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grief
My dearest husband,
You’ve left me. You have made me a widower. I always swore that I could not live without you, that you were the one piece of myself I could not go through life without. And now, you’ve made me a widower. But. You’ve also made me a father of two kind, brilliant, loving people who have forced themselves back into our home so that I won’t be alone. You have made me a grandfather of five beautiful, precocious grandchildren. You have made me an uncle five times over, and a great uncle of twelve, all of whom have some sort of alien abilities to keep things interesting.
You have left me. But you have left me a part of a large and loving family, all of whom are with me in my grief at losing you. You have left me, but you have not left me alone.
You have left me, but pieces of you remain. I see you in our daughter’s curls and our grandson’s amber eyes. I hear you in the wind chimes you added to our garden and in our granddaughter’s passionate voice as she tells me about her latest engineering project. I smell you every time it rains and feel you every time I’m hugged by a member of our family who runs just a bit hot. So while it is true that you are the piece I can’t go through life without, you have left behind enough pieces of yourself for me to go on without you for the time that I have left. Grieving you. Missing you with every fiber of my being for every moment, but able to go on.
And while I may not know what comes next, in what form our essences or our souls may continue to exist, I know that you’ll be waiting for me. And I know that when it’s my time, my soul will find yours and we will be together for eternity. For our connection, our love, is cosmic, as always. And though I will not rush the time that I have left here without you, will treasure the time with the large, loving family you have left me, I look forward to the day I will be reunited with you, my beautiful husband. My perfect soulmate.
Yours, eternally,
body, heart, and soul,
-AG