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Prologue
I finished watching Supernatural. I can't believe it came to an end, the show was so good and it lasted from before I was born into my puberty. But for me it lasted well into my puberty as I only finished watching it about a year after the final episode.
I grew with the show and it ended before I did. The lives of some fictional characters impacted me way more than I would like to admit. And to think that I watched them grow just as much, if not more than I did myself in age as well as personality... I watched their lives over the span of a few years for me, but nearly sixteen years for them. And not to mention the episodes with flashbacks into their childhoods. It's sad to know that they were a part of my life and I wasn't and can never be a part of theirs. I mean it. I truly depress myself every time I think about all the shows that have helped define me as a person, how they touched me so much and I haven't ever been able to touch them with even a thousand-kilometer pole.
I'm not even in their league. It's heart-wrenching knowing that I could never, not ever, not in a million years give them the joy, peace, happiness and love that they have given me and caused me to have. I wish that I could give them the smiles and laughs that they have given me. I wish that I could be their life support as much as they have been mine. I wish that they could be happy forever.
It's unfair.
I wish we could be happy together.