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"i would want to take a bunch of pictures and prepare lots of your favorite food!"
"i'd make sure you'd have the biggest smile on your face from beginning to end!"
"...i bet you'd make a gorgeous bride."
i remembered what i said at the beach. i found myself in a dead end trying to figure out a way to arrange the aquarium wedding. just thinking about how troublesome the requests were to the animals made my head dizzy. i was looking at the horizon with the cold of white sand tickling my feet.
"eh? me!?"
fuuka said pointing to herself, there was a tinge of red on her cheeks, it was adorable. after thinking about it and made a bunch of fake wedding scenarios in my mind, it all fell into place.
wedding scenarios...
fuuka's...?
an image flashed before my eyes. her light brown hair with white lily hair pins matched with a beautiful, long, white dress. her graceful walk along the path, a bouquet held firmly with her fingers. her emerald eyes calmly trailed the surroundings, and a gentle smile tugged at the corner of her lips.
i was dozing off, i looked at the paper in front of me and found myself unconsciously sketching fuuka, in that pretty dress.
i need to focus...
i thought to myself, the faster i finish this the faster i would go home. the clock was ticking at midnight and there were barely any other coworkers here.
"when i think of doing it for you, so many things come to mind!"
a piece of my words resurfaced, i should try imagining it again and maybe it would get me somewhere.
the crowd cheered and clapped when fuuka walked in, her gorgeous face blinding everyone in the aquarium. the sound of light music accompanied by the friction of white sand underneath her feet. her white dress was long enough for it to get dragged behind her as she got closer and closer to...
her... groom...?
why did my chest feel tight all of a sudden? why did picturing fuuka with a groom made my throat feel sore? she would meet the love of her life yet i felt uneasy by it? we spent so much time with each other... would she go out of her way to marry someone?
the thought of her leaving me with a brand new life was what hurt me. but that shouldnt made me this troubled, i would get married myself and walk on a new journey, separated from fuuka.
huh? that felt wrong. what was it? did i just feel guilty of thinking about my own marriage life?
i clutched the shirt right in front of my heart. it was an ugly feeling. sadness... guilt... jealousy...?
was i jealous? of who? fuuka? no. what did i actually want?
i must have gone crazy because i just saw a fish swimming right in front of me, i wouldnt be surprised if i was at gama gama aquarium, but i was at tingara, this shouldnt have happened. or maybe the place didnt matter. a wave of water brought me off my feet until i was floating. a group of fish was in front of me right before it swam away and revealed...
...fuuka in her wedding dress... and the person holding her hand beside her was someone with rich blue hair that has shell adornments on it... that looked awfully similar.
the realization shocked me back to reality, my eyes were wide open. the fishes were gone, so was the water.
was that... me!?
my ears felt hot and i couldn't help but cover my face from embarrassment. my heart was beating really, really fast. i never felt like this in my life.
was being beside fuuka on her wedding day the scenario that i want? but that could only mean that i was the one to...
i shook my head and slammed my forehead against the table which made a mess of the papers i was working at. i rustled my hair in frustration, i need to get a hold of myself. i looked up and found the reflection of my very, very flushed face on the computer screen. it caught me off guard and now my forehead was on the table again.
me... marrying fuuka...?
thinking i was marrying someone else drowned me of guilt. i never thought of my marriage life. now that i think about it, i was never the type to talk about boys in my teenage years. i was too busy taking care of gama gama aquarium that i forgot about marriage. the thought of sharing half of my life with someone else simply felt too troublesome. but... if it's with fuuka...
it pulled the little strings on my heart. was this joy? if so i have never felt this happy from my fantasy alone. or was this embarrassment?
of acknowledging that i was in love with her.
a glimpse of fuuka's face came to my mind.
oh... she really was that pretty.
in this condition, i wouldn't dare meet fuuka. i need to calm down first before i see her face to face and sort out these feelings i was having. what if she doesn't feel the same way? i didn't want to say things i didn't mean that would cause misunderstanding.
what misunderstanding...? i truly was in love with fuuka. how she cared so much for me, how she always found me whenever i was agitated, how she cooked dinner for me, woke me up when i overslept. the smile she gave at my way...
the thought of her only made me more and more flustered, i wouldn't be surprised to see my face as bright as a tomato now.
i didn't know how i would react if i see her now. yeah... i shouldn't meet her tonight. i reached for my phone, i was going to send a message telling i wouldn't be home today.
...until i heard a knock at the door.
"kukuru...? it's getting late and i got too worried i came here... everything's okay?"
oh no...