune as I look up at the bottom of the top bunk.... I haven't left my room much since the night she died. Someone usually brings me some food but other nights I need to go out and retrieve it. I get strange looks every time....
I feel like a stranger in my own home.
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I sit up on the bed and sigh. It isn't worth it to socialize anymore. It isn't the same. I stand up and look out the window, the sun is setting. The clouds glow in a pink tone, with small bits of orange sprinkled in.
People are outside, discussing. Marlon has taken my role of keeping the mood up ever since he was let out to roam. I'm surprised honestly... I thought it would be someone else....
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Actually no. Marlon fits the role perfectly, the rest of us are depressed fucks now.
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I need to get out there. I know damn well his jokes are shit.
I walk out the door and make my way outside... It's nice out, the cold settles on my skin. People give me strange looks as usual but return to what they are doing. I sit down at the picnic table that already has Marlon and Violet sitting at it.
"Hey... You're alive." Marlon comments.
" Shit- I forgot to bring you you're food. " Violet says.
"All good Vi. And yeah, I'm alive. " I respond.
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" You doing okay? " Marlon asks while Vi walks away to get a bowl for me.
"About as good as I can be..." I answer. "Only reason I'm out here is to steal my role back." I say, grinning.
" Ah yes, Sir Mood Bringer Upper... I can't do it. " Marlon says.
"I can tell... " I respond.
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Violet returns holding a bowl, she sets it infront of me before sitting down with her own. She starts eating. I quickly eat my food before standing up.
"I'm going to go out for a bit, yeah? Just go on a walk." I say and start walking away. Then Marlon speaks....
"Don't do anything stupid while you're out. If you get killed I'll kill you." He says. I turn to look at him.
"What?" I ask, confused.
"Just don't get yourself hurt." He says. I roll my eyes and walk off.
"Okay Dad" I say. I walk out the gate, unarmed.
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I walk down the same path I've walked for years. Since the night she died, this is the first time I've walked it. I had to carry her bloody corpse back...
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I walk to the river, it doesn't take long. I stare into the water as the setting sun's light shines over it. For a moment, instead of my reflection, I see a difference face. Clementine's face.
I look away and step back from the water. I hate this...
I want to see her. I want to hear her. I miss her more than anyone could imagine....
I continue down the path and make it to a patch of flowers. I hold one between my fingers for a moment before letting it go.
I then reach the bridge.
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I sit down where the center is broken and dangle my feet. I look down at the water below, a single thought comes to my mind, a thought that speaks louder than a thousand ideas combined.
Jump.
What? No... Id be with her again though... I'd be with those who I've lost...
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I could... I should...
No...
The loud thought echoes in my mind...
I need to stay here... Help them. They still need me.
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I hear soft humming... Someone is humming dead girl walking. I smile as I realize what's happening. Clementine is back...I remember that weird little joke she told me about that song.
My ears start ringing... I look around, confused.
She sits down next to me and looks down at the water. I grin.
"You're here!" I say.
"Yep." She says, the humming stops.
"How's being dead?" I ask.
"Fun but uhm.... Don't try to join me." She says.
" I- huh? I'd never try to die... " I say.
" Then why are you here? " She asks. I look up at the newly showing stars in the sky. The loud sound of crickets echoing in my ears.
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"Just... Please, don't try to jump." She says.
I look back at her and sigh. I stand up slowly and so does she.
"My knife fell when I was thrown... It's over on the other side if you want it." She speaks. I give her a confused look but then nod. I look to the ledge and get a running start before leaping over. I look on the ground for a moment before I see the knife.
I pick it up and smile.
"I found it!" I say.
But when I turn around... She's gone.