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Finland always liked Sweden, even if he didn’t show it, he always did even when he was annoyed or angered by him, his feelings were always there. He did have a crush on him but he was too nervous to tell him and he didn’t want to deal with Åland getting pissy at him. Finland sat in his room and sighed, his sister walked in and said

“hey you ok?”

Finland nodded and said

“yep just tired”

She then said

“dinner is almost ready”

Finland said

“ok”

And went down stairs and had dinner with the others, he felt a pain in his chest but he tried to ignore it because he thought it would go away, after dinner he went back to his room and sat there, then he started coughing, the coughing made the pain even worst, he just felt pain in his lungs and throat like someone was choking him with barbed wire, he ran to the bathroom just incase he might puke, he kept coughing until he spat something out, he looked down at the basin in front of him, he saw a flower covered in his blood, he looked shocked and scared, then he coughed up more blood and flowers, he was shaking as this happened, he thought

“what the hell?”

Then after he finished puking up more flowers he cleaned his face because blood was drooling down his chin from coughing and puking. Then he cleaned the basin from all the blood and chucked the flowers in the trash, the flowers were red roses, Finland looked at them for a moment, he knew they were Sweden’s favorite flowers but he wouldn’t want some flowers that he coughed up and that were covered in his own blood, he then left the bathroom and went to sleep hoping that it would stop by tomorrow.

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After a few more days it didn’t stop, Finland kept coughing up blood and flowers, it was painful for him, it felt like knives in his throat and lungs, Finland sobbed every time this happened, he knew why this was happening but he was scared to tell Sweden his feelings, he didn’t want Sweden to hate him or to make Sweden feel weird around him, he was scared of being rejected, but deep inside he just wanted to tell him how he feels about him and how much he loves and cares for him, he coughed up more flowers onto the bathroom floor as tears streamed down his face, he broke down crying, all he felt was pain and sorrow, then he heard the door open. He turned to see who it was and it was his sister, she then said

“I heard you crying are you ok”

He tried to hide the blooded flowers that were on the floor and said

“Y-yeah”

Then she said in a confused tone

“You look like your hiding something...are you sure your ok...you have blood all over your sweater”

He looked at his sweater and saw it had blood marks on it, he panicked inside, he didn’t want his sister to worry about him, he didn’t want her to overreact as well, then he said

“Don’t worry about it sis...I can deal with it myself”

Then she walked over to him, then she said

“Something is clearly wrong and of course I will worry about you. Your my brother and I care for you so I will never stop worrying about you”

Then she saw the blood covered flowers that scattered the floor, then she thought

“Is he coughing up flowers? I need to see what’s wrong, that isn’t right, I might ask sister Japan about this because she wants to talk to me tomorrow anyways so it would be best to ask her if she knows about something like this”

She hugged Finland and said

“Clean yourself your and let’s head to bed ok”

He nodded and cleaned the blood off the floor, chucked them blood covered sweater into the washing basket and changed into his nightwear and headed to bed and fell asleep.

Next day sister Finland met up with sister Japan, they talked and had some coffee together then sister Finland asked

“Hey so can I ask you about something important?”

Sister Japan smiled and said

“Of course you can! So what’s bothering you?”

Then sister Finland said

“So you know my brother right?”

Sister Japan said

“Of course”

Then sister Finland said

“So I’ve noticed he’s been acting strange and yesterday I noticed he had coughed up some roses and I wanted to know if you know what’s going on or what’s causing this”

Sister Japan gave a worried look and said

“This sounds like hanahaki disease”

Sister Finland then said in a nervous tone

“What’s that? I’ve never heard of hanahaki before, is this dangerous? Will he die?”

Sister Japan said

“It’s not too dangerous but it’s caused by one sided love but it can cause him trouble breathing if not treated because flowers are growing in his lungs, it can be cured by his feelings being returned but it also can be cured by surgery but if he has the surgery his memories and feelings for the person he’s in love with will vanish or in worst cases it can take away his capacity for romantic love, the best way to try and cure it is to find out who he’s in love with and help him be able to confess is feelings and hope that the person will feel the same”

Sister Finland looked stunned, she felt nervous for her brother but was determined to help him out, she then said

“I will try to help him with it”

Then sister Japan said

“That’s the best idea”

Sister Finland smiled but was also a little nervous because she didn’t want it to get worst but she knew that she wanted to do the right thing by helping him and hopefully making him feel better.