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Sometimes I wonder
Back when I was frozen in front of the double doors all because I was too scared to open them to present my masterpiece in front of ten people, was it out of comfort that you held my hand? Or was it something more? The softness of your hand mixed with your warm smile gave me an overwhelming feeling that the moment your red eyes sparkled after giving you a nod as gratitude, I was stunned speechless at the sight. My mind tried to comprehend all these feelings and emotions bubbling up from within me yet none of them made sense, so I settled with that.
That time when I got lost in the mall during our hangout, was it really relief in your face when you found me? Everyone I knew would have just rolled their eyes at the mere thought of me getting lost in a public area or openly reprimanded me for getting lost over the simplest route, yet none of that came from you from that day until today. In fact, on that day, you hugged me as if I’ve been gone for years with tears on the brink of falling from your eyes. Completely dazed, I rested my head on your shoulder while your pink hair hid the tears of relief falling from my eyes.
Remember that time when you took me out using your dad’s car and drove us to the middle of the forest, away from civilization. It was a small clearing in the middle of the woods with the soft glow of the moon shining down through the old windows of your dad’s car. Inside, we were talking about the most random thing that comes to mind and laughing about it, making my head feel so high from all the laughter till we both calmed down from it only to find our faces inches apart. Never knew what came next until we gravitated towards each other. Was it your real emotions flowing out when you kissed me in the backseat of your dad’s car? Something about the kiss lingers on my lips till today that I found myself reminiscing the memory whenever a thought of you passes through my mind. The thought of that memory was so sweet, I can’t even hold back a smile at all.
Were you telling the truth on that certain summer night? Our last summer vacation was spent with our friends as we took to the beach like anyone our age did. You pulled me out from our group and led me on a little trip, bringing me to a small hiding spot you learned of from the locals. A magnificent view of the beach which I believe I can never replicate with my own brush. You looked at me nervously making me ask you about it in hopes of calming your mind, only to have left me in pure shock of the words that left your lips.
Now, I turned to face you amongst the crowd wearing formal attires who wore their biggest smile of pure gratitude towards me. You stood there in the most proper look I have ever seen with your pink hair tied up while you watched me with a big warm smile that barely met your red eyes. Noticing my stare, you closed your eyes and gave me a subtle nod before flashing me a bigger smile that gave me confidence. With that, I turned to my partner who I gave a smile as we continued to dance away with one another on this star-filled night. One would say that it is a night of pure joy, but I can’t help but think…
Was all of it a lie?