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‘Asking the same question over and over again without an answer after having no say in where to having ended up in. Oh well, sanity o’mine long since lost?’
They brought me here for whatever reason I am yet to fathom.
It would have been so much better if I had simply died on that icy plant.
After all, I had completed my final mission, my last task.
Killing Nolan.
That rat bastard!
He deserved worse, but at the moment a single shot was all I had in me.
It felt soo damned good to do it too, I admit as much.
Not the first time either having thought of it.
Killing an imp. A superior… year really?
Rampart.
Now there’s another slimy wiggly good for nothing wast of living corpse.
But they got to him before I did. Guess it was only a matter of time being not on my side.
Oh well…
I only hope he is well taken care of in whatever hellhole he ended up in.
And I do mean, by those he ended up putting away…
The regs that is.
Nothing’s been the same though.
After Mayday…
Well, I watched him die and there was nothing I could do!!!!
*sheds a solem tear*
Or did he really die?
I cannot be sure.
He felt so cold under my touch.
As cold as I was, inside and out.
It felt real, in the moment there.
Something changed back then and there, on that icy platform in nowhere galaxy.
And now, here I am, the traitor like the rest of them.
Guess the questions still remains… why?
And why am I not feeling worse about it?
About becoming the one thing I loathed so before.
And so here I sit.
Nothing to do, nowhere to go.
They can’t really think I am of any use to them any more can they?
I don’t know anything or anyone anymore.
The others… have all come and gone and now, I am all alone.
Why can’t they believe me, I am nothing, no one and I don’t know… anything.
Why can’t they just leave me be?
To rot away in this small cell never to be seen.
Why must they keep on hassling me when I’ve done all that I could?
Because…
I was the good solider once, following all given orders.
Until I wasn’t one. Not anymore.
No more orders to follow. Not a solider anymore.
So, so, so alone.