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“sugarplum, couldja feed chia while i grab some food at the convenience store?”
“alright.”
“thanks.”
it’s six in the morning. it’s a saturday in march. i’m going to get whatever food i can get at the nearest 7/11.
it makes me kind of sad, knowing that this might be one of the last times i’ll be able to visit that branch.
you see, i grew up in a town called fujikawa. it was near kamakura and it had houses covered in faded, chipped-off paint and convenience stores and a gas station. it was pretty small, and everyone knew each other. it was dull and average. still, i’m gonna miss it, since i’m leaving it with my fiancé in eight days.
we found a nice apartment in tokyo, and as you already know, we’re moving into it soon.
it’s kind of dreary, really. and sad. i don’t wanna leave my family behind, but i still wanna… i don’t know, “live independently” or just “grow up” in general.
‘cause deep down inside, i think… i think i’ll still be that stupid little boy who thought unicorns existed. i think i’ll still be goofy little toshio nidai at heart.
and yet i’m already engaged to that little boy’s crush. the little boy i used to be, the one who gave longing gazes at the girl across the street. the girl i’m engaged to now.
but seriously. i have dreams. and following them… is kind of scary.
i always dreamed of living in a high-rise apartment in a big city with a lotta people. but it’s scary. thinking of how i won’t wake up to my dad cooking or my mom playing with my little brother, nor will i be able to see my twin sister ranting and raving over how tragic the premise of her new favorite book is. i’ll grow up. i’ll leave.
and my childhood friends. i… i’m bound to leave them too. i don’t wanna leave them, but at the same time, i want to start a new life in a big city full of new people,
so… i'm making the most of whatever time i have left with them before i finally move away. a final goodbye to my childhood.
hoping it works.
wish me luck.