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Y/n;
(I prepared my guitar, my lyric sheet and myself. Pero lalo akong kinakabahan pag iniisip kong kakanta ako sa isang malaking entablado, sa harap ng maraming tao, sa harap ng mga taong mahal ko. Huhu, dear lorde, bigyan mo ako ng lakas.. )
Random person: Let us give a round of applause for Yamaguchi Tadashi!!
(Nakita kong bumaba na si Yams sa kabilang entablado, ang gwapo nya sa suot nya ngayon. Kung sana sya nalang yung pinili ko kesa kay-)
Random person: -L/N Y/N!!
(Hala gago, ano daw?)
Random Girl: Y/n ikaw na!!
Y/n: Ay! Hala sorry hehe..
(Umakyat na ako sa stage at pumunta sa pinakagitna kung saan nandun yung mic. Kinabit ko yung guitar ko sa amplifier at inayos ang lyric sheets, although I think it’s kinda useless to bring them since I’ve already memorized the song.)
Y/n: Umm.. hello everyone, I’m L/n Y/n, a pleasure to meet all of you.
(Naghiyawan ang mga tao pero mas nanaig ang ingay ng boys volleyball club, kung saan naging manager ako at OMG ANDUN SI KIYOKOOO, sa tabi niya ay si Tanaka- san, sa gilid naman nya ay si Noya-san at Tsukishima na kasama si… Kuroo)
(Biglang nanlamig ang aking katawan ng nagkatinginan kami ni Kuroo)
Yams: GOO Y/N!!
(Narinig ko ang hiyaw ni Yams sa akin kaya nakabalik ako sa reality.)
Y/N: Ang ingay niyo naman haha, nainlove kayo sa kanta ni Yams no? yiiieeee haha
Everyone: HAHAHHAH
Y/n: gusto niyo padin ba mainlove? haha well then, andito ako para pasayahin ko kayo yieee usto niyo yun?
Everyone: GUSTOO
Y/n: gusto niyo?
Everyone: GUSTOOOOOO
Y/n: Yan ang spirit! Sige start na ako ah?
(Tumingin ako kay Yams at nginitian siya bago ako tumingin sa harap at tiningnan si Kuroo sa mata. Bumuntong hininga ako at sinimulan na ang pagtugtog sa gitara.)
Y/n: You can sing along if you know this song ha, wag mahiya haha
(Pinikit ko ang aking mga mata upang damhin ang lyrics ng kanta)
Long were the nights when my
Days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps
Praying the floor won’t fall through, again
Flashback:
Yachi: Y/n, pakikuha nga yung naiwang bag ko sa gym? dun sa nilaruan kanina, may aasikasuhin pa kasi ako eh…
Y/n: Ah! sige po!
(Naglakad na ako sa gym kung saan naglaro kanina ang Karasuno tsaka Fukurodani. Naririnig ko ang ingay sa gym. )
Y/n: Sa pagkakaalam ko, nekoma ata yung naglalaro ngayon? tsaka yung isa? nakalimutan ko yung name T.T
(Pumasok na ako sa gym at madaling hinanap ang bag ni Yachi-san. Nahanap ko naman yun agad, kaso may tao malapit dun. )
Y/n: Sino kaya yan? hala! omg! ANG GWAPO OMAYGHAD ay charot charot gurl kukunin mo lang yung bag di ka lalandi
(Nag stealth mode na ako upang mapalapit sa bag ni Yachi ng tumingin sya sa gawi ko at nginitian ako.)
Y/n: ASDASDFGFA mamamatay na ata ako, lorde help! may pangarap pa ako.
Kuroo: Bagong manager ka ba ng Karasuno?
Y/n: ah, oo po.
Kuroo: Ah, kaya pala. Ako si Kuroo.
(Inabot niya ang kanyang kamay sa akin.)
Y/n: weyt magsh-shakehands ba kami? teka teka pasmado ata kamay ko weyt weyt-
(Pinunasan ko muna kamay ko ng palihim tsaka tinanggap ang kanyang kamay)
Y/n: Y/n po..
And I lived in your chess game,
But you changed the rules every day
Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone
Tonight, well I stopped picking up, and this song is to let you know why
(Binuksan ko ang aking mata, nagulat ako nang una kong nakita ay ang mata ni Kuroo na tila ba’y inoobserbahan ang aking reaksyon. Di ako nagpatinag at tiningnan din sya sa kanyang mga mata ng walang bahid na sakit at takot.)
Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress, cried the whole way home, I should've known
Random girl: Teka! Sad song yan eh!
Y/n: Gulat kayo no? Haha, ganyan talaga gurl, minsan di natin nakukuha ang gusto natin sa buhay.. charot ahahhhah
Random person: Y/N I LABYUUU!!
Everyone: WHOOOHH!
Yams: Akin yan!
Tanaka: Aba nambabakod! Label muna bago bakod hoy!
Everyone: AHHAHAH
Y/n: Kanta na ako ulit? Pwede na?
Everyone: ahahha
Well maybe it's me and my blind optimism to blame
Maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away
And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand
And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said "run as fast as you can"
Y/n: Senpai, may tanong ako
Yachi: Yeah? ano yun?
Y/n: Anong sa tingin mo kay ...Kuroo?
Yachi; Kay Kuroo? mukha naman syang mabait, magaling na captain din yan noon.
Y/n: Ah..
Yachi: Bakit? gusto mo si Kuroo?
(Naramdaman kong namula ang aking pisngi kaya binaling ko sa ibang direksyon ang aking mukha)
Yachi: Gusto mo sya, y/n?
(Naramdaman ko ang pag iba sa tono ng boses ni yachi kaya bumaling ulit ako sa kanya)
Y/n: Bakit?
yachi: Hindi pwede y/n, bata ka pa. sisirain nya lang puso mo kaya please, magkagusto ka lang sa lahat wag lang sa kanya.
(huh?)
Kenma: Narinig kong gusto mo daw si Kuroo?
Y/N: Teka sino nga ulit to? T.T
Kenma: Kenma.
Y/n: Ha? Yema?
Kenma: Pangalan ko, Kenma.
Y/n: a-ah.. Y-
Kenma: Y/n, alam ko. Gusto mo si Kuroo? Isang advice, wag.
Y/n: Bakit?
Kenma: Basta wag lang, di mo deserve masaktan.
(Bat di ko sila sinunod?)
Dear John, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think sixteen's too young to be
Played by your dark twisted games when
I loved you so? I should've known..
Kenma: Y/n, nasan ka?
Y/n: Why? Papunta kay Kuroo, is-surprise ko sya! Papalapit na ako sa door nya, bye bye na!
Kenma: Y/n! Teka-
( Binaba ko na ang tawag ni Kenma. 4th monthsary namin ni Kuroo, we fought the last day, and the day before that. I decided to surprise him with a gift that I saved up by working part-time jobs and such. So I went to his apartment early in the morning. My mood was all good and I wanted to apologize to him for the fight the day before.)
(I’m now in front of his door, before ringing the doorbell, I checked myself out, hoping I still looked good after not seeing him for a few days. I heard the door click and I braced myself as I was excited to see his face..)
??: Kuya magkano po lahat?
Y/n: …ha?
(I frozed, all my senses went dull and numbed, and all the blood in my head rushed down to my feet. Tiningnan ko yung number ng apartment baka namali ng katok, pero tama yun..)
Y/n: Tsukishima… san?
(Tsukishima also stood there, shock evident on his face. He was wearing a shirt and boxers, but the shirt… was what I gave Kuroo on our 2nd monthsary..)
??: Babe? Bat antagal mo? Yan na ba order natin?
(Sa likod nya lumitaw ang isang lalaking naka shirtless at naka boxers lang, I was stunned.. red spots cover his chest and a small scratch was seen on his neck..)
y/n: Babe?
(At this point, everything was already hazy to me, I had already dropped the cake and the gift that I bought but none of us paid any mind. We only stood there staring at each other. My eyes were already blurred, my knees weak and I was heaving.)
Y/n: What…? What is this?
Kuroo: Y/n, it's not what it looks like.
Y/n: Then what does it look like, Kuroo?!
Kuroo: Starlight please, lower your voice, it's still early in the morning.
Y/n: Oh shut up. What the fuck is he doing here wearing the shirt I fucking gave you?!
Kuroo: Starlight, please.
??: Y/n.. shit..
(I looked to my right and saw Kenma panting very hard, as if he hurriedly came here.)
Y/n: You knew?
Kenma: It wasn't my place to tell you, I wanted him to come clean with you.
Y/n: For how long?
Kuroo: Starlight, please. Don't make a scene.
Y/n: oh fuck you! For how long Kenma?! How long did he cheat?!
Kenma: To be honest, you're the other girl..
Y/n: what?
Kenma: He's been in a relationship with him for the last 2 years.
(Dun na tumulo ang luha ko, my head was aching so bad. Nawindang ako sa rebelasyon ni Kenma sakin. Pero amputa napakatanga ko naman.)
Y/N: Fuck.. this is bad..
Kuroo: Y/n.. please calm down
(He tried to touch me but I slapped his hands before he could even touch me. I looked at Tsukishima and he was only standing there, still shocked. I was still heaving, my breath labored and my consciousness fading.. I have to get away.. I looked at Kenma and he also looked at me. He tried to come to my side, but everything had turned black.)
But I took your matches
Before fire could catch me
So don’t look now
(Habang kinakanta ko ang mga linyang yun, nakatingin lang ako sa gawi nila Kuroo. May ibang mga tao naman sa audience na tiningnan din kung saan o kanino ako nakatingin pero mas marami ang tahimik na nakatingin sa aking umiiyak habang kumakanta.)
I’m shining like fireworks
Over your sad empty town
(Tumingala ako habang nakapikit upang abutin ang highnote, para nadin sana pigilan ang luhang lalabas pa pero huli na ang lahat dahil ito’y tumulo na)
(Did I have the right to be mad? Ako ba yung mali? Sino ba yung mali samin?)
(Y/n; ba naman yan..)
Dear John, I see it all now that you’re gone
Don’t you think I was too young to be messed with
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home…
(Di ko na mapigilan ang mga luhang patuloy na lumalabas habang inaalala ko yung gabing nalaman ko ang lahat. When I woke up, I was brought to the hospital, sabi ng doctor over-fatigue daw. After that umalis ako and cut off my connections with everyone. I was so embarrassed. The first person who reconnected with me was Kenma and the rest was history.)
I see it all now that you’re gone
Don’t you think I was too young to be messed with
The girl in the dress
Wrote you a song…
Kuroo: Anong ginagawa mo?
Y/n; Ah.. gumagawa ng kanta.. po..
Kuroo: Gumagawa ka ng kanta? Galing! Patingin!
Y/n: Wag! I mean.. di pa sya tapos..
Kuroo: Hmm.. sige. Gawan mo din ako ah? Gusto kong maranasan maging paksa ng isang kanta
Y/n: sige po.. try ko.
Kuroo: Sige asahan ko yan ah? Starlight…
You should’ve known..