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DRAMA FOR YO MAMA ! 

dazai : gusy whos auditioning for teh muscial 

atsushi:😃

atsushi: THIS IS THE DRAMA GC????

dazai: WHATEVER 

chuuya: that gave off " sir, this is a wendys" vibes 

dazai: OMFG WHOS AUDITIONING FOR WHO 

atsushi: yall already know im busting out my singing voice for veronica 

akutagawa: STOP AUDITIONING FOR THE CHARACTERS DATING TEH CHARACTERS IM AUDITIONING FOR 

atsushi: YORUE AUDITIONING FOR JADDY DADDY? 

gin: im sorry what 

atsushi: jaddy daddy..????? j.d.?????

atsushi: cmon gin youre smart 

gin: omfg 

sigma: im auditioning for heather duke 

nikolai: YALL ALREADY KNOW IM GOING FOR MS CHANDLER !! 

fyodor: mcnamara 

dazai: damn - 

dazai: im going for kurt 

chuuya: im going for ram 

Q: im a basic bitch and auditioning for ensemble 

elise: MARTHAAAA !!! 

kenji: ensemble 

kyouka: ms flemmings 

kunikida: ensemble 

tanizaki: kurts papa 

tachihara: rams dadio 

tachihara: bc we have an excuse to be gay if we do that 

ranpo: ensemble :p

poe: principal 

naomi: the coach bc i can yell at kyouka 

kyouka: bitch 

oda: osamu. im so done with you and your friends 

dazai: GOOD :DD

atsushi: S AZAI I WILL FUCKING GUT YIY LIEK A FUSH 

akutagawa: mom pick me up im scared 

atsushi: WHAT MOM? 

akutagawa: OH YOU WANNA GO FUCKWAD? 

atsushi: YEAH 

akutagawa: WHAT FAMILY? I DONT SEE IT! NO WHERE! DEAD! THATS WHY THEY LEFT YOUR ASS IN THAT SHITTY ORPHANAGE 

atsushi: WELL AT LEAST I CAN BREATHE 

akutagawa: WELL AT LEAST I =M NOT A FURRY 

atsushi: WELL AT LEAST IM NOT EMO 

oda: akutagawa stop typing. 

akutagawa: yes sir...

atsushi: HAH I WIN BITCH 

oda: no you dont go back to explaining why youre gonna gut osamu like a fish 

atsushi: BECAUSE HE TOOK MY FUCKING HEADPHONES 

dazai: I LEFT MINE AT HOME AND YOU HACE AN EXTRA PAIR 

atsushi: STILL RUDE ASS BITCH 

dazai: STOP MAKING AUTISM YOUR WHOLE PERSONALITY 

atsushi: BITCH I DO NOT I MAKE BEING GAY MY WHOLE PERSOALITY GET IT RIGHT 

dazai: fuck- you win 

chuuya: osamu stfu 

dazai: mean chuuya gosh 

chuuya: <3 

dazai: <3 

atsushi: @akutagawa thats us in the future 

akutagawa: i hate you 

atsushi: i know :) 

akutagawa: so stop flirting?? 

atsushi: not until you tell me it makes you uncomfy you gay ass bitch 

akutagawa: dammit- 

atsushi: HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAAHAH 

DRAMA FOR YO MAMA !

oda: heres the cast listing 

veronica - atsushi 

j.d. - akutagawa r. 

veronica's mom - kyouka  

veronica's dad - kunikida

martha - elise

ms. flemming - naomi 

chandler - nikolai 

duke - sigma

mcnamara - fyodor

ensemble - kunikida , kyouka , tachihara, tanizaki, Q, and kenji 

kurt - dazai 

ram - chuuya 

kurts dad - tachihara

rams dad - tanizaki 

principal - poe

coach - ranpo

atsushi: LETS GOOOOOO

akutagawa: slay 

dazai: HEHHEHEHHEHEHE

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DRAMA FOR YO MAMA !

dazai: @atsushi

dazai: @atsushi

dazai: @atsushi 

atsushi is online! 

atsushi: WHAT??

dazai: TELL ODA >:( 

atsushi: OMFGGGGG NOOOO HES OFFLINE RN 

dazai: @oda

oda is online! 

oda: yes? 

dazai: ATSUSHI TELL him 

atsushi: omfg OKAY 

atsushi: is there a way that we can write blue out of the play? it just makes me very uncomfortable and thinking abt doing it makes me anxious 

oda: atsushi of course. we want you to be comfortable. never be nervous to ask me something like that, and if you need anything just let me know, alright? 

dazai: well guess my balls will be there normal color 

chuuya: my balls are, in fact, NOT blue

atsushi: thank you oda

oda: of course. NOW GO TO SLEEP OSAMU 

dazai: FUCK YOU 

Q: im sobbing 

elise: good

Q: FUCK YOU ELISE 

elise: im gay 

Q: IM AROACE SO SUCK THAT 

elise: bruh 

kenji: brb sobbing 

Q: KENJI GETS ME 

kenji: BC YOURE HOLDING ME HOSATGE IN YoUr roOM WHILE BANANA FISH IS ON IN THE BACKGROUND 

Q: IM NOT HOLDING YOU HOSTAGE YOU ASKED TO COME OVER 

kenji: WHAEVER 

DRAMA FOR YO MAMA ! 

atsushi: WHY IS CANDY STORE SO FUN 

nikolai: IKRRRRR ITS SO FUN TO DOOOOO

sigma: you look like ryoto from kakegurui nikolai 

nikolai: STIOP 

dazai: OFC sigma watches kakegurui 

sigma: ableist behavior 

dazai: IM AUTISTIC ??

sigma: is that a question?

dazai: holy lord and savior jesus christ kill me now 

atsushi: AY GET THAT RELIGION SHIT OUTTA HERE 

dazai: kys /j /lh 

atsushi: no im good 

akutagawa: i may tho /j

atsushi: oh no my pookie wookie bear !! wats wrong :((((((((((((((((((((

atsushi: this- this isnt wike you :(((((((((((((((

dazai: HELP 

oda has left the chat! 

oda has been added to the chat! 

leaving has been disabled!

oda: im gonna quit. 

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DRAMA FOR YO MAMA !

atsushi: i hate being in a relationship sometimes

akutagawa: sucks to be you, im single 

nikolai: ONE SECOND 

nikolai: THEY ARENT DATING?

dazai: IKR?? 

atsushi: well i have a bf- 

akutagawa: yeah a sucky one 

atsushi: hes not that bad 

akutagawa: he literally slut shames you 

atsushi: well, i do hang out with a lot of guys

akutagawa: atsushi- ive seen the bruises, ive seen you limping, ive seen the flinching, and i know not all of that is from the orphanage. 

atsushi: he hasnt done anything 

akutagawa: when i came over to your apartment to practice with you, i saw, i WITNESSED him call you a girl. i SAW him tell you to stop " cross dressing ". i SAW the shredded binders, the threats, the bruises- atsushi. hes abusing you 

atsushi: no hes not! hes just protective! he doesnt understand being trans, its okay 

akutagawa: i saw the scars, atsushi. 

atsushi: what? 

akutagawa: i saw the word slut carved into your back. atsushi im not stupid

atsushi: you saw nothing. 

akutagawa: @oda

oda is online! 

oda: ??

akutagawa: read up 

oda: atsushi, come see me please. 

atsushi: theres nothing to see you about 

oda: atsushi. 

atsushiL there isnt! theres nothing wrong going on 

nikolai: atsushi even i think you should go 

atsushi: who tf got me called to fukuzawa ??

ranpo: im sorry atsushi but i had to. 

atsushi: fuck. im sorry guys im just- i dont know what to do in these situations 

oda: you go to a trusted adult. atsushi, how old is he? 

atsushi: 25. 

oda: did you consent to the relationship? 

atsushi: no 

oda: we'll get him arrested atsushi. we have proof. 

atsushi: okay.

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DRAMA FOR YO MAMA ! 

atsushi: man the sleep deprivataion is kicki g my ass

 dazai: so real 

atsushi: @akutagawa 

atsushi: @akutagawa

atssuhi: @akutagawa

atsushi: @akutagawa

atsushi: @akutagawa

atsushi: @akutagawa

atsushi: @akutagawa

akutagawa is online! 

akutagawa: WHAT???

atsushi: wanna come over and practice our songs 

akutagawa: ya sure 

gin: use protection 

atsushi: im infertile, no worries. and im sure ryuu is a virgin so he cant have any stds :)

akutagawa: AHGHSUAJHVGi STOEHGWhs WHAT ????

atsushi: We'RE JOKING ABOUT LMAO 

akutagawa: YOU CALLED ME RYUU ???

atsushi: OOPSIE ?

gin: I KNEW IT 

akutagawa: NOOOOOOOOOO WE ARENT 

atsushi: ryuu... i think its time we come clean 😔

atsushi: we... are...

atsushi: married ...

akutagawa: SOMEDAY SOMEOE WILL BELIEVE YOU 

atsushi: I BELIEVE IT BC IM DELULU 

akutagawa: I KNOW 

oda is online!

oda: IT IS 3 AM . GO TO FUckONG SLEEP

oda is offline! 

DRAMA FOR YO MAMA ! 

dazai: ive had a realization 

chuuya: thats a first 

dazai: well fuck you too i guess

chuuya: no thanks im a top

Q: I KNEW IT!!! I KNEW OSAMU WAS A BOTTOM OMFG ELISE YOU OWE ME 200 YEN 

elise: I DO NOT !! 

Q: YOU DO! 

elise: I HATE YOU 

Q: GOOD NOW PAY UP 

kenji: ... 

kenji: kyouka ill bring the money tmrw...

dazai: YALL BETTED ON THIS??

atsushi: yeah NOW PAY UP RYUUUUUUUUUU

akutagawa: HIAJHVGU 

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DRAMA FOR YO MAMA !

kunikida: @dazai 

kunikida: @dazai 

dazai is online! 

dazai: yessss ???

kunikida: im outside open the DOOR

dazai: NO IM HIDING FROM CHUUYA 

chuuya: ill get it for you because im such a good boyfriend

dazai: whatever 

kunikida: thank you chuuya <3

dazai: DOPPO :(

kunikida: yes osamu? 

dazai: SAVE ME !!

kunikida: mmmm i dont think i will 

dazai: ROOD 

kenji: wait one minute 

kenji: THEYRE DATING????

oda: yeah i never expected it either

nikolai: THIS IS UNEXPECTED YET - PERFECT??

sigma: im going into shock 

atsushi: i am too but for a totally different reason lmao 

akutagawa: STOP JOKING ABT THIS 

atsushi: ITS KEEPING ME FROM CRYING 

akutagawa: YOU CAN CRY ITS OKAY ??

atsushi: NO I REFUSE 

oda: what happened now 

akutagawa: we were on a walk and a dog attacked atsushi so im driving him to the er atm 

atsushi: ITS NOT THAT BAD

akutagawa: YOURE GOING INTO FUCKING SHOCK FROM BLOOD LOSS? 

atsushi: WAHTEVER IM JUST LIKE 

atsushi: OUT OF IT 

akutagawa: IM AWARE 

oda: omfg. 

akutagawa: OK WE'RE AT THE ER SO BYE 

atsushi: BYEEEEE

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DRAMA FOR YO MAMA !

akutagawa: OK 

akutagawa: so- atsushi is fine. he got stitches, a rabies shot, and now hes sleeping. hes completely fine, just sore. 

oda: good. when will he be going home? 

akutagawa: his foster parents are out of town so hes staying with us for a bit. hes already home with gin and me. he got bit in his stomach, so hes having a hard time moving atm. he'll be fine in a few days. they just said he needs to rest for abt 3 days then can come to practice again. hes abt to hate me tho bc he has to get rabies shots for 14 more days ( i have to give them to him along with helping with his T shots ) . he doesnt have rabies, but the doctors are making us do it to be safe

atsushi: i hate you 

akutagawa: bitch go to sleep 

atsushi: no

akutagawa: i will decitate ypi 

gin: atsushi ill make you chazuke if you go to sleep 

atsushi: DEAL 

atsushi is offline! 

akutagawa: ty dear sister 

gin: ofc dear brother

kunikida: so do dogs just hate atsushi 

dazai: yes. 

akutagawa: in our freshman year a dog bit him in the thigh, sophmore year he got rabies bc a dog bit him, and now this 

 chuuya: omg i forgot abt that 

kenji: im sorry what 

akutagawa: yah atsushi had rabies 

kenji: isnt the survival rate of that like 99%

akutagawa: hes literally not like other boys

kenji: WELL CLEARLY ???

dazai: damn

dazai: hes kinda crazy ngl

akutagawa: yeah hes tough as nails 

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DRAMA FOR YO MAMA !

elise: screaming crying throwing up shitting bricks 

elise: SOMEONE IN MY CLASS JUST CALLED MORI HOT IM CRYING 

Q: HELP I SIT NEXT TO HER AND SHE LOOKED AT ME LIKE I WAS CRAZY WHEN I GAGGED

kyouka: I HATE OUR CLASS. 

kenji: can i just drop out 

dazai: unfortunetly not my sweet child

elise: mori core?!?!?!?!?!?

dazai STP{ ITR 

kunikida: they just screamed and threw their phone 

kenji: ok i need an update on everyones pronouns n shit 

kenji: im aroace, transmasc, he/him. qpr w/ kyouka 

kyouka: she/her, unlabeled 

Q; aroace, nblm, nonbinary, they/he, qpr with elise

elise: she/her, lesbian 

dazai: they/them, nblm, nonbinary :p, dating doppo and chuuya

oda: cis, he/him, bi, single

atsushi: transmasc, he/it, gay, dating ryuu ( finally ) 

akutagawa: transmasc, any, gay

gin: she/her, lesbian, dating that girl higuchi ( shes in martial arts ) 

kunikida: transmasc, he/him, gay

chuuya: ^

ranpo: gya, he/him :D, dating POEEE

nikolai: it/xe/he, transmasc, gay, ace, dating fyodor :D

sigma: she/they, nonbinary, nblw, single

poe: he/him, gay

fyodor: ^^

kenji: cool cool anyways im going into foster care??

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DRAMA FOR YO MAMA !

atsushi: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/316307573837927266/

akutagawa: he made me wear glasses too bc he felt embarrassed

atsushi: STOP IT 

oda: im glad you finally got your eyes checked

atsushi: me too. i straight up could not see 

akutagawa: you thought i was gin once 

atsushi: STOP ITTTTT

gin: omfg that was a scary day 

akutagawa: agreed

DRAMA FOR YO MAMA !

oda: @everyone 

oda: remember that tomorrow is opening night. we do the show every day until saturday. thats monday, tuesday, wednesday, thurday, and friday. today is a rest day, so sleep well and just relax. 

atsushi: IM SO EXICTEDDD

akutagawa: ME TOOOOO

atsushi: im very excited for dgw ;) /nxi

akutagawa: HYAYHUAHG

gin: ITS THE NO SEXUAL INTENT FOR ME???

atsushi: OKAY MAYBE A LITTLE SEXUAL INTENT BUT

akutagawa; HAHAHAh

atsushi: BU T - maybe friday after the show teehee

akutagawa: maybe 😔 ?

atsushi: YES UTSA YES 

akutagawa; JAHGAJHAHAHAH 

kunikida: this feels like afever dream 

chuuya: i agree

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beautiful

        ' september first, 1989. ' atsushi spoke as he stood in the center of the stage. he felt so nervous, but he knew he would be fine. it was the last day. 

candy store

        ' are we gonna have a problem? ' nikolai was perfect as heather chandler. the trio was perfect as the heathers. they all seemed so confident, but atsushi noticed how fyodor was shifting his weight, sigma wasnt keeping his gaze on one place, and how nikolai's smile faltered at some point. 

fight for me 

       ' holy shit! holy shit! holy shit! holy shit! ' ryuu was the best jd since ryan mccartan. he was dark and brooding, yet passionate. him and atsushi didnt have to fake their attraction either. 

freeze your brains 

        '  ive been through ten high schools.. ' ryuu seemed so confident, but atsushi could see how his jaw was clenched when he wasnt singing or speaking. he was deathly terrified. 

big fun 

        ' dad says act our age, you heard the man, its time to rage! ' dazai and chuuya were the best kurt and ram. theyre natural dynamic was somewhat similar; best friends that were in definitely in love but couldnt be together. 

dead girl walking 

        ' the demon queen of high school has decreed it. ' atsushi was very excited for this scene. it was his personal favorite, and it was nice that oda allowed them to wear pants and their binders. 

the me inside of me 

        ' think long and hard.. ' this scene was hard. nikolai nearly laughed so many times as his friend bram was in the crowd making fun of him. 

blue ( but not ) 

        ' youll never be them, veronica! ' instead of blue, oda changed it to a song of kurt and ram making fun of veronica. 

our love is god 

         ' they made you cry.. ' the scene went perfectly. that was until atsushi stopped moving or singing. he just.. froze. his eyes were blinking rapidly. he was mid song. he just stopped everything. ryuu, dazai, and chuuya all stopped. ryuu walked over to atsushi, gently grabbing his shoulder. 

         ' atsushi? ' he spoke softly, waving a hand in his face. when the boy didnt react, he shook him slightly. atsushi blinked and grimaced. 

         ' what the fuck- what- i dont- wh- ryuu? ' he seemed so out of it. 

         ' yeah. yeah hey.. atsushi what just happened? ' ryuu began to whisper

         ' i dont- i dont know..whats going on? what- ' he looked at the audiance, eyes widening. ' oh fuck- i just- ' he began to breath heavily. 

        ' hey shhh. shh its okay atsushi, its okay. dazai! yosano! ' the actor snapped at dazai, who nodded and sprinted off. 

         ' everyone, we will be ending the performance now. ' oda spoke, the curtains beginning to close. atsushi was now on the ground, having a full on panic attack with ryuu holding him close and shushing him. oda, yosano, atsushi's foster parents and fukuzawa were running to the stage. 

        ' i fucked everything up! im so sorry! ryuu i- ' 

        ' atsushi. atsushi you did nothing wrong. we dont know happened, its okay. ' ryuu soothed, holding him close. akutagawa was sitting with atsushi in his lap, the albino boy clinging to him for dear life. ' youre okay. i promise. ' 

       ' i- i dont know what happened.. ' 

       ' i know. i know.. ' yosano was now there, kneeling next to the boys. 

       ' atsushi, everything will be just fine. ' she said, patting his head

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WOW WE'RE A SCHOOL !

ranpo: im committing crimes 

dazai: as you should 

oda: im so done. 

leaving is disabled! 

oda: osamu why. 

dazai: you cant leave. 

akutagawa: @atsushi 

akutagawa: @atsushi 

atsushi os online! 

atsushi: I WILL FUCKIMG EN YPU YOU FUCIMSG BITCH 

akutagawa: okay. 

yosano: oda im with you on this one. 

atsushi: FUCK TJIS SINT THNE DRAMS GC ???????

akutagawa: .. ? no ? 

atsushi: DAZAI GIVE ME YOUR SUICIDE METHODS 

dazai: oh em gee !!

akutagawa: i will staright up reomei and juliet this shit  

sigma: take me with you. 

atsushi: ryuu it wouldnt be straight wegre gay 

yosano: oda i can see why you like these fuckers 

akutagawa: no itd be beastiality because yourw a fucking furry 

atsushi: IM NOT A FURRY YOU FUCKING IRPAHN BICTH 

akutagawa: YOUR E AN ORPHAN TOO???????????

atsushi: NO I GOT ADOPTED FUCKWASD= 

kenji: bitch i got unadopted

kyouka: me tho 

kenji: speaking of that guess who has to move AWAYYYYYY because FOSTER CAREEEE

kyouka: Wiat what 

kenji: uh yeah lmfao 

kyouka: i 

Q: IM SORRY WHAT????????? YOURE GONNA FUCKING LEAVE ME IN THIS HELL HOLE? 

elise: brb committing suicide 

kenji: yeah so im moving to tokyo becasue of foster care- 

kyouka: i fucking hate veerything 

atsushi: KENJI NO !!! 

atsushi: THIS SI /SRS???

kenji: yuh ! 

kyouka: im so fucking done 

Q: KENJIIIIIIIII :(

elise: @mori 

elise: @mori 

mori: yes? 

elise: can we have kenji, q, and kyouka over before kenji moves? 

mori: sure! 

kenji: ill have to ask my grandma since im staying with her atm 

kenji: she said i can i just need the date! 

kyouka: why do you have to move if youre staying with her?

kenji: i can only stay with her until im able to leave. she cant afford to care for us both 

kyouka: okay. 

Q: odaaaaaaaa

oda: yes?

Q: can i goooooooooo?

oda: yes 

Q: YIPPEE

kyouka: i can go 

elise: YIPEEEEEEEEEE ! tmrw?

mori: thats fine !

kenji: works for me! 

kyouka: mhm 

Q: HSAJHBAHJIJSBHIOIhbg kenji can we PELASE make kyouka do our makeup this time 

kenji: fine 

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WE ARE A SCHOOL ! 

akutagawa: theres no way atsushi isnt at least part cat istg 

kunikida: what happened now? 

akutagawa: we were on a walk and there was a puddle on the ground. he stepped in it, jumped like 10 feet in the air, then screamed. 

atsushi: IT SCARED ME 

akutagawa: YOU- okay 

atsushi: fuck youuuuu

ranpo: brb im gonna go kill myself 

dazai: bring me 

ranpo: no im bringing poe 

dazai: homophobic 

ranpo: okay 

dazai: so rude 

atsushi: ranpo why 

ranpo: atsushi i forgot we have summer work 

atsushi: ranpo but we just got out for summer 

ranpo: atsushi but its still work 

atsushi: ranpo youre right 

akutagawa: that hurt my brain 

gin: youre too stupid to have a brain 

akutagawa: i will strangle you 

gin: thats abuse 

akutagawa: and you stabbing me with a knife isnt? 

gin: no bc youre a man 

akutagawa: kys 

gin: okay 

higuchi: i really cant tell if you guys love each other or not 

akutagawa: we do, its just called normal siblings unlike junichiro and naomi 

naomi: OMFG 

junichiro: IM GAYYYYYYYY

naomi: AND IM LESBIAN 

akutagawa: okay...

atsushi: KYOUKA I CAN HEAR YOU AND ELISE FROM MY ROOM SHUT UP 

kyouka; NO 

atsushi: YES 

kyouka: NO 

elise: wait wat 

kyouka: oh yea my foster family is the one that adopted atsushi 

elise: and you didnt tell me even though im in your room and he is home. 

kyouka: correct 

atsushi: kyouka wtf 

kyouka: dont question me 

atsushi: i will if i want 

kyouka: ill stab you

atsushi: okay??

kyouka: istg nothing phases you 

atsushi: well duh- ive had fucking rabies cant get worse than that 

yosano: im sorry what 

akutagawa: yeah. hes been bitten by like 5 dogs 

atsushi: okay listen- they just hate me! 

dazai: another reason we believe youre part cat 

atsushi: IM NOT A FURRY 

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atsushi: so i had an absent seizure bc i have tourettes 

atsushi: apparently we didnt know this and just thought it was my anxiety making my tics be a thing 

akutagawa: is that why you make cat purring sound? 

ataushi: yeah 

akutagawa: oh so like you just arent a furry- you actually cant control it? 

atsushi: yerp 

akutagawa: oh okay. so what can like- set them off? 

atsushi: triggering things and intense emotions 

akutagawa: alright. if you have a seizure again, what am i supposed to do 

atsushi: if theyre absent, just wait it out. if theyre like- big then roll me on my side, get me a blanket, and like- talk to me. 

akutagawa: so similar to when you have a panic attack? 

atsushi: mhm! 

yosano: this makes me have faith in humanity 

akutagawa: fbqaksjhjuhg

gin: he blushing and hiding his face 

akutagawa: SHHHHHH

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WOW WE'RE A SCHOOL! 

akutagawa: uh so- this is to everyone pretty much since this is all my friends and our teachers but some big family stuff is going on right now and im not gonna be at school a lot. i will be able to do all my work but i wont be at school much and gin wont be at school at all

gin: just say it. it makes it worse if you hide whats going on. 

akutagawa: go back to bed gin. ill bring you some soup

gin: okay 

gin is offline! 

atsushi: whats wrong, ryuu? 

akutagawa: gin has cancer. she has brain cancer and its expected for her to have 2 more months

atsushi: im coming over

higuchi: me too

akutagawa: we just found out yesterday. shes still processing everything. you guys can come over next week?

atsushi: yeah! okay 

higuchi: okay 

atsushi: are you okay ryuu?

akutagawa: my sister is fucking dying, no. shes more okay than i am

atsushi: shes always been the type of expect the worst type of person so im sure she thought something worse was gonna happen

akutagawa: yeah. 

atsushi: is there anything i can do? kyouka and i can make something or- 

akutagawa: no its okay. she doesnt want to feel like people are being nice just bc of her cancer

atsushi: yeah i understand. but still, if theres anything you guys need

akutagawa: ill let you know, atsu 

atsushi: okay good

fukuzawa: all my condolences akutagawa. you are both excused from school for the rest of the year. you may come back whenever 

akutagawa: thank you. 

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WOW WE'RE A SCHOOL! 

gin: @everyone 

atsushi: ??

gin: im so sorry. we lied to you. it wasnt me, it was ryuunosuke. he didnt want anyone to know, so i volunteered to let people think it was me. he died last night. he left a note for everyone. 

atsushi: what? 

gin: he wanted me to share everyones notes with all of you 

atsushi: no what? gin- what? 

gin: these are his notes  

dear atsushi, 

thank you. i loved you so much it felt wrong. you showed me that there was still hope in humanity. you taught me to be a better person. any time i was rude, it was because i was scared to be vulnerable. you made my life so perfect. it was as if all my pain and suffering melted away with just a single look from you. i cant put how much i love you into words. im so proud of you. i dont think i ever told you how much i loved you enough. we really were meant to be one. 

dear chuuya, 

thanks for showing me around school and protecting me from the bullies. you made high school an okay experience. you were one of my best friends. 

dear kenji, 

you made me realize how much fun life could be no matter how hard you had it. 

dear oda, 

you made me realize how great school could be. i found my passion for acting through you. i would have gone on to be an actor. 

everyone else, 

thank you. thank you so much.