Chapter Text
Ashton: 3 yr old head space
Calum: daddy
Michael: uncle
Luke:Uncle
Ashton's Pov
"Ashy come on bud wake up," I hear my daddy say "bud we need to go to the studio." I open my eyes and yawn. I reach up so my daddy can pick me up and change me since during the night I had wet my self. "Daddy I 'ungry" I say as I cling to my daddy. "I bet you are" he says,"Lets get you dressed shall we?" He puts me in some sweats and a pull up. We walk down stairs where the other boys are dressed and eating breakfast. Daddy sets me down in my kiddy chair and starts making me some toast. We finish eating and daddy takes me to my regular bed room.
"Okay Ashton I need you to get out of your head space." Dadd-lum says. I shake my head getting rid of the baby thoughts. "Yes Calum" I say "I'm back."
"Okay good now get ready we are leaveing soon" he says as he leaves me to get dressed in my street clothes keeping the pull up on. I grab the stuff I need and I head out to the living room where everyone was ready.
We file into the van and head to the studio. I stare out of the window on the way there. When we got there we head to the sound booth where my drums and the others instruments were. *time skip 2 hours*
We've done the music and now we head to vocals. "Hey Ash are you wet?" He asks with the baby bag at his side. "No Calum I'm not wet I'm good" I say as I go into the booth doing my vocals. Thinking about it I usually have gone to the bathroom by now. It's weird I feel like I'm not actually here. I'm still lost in thought when a voice over the loud speaker asks if I'm okay. I just nod my head and continue with the vocals.
An hour later we were all done and heading home. I was still not in my head space. I usually just wait till I go back in to it but for some reason it's not working. Not realizing that we arrived home Calum breaks my train of thought.
"Ashy are coming or do you need me to help?" Calum asks. "No Cal I'm good" I say as I get out of the car and head inside. I go inside the house and head to my regular bedroom. I lock the door. I slide my back against the door. I put my head In my hands. For some reason I'm stuck and I can't get back into my head space. I pull at my tips of my hair frustratingly. I can't get out. I want in to my headspace I really need it. I start crying because I can't get in. I'm locked out and I can't get in. I just cry because usually that makes me get in to my head space, but it's not working either. I panic because what If I can't ever get back in. I hear a knock on the door.
"Ashton it's me Calum are you alright" he asks. I don't reply I just cry. I hear him try to open the door. "Ashton let me in," he says franicly,"Come on Ashton open the door!" "GO Away Calum!" I yell at him. I hear foot steps walking away. I cry silently. I realize I had to go to the bath room. It doesn't feel right going in the nappy. Lucky me to have a separate batroom. I walk to the bathroom doing my business. I lie down on my bed staring at the ceiling. Why can't I slip into my head space why can't I get in side my 3 yr old head space. It's like my 3yr old self is in a prison. Soon I fell asleep...
(Switch Pov) (also time skip)
Calum's Pov
I'm really worried about Ashton he hasn't come out of his room. It's been two days. I've been leaving food by his door for him. Each time I try to open his door he yells go away. He hasn't been this long out of his head space since he started this. I wish he would just tell me how I can help him.
I even thought of asking michael to kick his door in. All of a sudden I hear a door close silently and then the front door closed. I run to ashtons room seeing the door wide open.
I quickly text michael.
TO:Mikey
Hey Ashton just left and took the car Idk where he left!!! I'm worried about him
Sent 3:45 pm
FROM: Mikey
Hes probably going to go and get some coffee or something
Receive 3:50 pm FROM: Mikey Just wait for him to come home when comes home confront him
Received 4:10 pm
TO:Mikey
I will thanks Sent 4:11pm
So that's it I'll confront him when he gets home.
(POV switch)
Ashton Pov
I hate this I'm sick and tired of this I can't slip and it's giving me headaches. I just left the house and took the car needing some fresh air. I go to a coffee shop and order a coffee. I sit in a booth and stared out the window. Sooner then I realize there are some girls staring and whispering while looking at me. I sit there not noticing how many girls are in the coffee shop until one sat down in front of me.
"Hi Ashton my name is Samantha can I get a picture with you?" She ask. I looked at her and then at the crowd of girls around my booth. I blink at all of them. I finally spoke.
"Let me do something real quick."I say as I get up around run to the bathroom. Lucky I had my phone on me. I call the first person I see. 'Calum'. I hit the call button.
It rings two times...
C:Ashton where are you!!
I start crying because I hear the worry in his voice.
A: I need help t-theres a w-whole bunchh of girrlls I'm scared
C:Ash are you in your headspace right now? I cry harder.
A: Nooooo I ccan't I'm stttuck ccan't gett in
C:baby where are you right now
A:Coffee sshop down the rroad C:I'll be right there
He hung up as I stay hiding in the bathroom where I'm safe.
All of a sudden I hear screaming then I got weirdly quiet. The door opens it was calum. I hug him.
"Calum I'm scared" I cry "I can't gget in myy headsspace." He holds me.
"It's okay let's get out of here" he says" we'll talk about this when we get home."
We walk out of the coffee shop past alot of girls we get in the car and drive home.
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