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Maxi was unrecognisable, yellow carbon-fiber darkened with the oil he had lost, his coolant leaving a black trail on the tarmac showing his last echo of life. Roary couldn't look at the scene, how could he when it was a direct result of his actions. Roary remembers the last look in his best friends eyes, the understanding, Maxi must have understood why this happened. It had to happened, one way or another Maxi was not going to leave the race track. Maxi knew that, knew that he could never have left for the grand prix, not without Roary. He would never have wanted to leave Roary. Thats why Roary did what he had to. This is what he would have wanted.
I am innocent.
He remembers the resistance of pulling Maxi's front wing of his nose, he remembers the sharp edges of where the bolts had given in under the pressure. He remembers the lack of suspension in the last lap of their race. He remembers it all. He remembers why he did this, why did this happen, how did this happen, he cant have killed him, he never could have killed him .This is what he would have wanted.
I am innocent.
He talked with Maxi before the race. Nether of them wanted to part, nothing was better than a race together, Maxi knew this, Maxi agreed, Maxi never wanted to leave, Maxi never wanted to leave, Maxi never wanted to leave. He said it before, he didn't want to go, he didn't want to leave, why would he leave. He would have wanted this.
I am innocent.
His rear-wing is imbedded in the barrier, too close, why did he get that close, we where once that close, why did he want to go. He didn't want to go, he never wanted to leave, he wanted to stay, he had to stay. He would have wanted this.
I am innocent
He was scared of the dark, is he scared of the dark now, is it dark where he is, it has to be dark, he isn't with me. What if he doesn't understand, He has to understand, he never wanted to leave me, he wanted to race with me forever. Why would he do this. Why would he do this. Why would he do this. He would have wanted this.
I am innocent.
He isn't here anymore. Why would he leave. How could he leave. We where going to race tomorrow. How could he leave. He couldn't be without me. How could he leave. He isn't far, I could join him, he didn't want to leave. He wanted to stay, he wanted to stay with me. He want to race me. He wanted to race with only me. He doesn't want to be apart. We can never be apart. We where never to be apart. He would have wanted this. I want this.
I am innocent