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先发英文版的吧。
这是最初哭着打下的文字所以没有去思考太多也没有检查错字....
Just want to write something so that i can continue to believe they are with him....
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Back to the time on 22 January 2023
KPTS cast member was spotted in Chiang Mai International Airport by 3 Japanese girls.
“Hey Mizuki , is that Bible?”
“Yes he is! Bible!! Bible!! ”
“I think I saw Jeff as well?The one with the black mask! P’ Jeff !!”
“Barcode and the red mask....Hey he is Apo !”
“Isn’t that Ta, Nodt, Us and Bas behind them?”
“What is going on? They are going for some unannounced work schedule?”
“I have no idea...Right after the incident just now...”
“Doshita no Akari san? I am quite lazy to take out my phone...”
“you see what Build just said? I have no idea, but I got a bad feeling about this...He is not with Bible...Where is him?”
“P Tong~!Hey P Tong, where is Build?”
“They seem to be in a hurry, and Sakura chan can you please stop screaming like some mad woman ,
they can’t hear you ok it is too far! Anata baka kono? ”
“Girls, we are going to be late for our flight! Come on! Move now!
And Mizuki chan can you please STOP looking at the pictures you took, they walk super fast that is why it is all blurred !”
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“Where are you going?”
“I think I shouldn’t eat that spicy papaya salad, now I need to use the washroom...”
“.....Serves you right. Anata wa hontoni bakadesu ~”
“Doke!”
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“What happen to you? You manage to find a gold necklace inside the toilet bowl?”
“It is much better than that! Guess what I just saw?”
“What? And stop wiping your wet hand on my scarf!”
“I saw Bible ! Oh my Gosh he looks so handsome but tired at the same time,
but he is still so handsome although he is tired, you know , kakkoii~!
his eyes, his nose, his mouth, his small intestines .... ”
“Stop it, I know you are crazy for him....Wait a second, you mean you just saw him? He is in the same flight with us, right now?”
“Yup, I can’t possible go to other toilet right? They are sitting just a few rows in front of the washroom~ ”
“So that means the whole cast is going to Japan like us? I wonder what is their plan...”
“And you know what? I saw Build beside him!”
“Is it? Where, I want to go and have picture with him, give me your phone!”
“I thought you are sleeping?! ”
“Hey I love Build so much, i will wake up if I heard his name ok? So do you think I can take picture with them? I swear I wont show it to anyone else~”
“Stop it, you are embarrassing us...i don’t think they want to get disturb right now, just let’s just give some privacy to them ok?”
“True, I managed to see through some of the video, I saw Build is crying and apologize...
but there is no subtitle, so I don’t understand much as well....
But it shouldn’t be any big issue right? He can't be doing any bad thing....”
“I don’t know, but it is supposed to be something serious...
otherwise it is so weird for them to go Japan out of a sudden, and everyone looks so tired and solemn...”
“yup, just now I saw Bible holding a blanket on his hand, and his other hand is poking Build,
but Build is sleeping, so he just put the blanket on Build's leg...and the way he stares at him,
it made me feel so sad as well.....it is not the usual Bible you know, I never saw him like that....”
“Ok lets just stop imagine things, maybe there is just some misunderstanding, and they got a tight schedule,
that is the reason they are tired, we are tired also, so let’s just get some sleep if both of you don’t want wrinkles on your face...”
“True also, I really don’t want to have wrinkles like Akari san~”
“Omae wa mou Shindeiru!”
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“Watch your step! What are you doing?!”
“I manage to get Build’s photo...but it is blurred again....QAQ”
“ Finally, we have safely arrived in Japan. I really wish nothing happen to them...”
“But I am so relieved Biu is with them. I hope everyone is okay.....”
“Let’s hope so... I think I should really go to learn Thai language....”
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“Are you ok bro?”
“Yup I am fine, go to have your dinner.”
“P’ Jeff, I think we can call for pizza delivery? I don’t want to leave P’Build alone...”
“I am fine Barcode, don’t worry, what is the matter with you? Finally we are in Japan and you want to eat pizza?
Don’t you said you always want to have a taste of sashimi? It won’t taste nice if we ask for delivery you know~ ”
“But....P’Po? Hey what are you doing, stop dragging me like a doll ~~”
“I know you need some privacy for now, so I will give it to you.
But remember, you can also come to me if you need someone to talk to, during midnight also can,
I will not switch off my phone ok? promise me you won’t do anything stupid ?”
“I promise you P’Tong.... ”
“Oh my poor boy...come, let me give you a big hug...You are not going to stop me this time aren’t you Bible?
What, this time you gonna stop me is it N’ Ta?”
“Stop that P’ Tong , this joke is not funny....Let’s just leave first~ P’ Build and P’ Bib , see you later.”
The room suddenly become silent.
“Hey, I know you don’t eat much for dinner, but you should really get some hot drinks....”
Bible just sit silently on his bed, not responding anything, he has been act like this since just now.
Build try to give him a pat like usual, but suddenly he grab his hand until he feels the pain.
“Bible? Are you angry with me?”
“If you're sad, don't force yourself to smile, especially in front of me, it may make things worse.”
“What could be worse than this?” Build tried to give a weak smirk , but on the next moment, he was being strangled by Bible.
“I told you, if you do this again, I am gonna....”
“Gonna what?”
“I am gonna cry on you.”
“ok, I am sorry Ble. I didn’t mean to do that. But it has become sort of habit, i need some time to change it....”
“How dare you chase me away, how could you....why can’t you just believe me,
I will stand by your side no matter what happened!” His lips start to quiver, and his voice gets shaky.
“I know , I know it Ble, I know you will always support me....”
Tears start to drip out of Bible’s eyes and stream down his face, he looks incredibly hurt.
Build suddenly feel panic, this is the first time he saw his tears in real life, he is always calm, cool and strong ,
but now he is crying like a little child who had just lose everything.
Build try to clear his voice, but still, it sounds hoarse : ”Listen, I am sorry Ble, I am really sorry for everything , so please don’t cry...”
“So what is your next plan? Want me to just leave you, abandon you,
severed ties with you to protect my reputation, just like what they plan to do? ”
“Hey Ble, stop saying like that. P Pond never said that, he just want me to get a rest first,
that is why we got this opportunities to visit Japan~ Perth is here also, I miss him so much, don’t you too?”
“Don’t try to change the topic Bui, just tell me , are you going to give in to that lady?”
“I....”
“Say it.”
“I....”
“What?”
“I don’t know Ble, I was too tired. I really don’t know what to do now, I feel so lost...
I really regret, I was not a very good kid like you all, I was a fool a few years ago,
I learnt my mistake and I try to be a kind and gentle person, I try to treat everyone good,
but why can’t she just give me that chance....I know this day will come, I just know it...
That is the reason I try to be happy and busy everyday, because I really don’t know which day will be my last day, with you....with you all.... ”
“Stop saying all this bullshit.”
“It is not bullshit Ble, I just know she won’t let go of me. I tried, I tried so hard,
but she just won’t listen, I am scare , at the same time I feel ashamed,
I am a fully grown man but I am terrified by a weak lady like her...”
“She is not weak, we all know that. Why are you blaming yourself?”
“I am not totally innocent at the first place....There are many reasons and it is complicated, but I need to bear some responsibilities as well....”
“I know, that is the reason I didn’t smack her on the face at the first place, you are being too soft hearted Bui,
that is why you become her main target. Can’t you see?”
“Stop that Ble, you are still too young for this...”
“For your information, I am a fully grown man as well, same like you P’ Jakapan. ”
“Ok, we should just calm down , both of us. I think I need to take some fresh air outside the room, wanna join?”
Build try to smile when he open the hotel room door, and his smile suddenly froze.
Barcode was grab by Jeff from behind, but Ta just fall inside the room floor when the door suddenly open.
“What the....”
“Hehe P’ Build, we are not trying to eavesdrop P’Bib crying, but you know, curiosity killed the cat...”
“And I am gonna kill you Macau.”
Bible stand up with his red eyes, and Ta give a small groan when he feel the pressure on his stomach.
“Stop that Ble, he means well....i guess so?”
“Yes, you should listen to my in-law, he is right~ Ouch it hurts bro! Save me P’Tong~!
You are the one who ask us to Live broadcast what they said! ”
And the next door open, Bible and Build were totally speechless to see all of them are inside the room,
smiling awkwardly, except Tong who looks proud and give Barcode a thumb up: “Mission accomplished , well done my fellow comrade~!”
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“So all of you have been hiding in the next door ? what about the dinner? I thought Apo is starving? ”
Apo wraps his arm around Build’s shoulder as usual and humming in his usual sexy voice: “Tee –hee~~ we got a free delivery boy on the way~~ ”
“P’ Mile?”
“Nah, he will be here tomorrow I guess, I heard he is gonna spend some time with his family for chinese lunar new year,
but I am not sure whether he will come earlier, I haven’t heard from him since afternoon .”
“Hey you all, didn’t you see my message inside our group? I told you all to send 2 people to help me carry all these foods! ”
“Hello Perth~! Long time no see, wow look at you , you looks so pretty today~~”
“Thanks P’Tong~ by the way each of you need to pay me how much for the Luxury Sushi Set, let me calculate this, it should be......”
“Thank you so much P’ Perth for the treat~! Hooray! Lets enjoy our meal together~!”
“Wait, what......ok, on my treat Mina-san, let’s enjoy our dinner together,
come Build, I bought you shōchū, last time we promise to drink together right? Who want to join as well?”
“ME~!”
“Stop that Barcode, you are underage.”
“But here is JAPAN P’ JEFF !”
“You are still underage even you are in planet Saturn, be good, I did asked Perth to buy you royal milk tea.”
“What.....”
“Su su na Barcode~~I am going to drink on your behalf ouch it hurts P’ Bib!!”
“No alcoholic drinks for you for today.”
“What?! Why?”
“BECAUSE I AM YOUR BROTHER.”
“.......”
“1 Royal milk tea for you too , Ta, tee-hee~~”
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“So let’s just do it guys. ” Build silently finish off his drinks with a smile on his pale face.
“i don’t want to do that...why should I delete all my photo with you? That woman is the one at fault, not P’ Build ~ !”
Barcode hold his phone with both hands, looked terrified.
“This is for you and for the company good....remember you and Jeff are going to have new project soon, right?”
“But P’ Bas.....I don’t care~! i am going to stay beside P’ Build as well~!
My father will be so disappointing of me if he know I did this !”
“Stop acting like a spoiled kid Barcode, just do what P’ Pond wants you to do.”
“But....P’ jeff !! stop it ~! Give me back my phone~!
What are you doing ~! Stop it! P’ Nodt? Let me go~!
What is wrong with you all, we can’t be abandon P’ Build at this moment, we all know how that lady....”
“I know, don’t worry , since I got not much fans like you all, I am not going to delete my photo with Build.”
Nodt give a reassuring smile, but Build sighed.
“if you all still treat me as friend, just listen to P’Pond, don’t make things difficult for him, he is under lots of pressure now, but he still try to protect us.”
“I don’t need his protection, since I got no project this year, I will not do it,
I am not gonna leave you alone, do you hear me? So stay away from my phone.”
Tong gives an angry stare and try to point his finger at Build,
but there is a tuna sushi in his left hand and a softshell crab sushi in his right hand.
He froze for a moment and try to stuff both sushi into his widely open mouth,
but that kind of chokes him somehow and Build cannot stop himself from laughing.
“What are you laughing at? I am serious I warn you , look at my eyes, I mean it, I am with you~!
Wait after I wash my hand~! Us , watch my phone for me~!”
“Us... ”
“I know, I will be the bad person here, I deleted mine already, and now I am delete P’ Tong ‘s photo for him....”
“Thanks pal, I know you understand me.”
“ I know you much more longer than them, I am prettier than you but not good in thinking like you,
so I will just listen to what you said, but I am always with you,
remember, just give me a call anytime if everyone cannot understand you ok? ”
“Got it boss~ Apo? What is wrong with you? Are you ok? Are you drunk? Looks at me, are you ok?”
“I deleted mine..i hate P’Mile also~! I should just give her a punch on face at that time~!
i should just put her into punching bag and just punch, punch, punch....”
“You sounds like a mafia now Po....AND stop punching my bed Apo~!
Wait, stop using my pillow to wipe your tears and mouth ~! Perth, help me~!”
“Nani? I am going to haha.....”
“Perth?”
“Mūn Purizumu Pawā, Meiku Appu! ~!
“Perth? Are you ok?”
“In the name of the Moon, I'll punish you! I am the Pretty Guardian who fights for love and Justice!
I am Sailor Perth! And now in the name of Moon I'll punish you!”
“err....Perth?”
“I will miss you Aniki~! you'll always be remembered.... Forever in my haato, you know, here ,
this one, kokoro yoh~ shinzou..... kanashii-desu, neh, Sittemasuka?”
“Oh my God Perth is drunk as well....”
Build is totally speechless to see Perth and Apo hugging and crying on his pillow.
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When everyone has go back to their room, Bible quickly get on to his bed.
“Ble.”
“I am sleeping.”
“Ble, it is your turn.”
“What, I can’t hear you anymore, I am deaf .”
“Bible. Delete the photo, P’Pond said you....”
“Enough of P Pond P Pond, it is always P Pond! I TOLD YOU I AM NOT GONNA DO THAT, YOU GET WHAT I MEAN?”
“Even if that will ruined your career, bring down your reputation? You don’t know how things goes on now,
I am not giving up, but I would be prepare for the worst.”
“SO WHAT? I am not gonna stay in this disgusting show biz if they did that to you!
I believe there is justice in this world, and you are not going to get punished for what you never did!”
Bible froze when Build suddenly give him a slap.
“Just relax, come back to reality Ble. You know I got this slap from P’ Mile in the past,
when I just cannot get out from pete’s character....this is what he told me on that day.
We are not in that mafia world, so even if I lose everything, that is not the end for me.
I can still find other job to earn for living, they are not going to sentenced me death you know,
even if they still find me guilty in the end. But don’t you understand why I don’t want to involve you all into this?
This is my problem and I am the one who should be responsible for this, it is unfair for me to ask you all to bear all these with me. ”
“But I don’t mind, I really don’t mind at all Bui, please let me, at least let me be with you....i can’t imagine if I lose you....”
“You are not going to lose me I promise. We can still be best friend, best partner,
best....couple, if you still wish for....listen, just imagine I am getting a long vacation,
again, this is not the first time right? I can finally have my rest, no need to set alarm clock every morning,
I can wake up when Mino is hungry, drawing, playing guitar and saxophone....
remember I promise to write you a song? I can use this opportunity to do it, then maybe you can get it as your birthday present for year 2023~ ”
“You promise , Jakapan?”
“I promise to Mr Wichapas, I am never alone, and you will never be alone as well.
We are a team, 16 of us , it doesn’t matter how they sees me, but I will always be with you all,
and I know all of you feel the same for me. So let’s just do what we are told to do right now. ”
“even if I said no, you already delete most of our photo....wait , not that one, not the men in black picture , I love that picture~!
At least save one for me~! They won’t notice it~! P’ JAKAPAN~~!!!dont make me French kiss you~!”
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回到2023年1月22日那一天。
清邁國際機場裡，三位穿著時髦的日本女孩無意中發現了黑少劇組成員們的蹤跡。
“天啊mizuki 你看那邊！那是不是bible?”
“沒錯沒錯那就是bible！Bible!看這裡！Bible！”
“我好像還看見了jeff?你看那位戴著黑色口罩的！P'Jeff我是Sakura我好愛你啊啊啊我們同款口罩啊啊啊！”
“barcode和那位紅色口罩的...嘿那肯定是apo！”
“你看後面，Ta, Nodt, Us 和Bas 在他們後面對吧？”
“這到底是怎麼一回事啊？雖然我們是祈禱這次來泰國旅行會運氣爆棚地邂逅他們之中的其中幾位，
可這也運氣太好了吧居然看到了那麼多位，這幾乎整團的人都在這裡吧?難道他們有什麼未公佈的工作行程嗎？akira桑?你怎麼臉色怪怪的?”
“我不知道...我剛看到粉絲群裡在瘋狂傳播的視頻，剛才發生了很讓人擔憂的事情。
“Doshita no Akari san?我雙手都拉著行李，實在沒辦法拿出我的手機，我說這些行李其實都是你們的吧你們就不能自己拉嗎？”
“來，我剛把要點總結出來然後翻譯好了，你們看到build說的了嗎？他其實也沒有透露什麼，只是看到他這樣....
你們看過他這樣的表情嗎？就好像在劇中那種已經處於崩潰邊緣的模樣...我不知道，我總覺得事情不簡單...
等等，你們剛才還看到了誰?沒看到build嗎？他怎麼沒有和bible在一起?”
“P Tong~!嘿 P Tong, build在哪裡啊？”
“看他們好像行色匆匆的模樣...還有sakura chan你可不可以不要再像個瘋女人一樣大吼大叫了，
他們已經走遠了根本聽不到你在吼什麼好不好！ Anata baka kono?”
“好了朋友們，我們就快要遲到了所以快走吧！飛機不等人，所以跑起來！
還有mizuki你可不可以不要再看你剛才拍的照片了他們走的那麼快所以你拍的照片根本不清晰啊你到底在感動個什麼勁啊?！”
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“幹嘛啦你到底要去哪裡嘛從剛才就一直扭來扭去...”
“我覺得我剛才真的不應該吃那個什麼辣木瓜沙拉的....我...我的肚子不行了我需要去廁所...
“活該。 Anata wa hontoni bakadesu ~”
“Doke!”
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“你又怎麼了?是在廁所找到了黃金項鏈?怎麼笑得我有點毛骨悚然...你該不會還吃壞腦子了吧？ ”
“你才吃壞腦子你全家都吃壞嘿算了本宮現在心情超好的就不和庶民計較了。猜猜看我剛才看到了誰?猜嘛猜嘛嘿嘿嘿噢噢噢赫赫呵嘻....”
“什麼?還有你可不可以不要把你濕噠噠的手在我的圍巾上來回搓揉！”
“可悲的庶民啊！就算把我的腦子和你共享你肯定也想不到，我剛才看見了bible🖤！
天神在上他真的超....帥氣的啊但是看起來特別疲憊...可是他還是好帥好帥可是真的看起來超累的可是雖然他很累，
可他還是超帥的啊你知道嗎，kakkoii~! 他那雙小眼睛，其實沒有很高的鼻樑，看起來就很好吻的嘴唇，就連他的小腸都....
“打住！我知道你是他的瘋狂粉絲但是你.....等等，你說你看到了他?你剛才看到了他?他和我們在同一架飛機上?現在?！”
“是啊?我總不可能到其他飛機上上廁所吧?他們就坐在廁所前幾排的位子上啊～”
“所以他們整個團的人是要到我們日本去?我發誓我沒有看到他們在日本有任何活動，如果知道的話我幹嘛和你們一起來泰國追星啊更可惡的是多數時候都在迷路誒！”
“再不瘋狂你就老了...然後你知道嗎，我看見build就在他身邊！”
“納尼?！！把你的手機借我我一定要去和我的biu biu合照！算了我拿akira 桑的反正她睡了不知道啊啊Akira 桑！你不是在休息嗎？”
“我是在休息但是我還沒有失去意識，聽到build的名字我當然會醒過來啊，我可是他的唯粉誒日本byl粉絲團副團長。”
“嘿嘿那我們一起去合照啊小天使肯定不會拒絕我們噠💙”
“別再搖我了我們已經夠丟人了好嗎？我覺得他們目前應該不想被任何人打擾，給他們一點私人空間吧。”
“是啊，我剛才看了一下影片，build哭了，還彎腰和大家道歉，可是沒有日語字幕所以我看不懂...
但是我還是覺得應該不會是什麼太嚴重的事吧?他那樣的性格能做什麼壞事啊....
“我也不相信他會做什麼壞事，但是絕對是非常嚴重的大事。否則怎麼可能他們幾乎整個劇組的人忽然飛我們日本?而且大家的表情除了疲憊，
好像還特別嚴肅...怎麼辦，我覺得我全身都在冒冷汗，一種很不舒服又很奇怪的感覺。”
“akira桑你怎麼了?振作一點啊天啊你心臟不好，醫生說你不能有太大的情緒波動！
沒事的你不要擔心，我們不要自己嚇自己，耐心等待進一步的詳情吧？
對了剛才我還看到bible拿著一條毯子似乎是想黑build,我看到他用手戳了他好幾下，可是他蒙著臉睡得很熟，
所以他只是把毯子輕輕放在build腿上....他望著他的眼神讓我覺得好難過，我從來沒有看過他露出這種眼神，
就好像在劇中他看著那只沒有名字的小刺猬離世時那種表情一樣...不，比那還糟...討厭啦我現在也想哭了.. ”
“好了你們倆都別再胡思亂想了，可能只是一些誤會而已，不要自己嚇自己好嗎？
他們現在名氣很大可能很多工作邀約，自然很累了，我們不也在泰迷路了7天嗎？
我們也累了，大家都休息吧，有什麼事睡醒了再說，再不睡就要長皺紋了噢姑娘們。”
“也對，我可不想像Akira 桑那樣年紀輕輕就長皺紋⊙▽⊙”
“Omae wa mou Shindeiru!”
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“嘿你小心點！差點撞柱子了！你又在幹嘛啊？”
“你們看！我剛才脫了鞋追了過去，拍到了一些build的照片...但是臉還是很模糊...”
“我們終於回家了♥美麗的家，我好想你！天神在上請保守他們一定要沒事，我真的好愛他們全部啊啊啊...”
“可是不知怎的看到build和他們在一起，我稍微安心了一點。就好像不管何時你們都陪著我一樣....”
"我們說好了當一輩子的好姐妹嘛♥不過果然我們還是去報名個泰語補習班吧？”
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“你還好嗎兄弟?”
“我ok，真的沒事，大家去吃點東西吧。”一身黑衣的build努力地對大家笑了笑。
“P’ Jeff,我覺得我們可以叫外賣?叫比薩吧我好久沒吃了誒哈哈...."
“你昨天不是說吃比薩吃得想吐了？” Jeff沒好氣地翻了個白眼。
“那我們叫麥當勞外賣吧啊哈哈”
“前天我們不是剛吃?你還說接下來一個月都不想吃快餐了。”Job推開build搶著幫他把他的紅色行李箱放到了櫃子裡後忍不住吐糟。
“你們到底為什麼一直要揭穿我啊？好嘛我就是不想拋下 P’Build 一個人啊我絕對不要離開他！”
Build輕輕摸了摸抱緊自己右臂的barcode輕聲道:“我沒事的，不要擔心，我是一個成年人了啊。而且這種事情也不是第一次了...
所以我真的沒事的。你怎麼了嘛別哭啊傻孩子，我都沒哭你哭什麼啊都多大人了....
嘿小碼，我們終於來到了你心心念念的日本，你還想吃快餐?那天和Perth視訊時你不是說想嘗嘗生魚片?外賣生魚片可不好吃噢～好了乖，乖孩子....”
Build強硬卻不失溫柔地試圖把barcode的手拉開，可半大的孩子卻像考拉一樣僅僅攀著他，仿佛溺水者拼盡全力想抓著一塊也無法堅持多久的浮木一般驚惶。
“ble...” Build習慣性地想呼喚搭檔的名字，可下一刻apo忽然走了過來。
“P’Po?你在幹嘛啊不要拉我啊我不是什麼娃娃你不要這樣拖著我走啊！ P'Jeff你怎麼也這樣不要拽我啊我這輩子都不要離開P'build!"
年紀最小的被強行架出房間後，不大的房間瞬間安靜了片刻。
“我知道你現在最需要的就是一些私人的獨處時間，所以我什麼也不問，什麼也不說。
但是你給我記住了，當你需要任何人聽你說話時，隨時可以來找我。就算半夜也可以，你知道我從不關機的。
所以答應我你不會做任何傻事好嗎 ?笑得難看死了，不准笑，嚴肅點，發誓！”
“我發誓 P’Tong.... ”
“噢我最親愛的小寶貝...來，我給你一個愛的大抱抱...”
桶哥掃了一眼沉默坐在床上的bible一眼後稍微提高嗓門陰陽怪氣道:“哼哼你這次沒打算阻止我抱我家寶貝了吧N'bible？
讓你每次沒大沒小的，嘖嘖幹嘛幹嘛，這次換你試圖阻攔我嗎N’ Ta?”
“噓別再說了啦 P’ Tong ,我知道你想活躍一下氣氛但是現在看起來更尷尬了啊....我們先走吧 ~ P’ Build， P’ Bib , 待會見吶。”
隨著最後兩人的離開，只剩下兩人的房間瞬間變得更加死寂。
Build深吸一口氣試圖打破沉默笑道:
“嘿，我知道你晚飯吃的不多，但是喝點熱飲也好?走吧，別讓大家久等了......”
Bible仍舊沒有回話，依然沉默地坐在床邊低著頭，仿佛不小心睡著了一般。
從剛才到現在，在自己把他趕回保姆車，獨自回到粉絲前鞠躬道歉後，他再也沒有和他說過任何一個字，
仿佛他不小心把自己的搭檔留在了那片充滿哭聲的會場一般。
build想像平時那樣拍拍他的肩膀，可卻忽然膽怯了。
這個Bible仿佛像一個做工逼真的人偶一樣，美麗卻又脆弱，可他明明是那麼堅強的一個人啊....
可他總覺得他這輕輕的一拍，說不定就會把這個人偶拍碎....
“呃bible?”
Build微微吃驚地瞪大了眼，長期健身的bible力氣很大他知道，可這是第一次他覺得他的力氣原來真的這麼大，
握著他手腕的力度仿佛快把他仍印著傷痕的手腕折斷。
“ble?你在生我的氣嗎? ?”
“如果你傷心了，就不要再勉強自己露出像傻子一樣的笑容，尤其是在我面前。
你是覺得我蠢，還是瞎呢。我最後一次警告你，不要再笑了，否則事情會變得更糟。”
Build微微一怔後忍不住微微苦笑道: “還有什麼會比現在這樣更糟的呢?”
Build 垂下眼簾，正想說些什麼俏皮話時，冷不防一隻手猛然扼住了他脖子，這熟悉的感覺讓他仿佛回到了一年多前那段拍戲的日子，
回到了噩夢成真前那段雖然忙碌可是卻安心的歲月。
“我告訴過你，如果你再這樣，我....我就...”
“就怎樣?”
Build望著和自己不到一指距離的他，忍不住吞了口口水。
“我就要靠在你肩膀上哭了。”
Build努力無視心中那種奇怪的失落感，可下一秒搭檔悲慟的眼神讓他震驚了。
“ok,對不起Bible...我不是故意要這麼做的。只是這已經變成一種習慣，我需要一些時間去改變... ”
“你怎麼敢...該死的，你居然趕我走！你怎麼可以...你怎麼忍心....
為什麼你還是不相信我，不論發生什麼事情我都會站在你身邊和你一起面對的啊！”
“我知道，我知道的 Ble, 我知道你永遠都願意在我身邊支持我....我從來不曾懷疑你....”
Build看著終於抬起頭的人，可卻恐懼地發現他居然一直在默默流著淚。
泛紅的眼眶以及佈滿血絲的眼睛，緊握的拳頭....他蒼白的嘴唇因為激動而緩緩抖動著，原本憤怒的聲音也漸漸變得沙啞。
他看起來似乎比我還痛苦...
Build忍不住如此想著。
何必呢。
心臟忽然一窒。
這是第一次在戲外，看見他在哭泣，不是vegas的那種哭泣，而是屬於Bible Wichapas Sumettikul的哭泣。
在自己心裡這個年紀明明比自己小，卻一開始就很拽地說我不想當你弟弟而從不對自己用敬語的年輕大男孩一向來是理智冷靜強大的理工男，
可此刻的他卻宛若一個失去了一切的小孩一樣 在自己面前不顧形象地嚎啕大哭，控訴著自己的狠心。
不要哭....
不要哭啊....
Build 努力地想說些什麼，可卻發現自己的聲音也變得和他一樣沙啞低沉。
“我真的很對不起baiben,我真的....我很抱歉，對不起，我是混蛋，我道歉，都是我的錯，你不要哭好不好....
求求你了，我從來不希望看到這樣的情況發生的...”
“所以你的計劃是怎樣的?讓我就這樣丟下你，遺棄你，
和你分割開來以保全我自己的名聲，就像那傢伙明示暗示總讓我注意距離的那樣是嗎？！”
“ble不要這樣....p pond並不是那個意思...他...他只是知道我也累了所以讓我先暫時休息一段時間...
瞧，你們可得感謝我，不然我們怎麼有機會來日本度假?perth也在這裡，我超想他的呢，你也是吧？上次我們不是說好了要和他一起....”
“不要試圖轉移話題，你告訴我，你打算就這樣屈服在那個女人的威脅下?”
“我....”
“說.”
“我....”
“說啊！我要你現在清清楚楚明明白白地說出來！看著我！那櫥櫃有我好看嗎！我和你說過你的視線只能停留在我身上！”
“我不知道...我什麼也不知道了ble....我真的好累，好累，我就好像一只一直想努力游到岸邊的飛鳥一樣，可是風浪太大了，
我已經沒有更多力氣繼續了....我其實真的很後悔，你也知道我年輕時不像你們這樣都是乖小孩，我認識了許多不好的朋友，
也曾經有很離經叛道的思想....你說的沒錯，我是愚蠢的笨蛋，我曾經說過傷害其他人的話，我後悔了也一直努力去改變自己，
我想像你們一樣當個好人，成為溫柔的人，給大家帶來歡笑和快樂，我知道我是罪人，
所以我活該受罪，只要大家開心就好，只要大家開心，就算我得受點委屈我也會開心 的...
可是為什麼她就是不肯給我一個機會...
我其實一直知道這一天會到來，無數次我從噩夢裡驚醒，只是這一次這個噩夢終於成真了....
就好像懸掛在頭上的一把刀終於落下，給了我一個解脫。
你曾經問我為什麼要每天都那麼忙碌做所有想到的事，為何要努力保持笑容，
那是因為我不知道哪一天就是我的最後一天...和你..和你們的最後一天.... ”
“什麼最後一天，不要再胡說八道了！我們會一起活到白髮蒼蒼牙齒掉光的年紀！”
“我沒有胡說八道，ble。我知道她不會放過我的....我努力了，我真的很努力了，可是她就是不肯聽...
我真的很怕，很怕，可我不敢和任何人說，我好歹也是堂堂一個大男人，居然會怕一個弱女子... ”
“她一點也不弱，我們大家都知道。雖然不知道到底是什麼事，可我知道這根本就不是你的錯！
“你這樣就不對了呀理工男...我很感激你這樣信任我，但是或許我也不是完全清白吧...或許我再多說幾次，她就會聽進去了....
這當中其實真的涉及了太多東西，很複雜，但是我只能說，我或許也有一部分責任吧....大概....”
“我知道，不然你認為我為什麼沒有直接給她揮幾拳。我不知道你們之間到底還有什麼過去，
只是你的心太柔弱了，所以才會成為她最終的目標。can't you see? ”
“別再說了ble,你年紀還小，很多事情你都還不知道。”
“我想告訴您我也是一個成熟能獨立思想的成年男子，就像你一樣，p’jakapan先生。 ”
“Ok, 我們都冷靜下來吧。不如我們到房外呼吸一點新鮮空氣吧？走吧。”
Build 努力地揉了揉臉後笑著打開了酒店房門，然後一臉囧樣地望著失去平衡撲倒在自己鞋子上的Ta。
Barcode 則一臉驚魂未定地撐著門框，可他那搖搖欲墜的身姿還是全靠他身後的jeff及時抓住了他的衣領，否則他可能也會像ta那樣撲在自己另一只鞋上....
“呃你們.....”build不由自主在想自己好像好幾天沒洗鞋了....
“嘿嘿嘿 P’ Build, 我們真的不是故意想偷聽 P’Bib 哭的，但是你也知道嘛好奇心殺死貓.....”
“而我將會殺死你，Macau.”
Bible瞪著一雙血紅的眼睛一個閃身，在ta還來不及討饒前就感覺小腹處傳來一陣鈍痛....
“住手bible！他也其實是好意....大概吧?”
“當然啊那必須是啊！嫂子說的都是對的，哥等等痛啊真痛啊救命啊出人命啦 P’Tong~!
明明是你叫我和小碼來偷聽然後現場轉播給你們聽的啊開門啊別躲在裡面啊要死大家一起死啊！ ! ”
剛想制止ta胡亂拍隔壁房門的兩人在門打開後也沉默了。
剛才說了要去吃飯的大家都尷尬地站在隔壁房內，
除了一臉自豪的桶哥摘下了自己造型誇張的太陽眼鏡，對著小碼比了一個讚的手勢道：“任務完美完成，辛苦同志們了！”
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“所以你們一直躲在隔壁房間貼成一排隔著牆壁在偷聽我們說話？”
“我沒有啊我走得慢所以我是坐在電視機上的✌”
Us略顯自豪地理了理自己的流海，然後在Job 的笑聲中驚恐地發覺自己的褲子上全是灰塵。
“這不是重點好吧？還有Apo你剛才不是嚷嚷著說餓了要去吃東西的嗎？”
Apo笑嘻嘻地像往日一樣把手搭在build的肩膀上，再用略顯挑逗的性感嗓音道：“嘻嘻，別擔心，我們有個免費的外賣男孩在來的路上了~”
“是P'Mile嗎？”
“他說他要明天才會到，我聽說他好像要和家人一起慶祝華人農曆新年，好像是他們的第一天還是什麼的，其實我也不確定他會不會提早來，他從下午開始就沒在線了。”
敲門聲傳來，最靠近房門的Jeff走了過去。
“嘿你們都在這裡，怎麼沒有半個人看我在群聊裡發的訊息啊？我不是讓你們派兩個人下來幫我拿食物的嗎？超重的好不好又是吃的又是喝的，你們到底還有沒有良心啊？”
“啊啊Perth~!好久不見了啊！看看你這小臉哇塞，日本的天氣就是好啊，看你的皮膚水嫩嫩的比之前更有光澤彈性了！你今天超美的~”
“謝謝 P’Tong~噢對了在我忘記之前，這個豪華壽司龍船的費用可不便宜，不過我把留了好久的折扣券拿來用了所以不用擔心，你們每人只需要給我...
噢還有飲料的錢，我算一算啊日元轉換去泰銖的話應該是....”
“真的太感謝P'PERTH今天願意請我們吃東西！p’Perth 果然是最帥最偉大最漂亮的！讓我們一起好好享用這一餐吧，好久沒有一起吃東西了耶！”
“p'perth 萬歲！
~\(≧▽≦)/~”
“等等什麼啊....好吧好吧難得你們都來了，這餐就算我的吧~”
Perth 對已經在掏錢包找錢的build微笑道：“來吧，我特地給你帶了日本燒酒，上次我們不是說了要再一起喝酒的嗎？誰要一起加入的舉手！”
“我~!”
“小碼你不准喝，你還未成年。”
“可是這裡是日本啊 P’Jeff!”
“就算你到了我們土星你還是未成年。乖別耍性子，大人喝酒時你就乖乖喝飲料，我特地拜託Perth買了皇家奶茶給你喝。”
“怎麼可以這樣....”
“Su su na 小朋友~~放心，我會幫你把你的份喝光的成年了真好哈哈哈哈嗷嗷嗷很痛好不好P’ Bib!!”
“你今天也不准喝酒。”
“蛤？！為什麼？！憑什麼啊！”
“就憑我是你哥。”
“.......”
“嘻嘻嘻來，這杯好像在地上翻滾過的渾濁皇家奶茶給你喝，親愛的已經成年了的P' Ta ~為我們的友誼乾杯！”
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“所以……我們就按照吩咐完成該做的事情吧。”BUILD默默地把紙杯裡的酒喝完後，微微一笑。
“我不要……我絕對不要！為什麼我要把和你一起的照片刪掉？明明是那個女人的問題，根本不是你的問題啊，錯的又不是P'Build~！”
雙眼泛淚的小碼用雙手機緊握自己的手機。
“這是為了你，也是為了公司著想……你和傑夫就要有新劇上映了，你忘了嗎？”
“可是P'BAS.....我不管！我就是要站在P'BUILD身邊！我爸爸從小就教我做人要感恩，講義氣，
不能在危難關頭拋棄朋友，更何況一直以來P'BUILD都在幫忙我……我爸爸如果知道我做了這樣的事，他一定會很失望的！
“夠了，不要再像個被寵壞的小鬼那樣耍脾氣，P’ Pond 要你做什麼你就做 。”
“可是....P’ jeff !! 住手~!把我的手機還給我！你到底在做什麼啊！停下！！
P’ Nodt?放開我！你們到底都怎麼了啊，我們不是一家人嗎，我們怎麼可以在這種時候拋棄 P’ Build？明明是那個女人！！”
“我當然知道，我第一次慶幸自己的長相並沒有吸引她的興趣...別擔心，不會讓Build一個人的，
我會陪著他，反正我也不像你們那樣有很多粉絲，大概也沒人會注意我吧，我不會刪除我們的合照。”
Nodt 微笑地點了點頭，Build卻只是低聲嘆了口氣。
“如果你們真的把我當家人，當兄弟，當朋友，那就听P’Pond的吧,不要讓他難做人....
他...也不容易，就算承受著這麼多的壓力，他仍然在想盡辦法保護你們...保護我們。”
“我不需要他的保護！反正今年公司也沒有安排什麼計劃給我，那我就算不刪除也不會給他帶來多少困擾吧？
總之我絕對不會把你一個人丟下，就好像你也從來不曾丟下我一樣！ ”
Build望著激動的不斷噴出飯粒，左手拿著一個鮭魚壽司右手舉著一個黃瓜壽司的桶哥，忍不住傻笑了起來。
我的傻少爺啊...我曾經為了追隨本心而背叛了你，去了分家，所以真的不值得你這樣做啊...
“你在笑什麼？我跟你說我是很認真的啊，看著我的眼睛，寫著嚴肅兩個字，我說了我挺你到底！
這個吃不下了不吃了欸等等好像很貴，還是吃了吧，嗯嗯等我先把我的手洗乾淨啊，
Us,幫我看著我的手機，不准任何人尤其是對面那幾個靠近我的手機半步！誰碰我就咬誰啊！”
望著急匆匆差點把自己絆倒的桶哥，build慢慢地望向了自己的好友。
“我知道的，那我今天就當個壞人吧，我已經刪除了我們的合照，現在我會把P‘ Tong的也刪掉，我會保護好我的臉不被他咬到的。”
“謝了兄弟，我知道你是懂我的人。”
“我認識你比他們認識你的時間還長啊。我長得比你好看但是可能在智商上稍微比你差那麼一點點，
所以我會聽你的話，但是你得永遠記住，我一直都會站在你這裡，我們是藍色戰隊,
雖然我以前就不怎麼喜歡你那個藍色，但是以後偶爾我會穿你那個藍色系列的衣服，我絕對會讓大家記得我們是最酷炫的藍色姐妹花！
“收到了好姐妹嗯怎麼了Apo?你怎麼了？你是不是喝醉了？天啊你看著我，apo？你還好嗎？ ”
“我刪除了我的...嗚嗚嗚但是我好討厭 P’Mile啊！我就該嗝狠狠給她一拳！砰啪！快狠準，
然後再這樣嗝！狠狠往她臉上揍過去！然後！嗝我跟你說，把她呃咳裝進麻包袋裡，
你看這樣，然後我嗝就這樣一直揍，一直揍嗝，揍..啊嗚嗝...”
“你現在聽起來就真的很像個黑幫了Po...還有不要再捶我的床單了我感覺它快要被你捶壞了Po...
等等不要用我的枕頭擦你的眼淚鼻涕和口水啊啊啊你這樣我晚上怎樣睡啊APO Nattawin Wattanagitiphat!
Perth ,快幫幫我！ ”
“納尼？我好像要開始了嘻嘻... I”
“Perth?”
“Mūn Purizumu Pawā, Meiku Appu! ~!
“Perth? 你還好吧？”
“In the name of the Moon, I'll punish you! I am the Pretty Guardian who fights for love and Justice!
I am Sailor Perth! And now in the name of Moon I'll punish you!”
“呃...Perth?”
“我會懷念你的Aniki~! you'll always be remembered.... Forever in my haato...."
Build 求助似地望向英文水平也很不錯的Ta, Ta 一邊喝著奶茶一邊認真分析道：“從P’ perth指的位置來說，我覺得他是在說他的乳頭...”
Build滿臉黑線地轉向了Bas,他也很認真地點頭，拍了拍perth 的乳頭呃不是，是拍了拍他的頭，
perth吸了吸鼻子繼續小聲道：“you know, here , this one, kokoro yoh~ shinzou..... kanashii-desu, neh, Sittemasuka?”
“老天！perth絕對也是喝醉了，我還沒看他喝成這個模樣...”
Bas拿起了他的紙杯，難以置信道：“他才喝了半杯就這樣...難怪以前他每次不喝酒。”
Build 徹底無語地望著 Perth和 Apo兩人一起抱住了自己早已滿目瘡痍的枕頭瘋狂大哭。
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把所有喝醉的人都扛回各自的房間後，Bible行動迅速地脫掉了鞋，爬上床，蓋被，所有動作一氣呵成。
“Ble.”
“I am sleeping.”
“Ble, it is your turn.”
“What, I can’t hear you anymore, I am deaf .”
“Bible.把我們的合照刪了吧, P’Pond 說你....”
“Enough of P Pond P Pond, it is always P Pond! I TOLD YOU I AM NOT GONNA DO THAT, YOU GET WHAT I MEAN?”
“就算你的事業和名譽會因此而被毀掉，你也不在乎嗎？你不知道現在事情的嚴重性，雖然我不想放棄，但是我已經做好了迎接最壞結局的準備...”
“SO WHAT? I am not gonna stay in this disgusting show biz if they did this to you! I believe there is justice in this world, and you are not going to get punished for what you have never did!”
Bible 憤怒地掀開了被子，可Build卻忽然衝了過去給了他一巴掌。
“回到現實吧 Ble. 你還記得我說過的嗎，當時我一直無法脫離PETE這個角色，是 P’ Mile給了我一巴掌，把我救了出來，現在我也想把你救出來...
我們不是在黑少電視劇中，所以哪怕我真的失去了一切，那也不代表我就這樣完了。
我還是可以找其他工作養活自己的呀,就算他們覺得我有罪，但是我也罪不致死，我不會被判死刑的啊...
你知道我為什麼不要讓你們也被我影響嗎？因為這畢竟是我一個人惹出來的麻煩吶，所以自然應該讓我來承擔吧，
如果讓你們也跟著我被唾棄，那對你們來說太不公平了，不是嗎？ ”
“可是我不在乎！我真的不在乎啊！拜託了，請至少...至少讓我陪著你啊...我真的不能失去你....”
“我答應你，你永遠不會失去我....不管我在哪裡，我們還是可以當最好的朋友，
夥伴，搭檔，戰友，甚至是....伴侶,如果你還那樣希望的話。
聽我說，你就當成我忽然拿到了個長假，這也不是第一次了嘛?最近我真的很累，可是至少現在我可以好好的休息一段時間，
早上不用被鬧鐘吵醒，或許mino可以溫柔地把我舔醒，然後我可以懶洋洋地準備想吃的早餐，之後好好地畫畫，
我剛買了新的一套亞克力顏料和畫板誒！我放了我老家的地址，我媽說會幫我收好...
然後我還可以看心情彈彈吉他，吹我的薩斯克風...還記得我答應要幫你寫一首歌嗎？
我可以用這個時間好好構思，那樣的話或許今年你生日時就能唱給你聽了，只屬於我們兩個人的歌..... ”
“You promise , Jakapan?”
“I promise to Mr Wichapas, I am never alone, and you will never be alone as well.
我們是一個團隊，我們16人就像一家人那樣啊....走過了那麼多的坎坷，我相信這次也會像上次那樣有轉機的...
外界現在如何憎恨我其實我都無所謂了，因為我知道不管怎樣，你們仍然相信著我，愛著我，那對我來說就足夠了啊...
不懂我的人，縱使我試圖解釋，他們也不會願意去聆聽，可是懂我的人，就算我一個字也沒說，他們也懂我...
我相信真正愛我的粉絲們也是如此，因為每次在我認為我不配得到那一切寵愛時，可她們總能讓我更加地感動...
我真的好想，好想他們....所以為了你，為了你們為了他們，更是為了我自己和我的家人們，這次我一定要勇敢地站起來，把一切都徹底解決！所以呀.....
我相信P'pond他們肯定已經想好了幫助我的方法，我們就先按照他說說的去做，好嘛? ”
“就算我拒絕，你也已經把大部分我們的合照刪除了吧....嘿等等，這張不行，我超喜歡這張我倆都穿黑色西服的照片！
喂你至少先幫我截圖保存下來好嗎？一張而已不要緊啊他們不會真的一張一張去檢查的！
不然設成我的手機屏保也行啊！ P’ JAKAPAN~~!!!你再刪信不信我舌吻你啊！!”
“來啊來啊讓哥教教純情男大生什麼是真正的舌吻～”
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