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Every time he packs up his things and drives them both to the airport, Mika can feel his heart sink into his stomach. It hurts to be alone. Well, he isn’t entirely alone. He has Arashi, Ritsu… But nothing compares to Oshi-san. Nothing compares to maintenance, no amount of hugs from his close friends could compare to Shuu’s hand upon his shoulder, guiding him through their newest dance.
Mika tries to stop the frown that grows upon his face as they pull into the parking lot, but Shuu notices anyway. Shuu always notices. A sigh, and he’s snapping his fingers to bring Mika’s attention back to him.
ˊˊ Kagehira. Why are you sulking like some forgotten puppy. Has something happened? ˊˊ
He inquires, oblivious to Mika’s feelings per usual. Mika doesn’t expect him to understand entirely, but still… A sigh passes his lips and he shakes his head, offering up a smile to his mentor. His unitmate. His… friend.
ˊˊ Ngaah, ‘m alright. Jus’… Thinkin’, that’s all. Thinkin’ about what I’ll do without ya… ˊˊ
A sharp non! pierces the air, Shuu clearly embarrassed by the mention of them being together for such a long time; But now, he must leave once more to pursue his studies. Mika wasn’t allowed his own apartment, by Shuu’s decision, and so ever since then, Mika has never been by himself. But sometimes, the ache to be alone with Shuu is overpowering. He wishes they’d talked more on this car ride… Though, Shuu probably would have shushed him.
ˊˊ Hmph. You will be fine, Kagehira. Focus on training your body and mind for our performances, and everything will fall into place. I will be back home before you know it. ˊˊ
Mika’s heart jumps within his chest, he said home. Did he mean ES, or did he mean Mika? Either way, it sends shivers up his spine and a pulse of color to his cheeks.
ˊˊ Kagehira, have you fallen ill? You look awfully out of it, and your face is heating up! Goodness, I cannot even return for schooling without having to take care of you… ˊˊ
He prattles on, and Mika can’t help but giggle. Always worried, always anxious and always thinking about what might possibly have happened. It’s endearing, in a way. He wouldn’t change anything, if given a single wish by a magical source.
ˊˊ Hehe, ‘m fine, Oshi-san. Jus’… Thinkin! Again! I know it’s shockin’, that I can think on my own… Wait a second, I’m human too! I can think! Ngaah… ˊˊ
Fist bangs on his own head lightly, and Shuu’s glare burns through him. Hand quickly moves over to fix the flyaways that escape from his head —— ( It’s already horribly messy. ) A roll of violets from the taller, and he shuts down the car and steps out.
Clutching Mademoiselle, Shuu begins making his way toward the large building, Mika can only scurry after like… Damn, he really is like a sort of puppy. Shuu’s heeled shoes clack against the pavement, Mika’s sneakers making little to no noise as he follows behind with his head hung low, staring at the pattern on his shoes.
ˊˊ Oshi-san… Do ya have to go? ‘s awful lonely without ya… ˊˊ
A huff from the taller man, yet… In all honesty, he wishes he didn’t have to. At least, not as often as this. It is not only a hassle, but a pang of reluctancy in his heart for the sake of the other.
ˊˊ Of course I do, Kagehira. I will be back soon, you will survive. Do not look so sad, and lift your head up. At that rate, you may walk right into me. ˊˊ
A huff from the shorter, lifting his head to stare at the other’s patterned blue shirt as he walks briskly, full of pride and an ego unable to be shattered anymore, not like it once was… But he doesn’t want to dwell on that. They step into the building, Shuu checks in and finishes all the necessary things; and it’s time for Mika to watch him go.
But things will be different this time. He won’t cry on the bus ride home, he won’t sniffle at his desk as he goes over the required studies and the things Shuu wanted him to finish regarding outfits… But enough reminiscing! Shuu is just about to open his mouth to say his goodbyes, and instead Mika rushes forth and locks his arms around Shuu’s neck.
He’s met with no gasp, no disgusted noise of shock and no shoving of the other —— much to his surprise. He’s met with a returned embrace, arms around his waist even if for just a moment. A sigh from the pink haired man, a smile evident on his lips, though he’d never admit it.
ˊˊ Goodness, Kagehira. Must you always be so clingy? ˊˊ
Yet he isn’t exactly complaining nor moving away… Holding the smaller tight for just a moment before letting go, meeting his gaze fully for the first time since they left ES.
ˊˊ Kagehira… ˊˊ
Silence befalls the two, but Mika smiles. Wide, too. Fang poking out, a giggle passing lips as he steps back and clasps his hands behind his back.
ˊˊ Byebye, Oshi-san! Have a good trip, Mkay? Call me when ya get there! ˊˊ
A soft chuckle from Shuu, and he turns on his heel. Hand lifts as a final goodbye to his unitmate, and he vanishes into the crowd. This time, Mika doesn’t cry at all. Even if he hadn’t expressed every last feeling just yet, it was good enough to smell his cologne and hug his neck for a few seconds. It was relieving.
Chin rests on his fist as he sits at his desk, twiddling thumbs and staring at his phone… Waiting for that call that will undoubtedly come. Once the screen lights up, he’s happily chatting away as if nothing happened at all.
Oh, to be in love.