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It had been exactly twenty four hours since Kim found out that she had a miscarriage and lost the baby she was so excited about having. She was sitting alone in her dark empty apartment watching mindless TV. All she wanted to do was distract herself with work like she'd always done, but Voight forced her to take a week off. She kept reaching her hand down to rub her stomach where a small bump would have soon been growing, but now it was just a reminder of what she lost. Her phone was buzzing with texts from everyone making sure she was okay, but she only wanted to hear from one person - the guy who had been with her every step of the pregnancy after she let him in. But she told him that she needed some space earlier that morning, so it made perfect sense why Adam wasn't reaching out tonight as he was just following her wishes.
Kim decided to try and get some sleep since she had slept maybe only two hours total after finding out the news that left her heart broken. After tossing and turning and having flashbacks to those few minutes in the motel each time she closed her eyes, she decided to text the one person who she knew would make her feel better and who knew exactly what she was going through.
Hey. Can we talk?
Her phone never buzzed with a response, so she assumed Adam was at work, asleep, or just ignoring her. But within five minutes, she heard a knock on her door. Did he speed over here, she thought. Adam's apartment was at least ten minutes away on a good day with no traffic. But the fact that she didn't even need to ask him to come over and he knew exactly what she needed warmed her heart for the first time today.
Kim opened the door. "Hi," he said softly. "I know you said you needed space, but your text…I hope it's okay I came over." She nodded and moved aside so he could enter her apartment.
“How are you doing? Be honest with me Kim.”
She tried to keep it together and opened her mouth to speak, but took a breath and sighed. Adam moved closer to her to wrap his arms around her and Kim just broke down in his embrace. She was pretty sure she would've fallen to the ground if he wasn't holding her up. In between her sobs, Adam just kept rubbing her back and repeating "I'm here" until she gained some strength to stand up on her own.
Kim spoke for the first time since he arrived, "I know…thank you." She motioned for him to sit on the couch as she went to the bathroom and splashed some water on her face. As she returned to the couch, she sat down next to Adam. "I'm sorry for that. I know you just lost a kid too."
"Kim, don't apologize. We'll get through this together."
She couldn't bring herself to look at him as she was pretty sure she'd start crying again, so she was staring off into space until she asked a question she'd been asking herself ever since she talked to the doctor. "When does it stop hurting? You know, at first I didn't even want this baby and now I'm crying over losing them on my couch. Maybe it's what I deserve."
The tears started falling again and Adam reached his hand up to wipe them from her cheek. "Kim, look at me. Nobody deserves to lose a baby, especially not someone as caring and incredible as you." Turning to look at him, she thought he always knew just the right thing to say to make her feel better.
"And it's going to hurt, especially right now, but we can get through this together. What can I do to help?"
"Can you just stay here tonight and hold me and tell me everything will be okay? I always feel better in your arms."
"Of course I can darlin'. But first, let me make you something to eat because I'm pretty sure you haven't eaten anything all day."
"I could go for some of your famous french toast," she answered with a slight smile on her face that resulted in Adam smiling too. It was the first time either of them had smiled since they found out the baby was gone.
"French toast it is." Adam jumped up and headed for the kitchen to gather the ingredients for his french toast.
Kim followed him and moved to sit at the kitchen table. "You know I was really looking forward to watching you become a dad."
"I know you would've been an incredible mom."
Kim replied back trying to sound as hopeful as she could after suffering a miscarriage, "maybe we'll get another chance someday."