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Give me reasons we should be complete
Yu zhong thought to himself. Everything he had done. Everything that happened because of him. Everything that happened to him.
He was a spoiled kid back then, demanding things that he wanted to be his. He'll get it at any cost.
He grew up. He's more matured than before. He'll deal with the unsatisfied feelings later or sooner, but he couldn't control himself when it comes to one and only thing that he wanted the most.
One of them happened to be Gatotkaca, his own husband. Yes, he's married to him, he has slept with him several times but it isn't enough. Yu Zhong wants to be loved by him.
You should be with him. I can't compete
Truth be told, Gatot never loved him. It reminds Yu Zhong of Chou's bitter words, "Gatot's love is Martis and Martis only."
He remembered every bit of it. It hurt so deep, too deep that he felt happy when Lapu held a gun to his head. He thanked him and broke down in front of Lapu when he asked "Yu Zhong, what happened?"
Yu Zhong remained silent as tears streamed down his cheeks. He hugged his knees to his chest. He never felt this heartache. All of his life, he's been destroying someone else's life and never felt guilt.
Lapu knelt in front of him and asked with a softer voice, "Yu Zhong, what happened?"
Everything went blurry after that. The last thing Yu Zhong remembered was waking up in his bed. A bottle of water was left on a bedside drawer with a note from Lapu saying,
'I am sorry that I tried to kill you last night. Stay home and get some rest, you look like you've been going through some thick shit. If you want to talk about it, hit me up.'
He smiled at the note. It gave him enough encouragement to take the bottle and drink it.
For now, he wants to stay in bed till he has gathered enough energy to move on with his life.