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Would you know my name if I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same if I saw you in heaven?
Bion woke up in a sea of clouds. everything was white and bright. He was confused but as he looked around, he saw a familiar figure. A man he missed dearly.
His Azi.
"Hi Mika"
Bion felt like eternity since he heard that name. No, actually, his son calls him that but to hear it from his Azi.
"Azi?"
"Yes mika"
Bion was still stunned
"How are you?" Azrail asked.
They're still standing feet apart.
I must be strong and carry on
'Cause I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
"Mahal ko" Bion cried kasabay ng pagtulo ng luha niya.
Azrail laughed at agad na nilapitan si Bion. He hugged the latter kasabay ng pag-alo dito.
"It is okay mahal ko." Azrail whispered. How long had it been since someone comforted Bion?
Would you hold my hand if I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand if I saw you in heaven?
"I miss you" Bulong ni Bion.
"I know you do, Mika. I know" Azi answered.
"I'm here, lagi pa rin akong nandito" Dagdag pa niya kasabay ng pagturo sa puso ni Bion.
I'll find my way through night and day
'Cause I know I just can't stay
Here in heaven
"How are you, my mika?" Azrail asked with a smile.
Looking at Azrail, the man looked ethereal, he looks like he is in peace. Wala na yung bigat sa aura niya.
"I'm going through" Bulong ni Bion at hinigpitan lalo ang yakap kay Azrail na para bang kapag ginawa niya yun, this moment wouldn't end.
Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees
Time can break your heart, have you begging please
Begging please
"How's bakari?" Azrail asked again. This time, his voice is sad.
"He's growing up so fast" Sagot ni Bion.
Hearing the word 'growing up' made them tear up. For them, it was the most heartbreaking feeling, yung maalala na lumalaki ang anak nila without Azrail beside them.
"He always stand by sa picture mo sa bahay" Dagdag ni Bion and Azrail felt sad.
Ganun na lang siguro yun, his son, his hope, his light would only see him through photos, through stories or maybe, also through dreams.
Beyond the door, there's peace, I'm sure
And I know there'll be no more
Tears in heaven
"Masaya ba dito mahal ko?" Tanong ni Bion.
Kahit malungkot, Azrail nod. Dito walang sakit, walang hirap, walang problema. He feels free dito.
"Yes" He whispered.
Hearing that was bittersweet for Bion. But atleast, he is sure na dito, walang hirap na nararamdaman si Azrail.
Would you know my name if I saw you in heaven?
Would you feel the same if I saw you in heaven?
"Are you contented here?" He asked again.
This time, Azrail didn't nod.
Instead...
"Yes, I am contented here, waiting for you, watchi you both." He said.
It was fun and sad watching them both from above but here, angel sings everytime he is happy.
I must be strong and carry on
"Soon mahal ko" Sabi ni Bion
"No, live life, my life. Live life with our hope" Azrail said kasabay ng paghalik kay Bion. It was his selfish way, it has always been.
It was sweet and their last before Azrail and the sea of clouds vanished.
Because I know I don't belong
Here in heaven
"Wake up papa. I cooked breakfast for us already." Paggising sa kanya ng isang boses.
When he opened his eyes, gone the sea of clouds and everything felt warm.
He is back at his home and it was just a dream. His reality now is his son.
It has been 17 years but still fresh, what can he do?
Move forward.