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They don't talk much during sex. For the first few times, An found the silence awkward and thought it'd be better filled: so she blurted out any of the porn-ish lines she could tolerate, the ones that were no more than a 3 on the cringe scale. Akito didn't react much, for better or worse. She eventually stopped that, and the only sounds that divided the silence became quiet moans.
The sex wasn't really otherworldly for either of them, but it didn't feel bad. Really, it felt good. Akito's dick wasn't too small or too big, and An had a really attractive body. No issues. Except two things: they both pretended the other was someone else, and they were desperately keeping their relationship a secret from everyone else.
They didn't really have to, from an outside perspective. Neither had particularly strict families, An's father had even joked about Akito in this way before anything actually happened (and An was disgusted), but all of this was because everyone would think they were boyfriend and girlfriend. They, actually, just had sex. Neither saw the other in a romantic light, but well, hormones, they supposed.
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"I'm going to cum..." "Ah- okay, um, where? Do you want to?" Akito was slightly taken aback by the question that time, as if he was expecting to be told "Okay, go to the bathroom to finish.". He struggled to think of where. He could just cum in the condom, sure, but combining it with pulling out would serve as a better contraception method and it would make the whole thing much less paranoia inducing for them. "Can I cum on your tits?", "Yeah. Yeah, sure.".
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That was their first time and the others didn't really vary a lot from it. Despite the lack of any signs whatsoever, though, they both got the feeling that the other was thinking about someone else. Akito found it funny on the part that An was having sex with Akito and yet she could somehow fantasise about Kohane at the same time. He just didn't have a lot of room to be laughing at her as the guy who wanted to fuck his own sister. Ugh, Ena.
He really wasn't doing it on purpose. There just seemed to be something wrong in his head. Ena is hot. That much isn't weird, but as her brother, Akito shouldn't even register that. Yet she was the only thought that he could cum to, and it pissed him off so bad.
This situation was also the only thing he could think about after sex, laying on whoevers-house was-empty-that-day's bed together. Akito resented his own situation compared to An. He said what he said because maybe he was mad, or maybe he really wanted to help her out. Perhaps she just needed an outsiders perspective. Or he just wanted to talk.
"She would have sex with you if you asked." Soon as the sentence finished spilling out of his mouth, An seemingly snapped out of whatever she had going on in her own head, and turned to face the ginger. She had sort of a clueless look. "Who?" They stared at each other for a few more seconds and she followed up, "Kohane?".
"Yeah, you got it at last. Who else." "No need to be rude.", she smiled. "I don't wanna." Akito was face to face with the possibility that he could have been wrong the entire time and just embarrassed himself, that just because he was a freak who wanted to have sex with his sister it didn't mean An wanted to fuck Kohane, maybe she actually liked Akito, but An elaborated before long, "I mean, yes, I want to. You're observant, I do want that. But it would shift a lot of things for Vivid Bad Squad. I don't want that.". Akito didn't think about that part before because he didn't really have to, but he supposed it was partly true. He swatted a fly away from his ears, trying to find the right words.
"It couldn't be that bad. I think she actually likes you." An half-rolled to the other side and snorted as if Akito had been making fun of her, even though he was serious. "Yes, then I'd tell my dad I like girls and I'm dating Kohane and he would be very happy." Akito seemed more empathetic now. "You sure he's against it?" "Yeah.". Silence took over for a bit. An signed. "We should, still, stop this thing soon. Probably." Akito replied quickly, "Yeah, this is not a good idea either." His eyes had settled on the wall that stood between his and Ena's rooms. Even if An could have a chance with Kohane in the future, Akito wasn't going to have a chance with Ena. Unless she turned out to also be fucked up and they were both willing to fuck up their lives as well. Probably not. An was kind enough not to mention anything although she had already noticed Akito not wanting to see her face during sex, the wallpaper of his phone, and other small details over the past few months. She did feel a slight pain in her chest that was inexplicable.
"Do we... Have to stop..?" she wondered out loud. It was embarrassing, she knew, but she still felt that she had to say it. Somehow, she was prioritizing feeling good physically over VBS. Akito chuckled first and it felt like he wasn't going to answer at all, filling An with shame. He did answer, though. "Not for now. I don't want to, either." An moved a little closer to Akito, just enough to feel his warmth.
"An, thank you for understanding."
"...you too."