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I wake up one morning in my fluffy warm bed. feeling the Comfort around me, my vision is blurry I begin to Blink my eyes awake I look to the side of me and the jump. "AAAAH!"I shouted. I fell off my bed clumsily, my head Beginning to spin, and as I looked up to see my two younger sisters running off "Little brats..." I Aggravatedly Thought to myself. After being rudely awakened by my little sisters, I begin to smell something really good. Like "eggs and bacon" good. I leave my room and walk out to the kitchen to find my mom cooking breakfast. "Good morning Sweetie" My mom looked up and told me. "Good morning Mom." I said with a Groggy morning voice. " I'm going to take your sisters to your grandma's today, do you want to go?" My mom asked me. " I'm sorry but I can't, I have plans today, but tell Grandma I said hi" I told my mom. "Okay I will see you later sweetie." My mom replied before leaving. The truth is I just didn't want to see my grandma. Shed make Rude commentary on things I like and about me. Not to mention she always asks me when I'm going to get a girlfriend like it's the easiest thing in the world. It really hurts me but I don't have the confidence to tell that to people. When my Mom leaves I grab a soda from the fridge and go back to my room. At this point I'm only drinking water once a week. No one cares, no one asks so what's the point. I Can't not eat though. My mom could figure that out extremely easily. Then shell know there's a problem. And I can't have that right now. I crawled back into the bed that I've been wallowing in my depression in for 6 days. Or was it 5? Maybe 8? I've lost count. The second my head hit my pillow I took a deep breath. "Ugh Maybe I should try to be productive today." I mumble to myself. I haven't showered in a couple days and my room was a mess. I Sighed to this thought. I picked up my phone to see if I had any notifications. None. Who am I kidding? People don't text me. No one cares...
Shit... I need to stop thinking like that.
I pull back the hair tie that was on my wrist only to let it go causing it to snap back on my wrist. It's a coping mechanism. I wanted to self harm one night but I saw something. This coping mechanism helps. I still feel pain but I'm not hurting myself. I get a text from my mom soon after.
Mum: can you go to the store to pick up a couple things, please?
Me: ok
" I guess I am being productive today"
I say. I get up and gather clothes for a shower. I set my clothes on the bathroom counter then go back to my room stripping the sheets off my bed. I take them to the laundry room and throw then in the washer. "Goodbye depression sheets" I say aloud. This made me giggle I walk back to the bathroom and get in the shower. Feeling the water trickle down upon my face felt nice. Relaxing if anything. Maybe I should do this more often...
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One shower and A LOT of shampoo later
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I got dressed and actually felt really good after that. I went out into the kitchen to see what we needed and made a list. Before I left I put my sheets in the dryer and grabbed my phone and wallet. I jumped onto my board and skated to the store that was about 5 minutes away from my house.
I walked around for a little bit gathering the things in my list. But eventually my dumbass was looking at my phone WHILE WALKING. Obviously I bumped into someone and fell to the floor. "*********? " I hear words I don't understand from the person in front of me. "Oh sorry" I hear from the same person. He helps me up and then I got a good look at his face. He had the most beautiful ocean blue eyes and hair that looked soft as snow with a tint of blue. I blushed at the sight of this tall handsome boy. "Are you ok? " he asks me. I snap out of my head and quickly say " I-im f-f-fine. sorry!" Then I ran off. Yea nice going Mr. Smooth. I grabbed the rest of the things on my list and skated home. I got home and made my bed and cleaned up my room. I tried to listen to music while doing it. But nothing could get that guy out of my head. Who was he? He looked so mysterious. When I was done, I I looked around my room to see if I missed anything, and then I realized that I feel a lot better. I have clean sheets and a clean, semi-organized room. I laid down on my bed as the scent of lavender fills my senses. I took a deep breath and finally felt relaxed for once. Needless to say, I contemplated whether or not I was gay...