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"—please remember! You are Kamen Rider Na-go!"
"You wanted this! You told me to remind you of your real self!"
"Don't forget who you really are! Neon!"
Because of what Michinaga had done before—breaking hers and Sara's core ID—she was forced out of the DesiRoyale and her memories of her time in the DesiGra were removed from her mind. So she wasn't able to recognise Kyuun, during the last moments prior to the Grand End before he was forced to leave this world. Yet, even then... Kyuun had tried to fulfil his promise to her. Until the end...
"You know that's not the real me! Help me remember next time!"
"Being myself is what's important!"
Though to be honest, she didn't think Kyuun would really try his hardest to keep his words to her.
×××
"Why did you keep your distance?"
"—I just thought that you might be happier forgetting it all."
Neon smiled weakly as she continued to think about Kyuun. At first, Kyuun seemed to just be an anti-fan of her NeonTV channel. But then it turned out that Kyuun was actually a big fan of hers as well as her biggest supporter in the DesiGra. Somehow she wondered since when had Kyuun followed her NeonTV channel. Does the DesiGra audience members also able to view other things in this world, other than the DesiGra itself? Then how else would Kyuun know of her greatest wish?
Neon frowned by herself. Ah, she almost forgot about it. Her two bodyguards, Ben and John. The two of them used to join the DesiGra as well! How could she have forgotten about that?
Neon sighed.
Wonder what kind of wish John and Ben made when they first joined the DesiGra in the past? Did their wishes have something to do with her? Was that how Kyuun found out about her?
"Earth to Neon-chan! Is something wrong?"
Neon blinked as she turned around to see Sara standing behind her. She hastily waved her arms at him.
"Ah, no! There's nothing wrong happening—" Neon hastily cried out before sighing. Sara took that moment to sit beside Neon.
Neon just shook her head. "It's nothing... but I just thought about someone who was no longer here."
Sara blinked at Neon before something clicked in her mind as she remembered something Neon once told her before.
"Was it someone you mentioned before that you want to leave with, after making everyone forget about you?"
Neon let out a gasp at her before nodding her head. "Yeah. His name was Kyuun."
Sara immediately smiled. "Hmmm... I guess right now was the season for it, huh? It's sure nice to be young..."
Neon hastily poked Sara on the sides as the latter started giggling. "It's not like that—" Neon exclaimed before glancing back at Sara. She frowned. "What did you mean when you said that this was a season for it?"
Sara just shrugged. "Nothing big... but earlier, I thought there was something going on between Keiwa and Ace-kun—" she said as Neon's attention immediately perked up hearing about it. But then Sara quickly changed the topic.
"So what was it, about this Kyuun-san?"
Neon just sighed at the older lady. "Nothing much, I just—wondered how he was doing. We didn't manage to say our goodbyes properly, I wonder if he's all right."
Sara cocked her head at Neon. "Kyuun sounded like a nice guy..." she said as Neon nodded enthusiastically to Sara.
"Yes, he was. Kyuun was the sweetest person ever... though at first, you wouldn't have known that he was like that from the first impression."
Neon grinned at her. "Kyuun was so shy and awkward, he kept blurting out things that were the opposite of his true thoughts. I thought at first that he was an anti-fan of NeonTV! Because he sounded like he couldn't stand the sight of me, even when we just happened to walk past each other by chance!" she exclaimed as Sara gasped in excitement.
"So Neon-chan, by any chance... did you like Kyuun-san?"
"Eh?"
×××
She suddenly thought of digging through her things again after her talk with Sara earlier. Also because something just jogged her memories after the talk.
Kyuun's letter to her. The letter that Kyuun once used to talk to her indirectly during the past few DesiGra. After she found out about Kyuun's true identity, they stopped using the letter to communicate with each other. By any chance, was the letter still existing among her belonging?
After after a few minutes, Neon found the letter inside her little box of trinkets. What a relief, Neon thought as she open up the letter to reread the last message that Kyuun used to write to her.
To her surprise, the message that she was expecting to see was no longer written inside the letter. Instead, there was an entirely new message that she didn't realise Kyuun had left for her.
「I'm sorry. I couldn't fulfil my promise to you to take you away from this world. I'm sorry.
I didn't expect that we would part from each other so suddenly like this.
Take care, Neon. I wished that you'd eventually find the true happiness you're looking for...」
~ Kyuun ~
A single tear trickled down her cheek as Neon hastily wiped it away. Suddenly she recalled the first wish that she used to write when she entered the DesiGra to take part in the world-changing survival game for the first time.
Her wish to find true love...
A very innocent wish that Neon used to have in her heart before the truth about her whole existence was revealed so cruelly.
A true love. Someone who loved her sincerely. Doesn't Kyuun fit the bill perfectly as someone who could be her true love? Or was she just deluding herself with the idea that Kyuun had any hidden feelings for her?
Would it be possible that Kyuun had loved her so sincerely while keeping it a secret from her? Was that why Kyuun had offered to take her with him to the future? Was Kyuun really in love with her?
Neon's heart started to beat rapidly before she remembered her current position.
Alas, this relationship would not come to fruition as Kyuun were forced to leave this world with the rest of the DesiGra's other members of the audience. Yet the memory of Kyuun desperately tried to reach out to her to get her to remember everything wouldn't leave her alone!
Was it painful for him to have to leave without bringing her along with him? Did Kyuun spare any other thoughts for her before he stepped into the dimensional gate?
Would she ever be able to find someone else like Kyuun? Someone who could embrace her and find her to be precious to him—even after finding out the complete truth about her that she does not want to deal with. A part of her felt regret that she hadn't been able to spend more time with Kyuun before everything around them comes to an end.
Even though it was now no longer possible for the two of them to see each other again, Neon couldn't stop wondering if she would ever see Kyuun anymore after this.
Neon pressed Kyuun's letter against her chest as she continued to think about her one and only supporter.
She missed him so.
The one who made her heart felt 'kyuun'.