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Kalona joined my team a while ago. It was quite surprising but he had also proposed an alliance with us in the first place. I had considered it too but since it was me and Kalona, the idea of us being in the same place together for too long worried me – I'd have a hard time resisting our connection, especially since Kalona himself wasn't even trying to resist it. He was a perfect seduction for me just like Loren had been.
Kalona sat in our bus with us when we went back to the House of Night. He was in the back talking to Rephraim quietly and I couldn't help but wonder how on earth he could be sitting here with his wings but he had answered my question without me even asking. He just spread them around himself so that it was easier for him to be and I was surprised by how incredibly big they actually were.
Not to mention how I wanted to go and snuggle up in his arms. He had wrapped them around me once and I had actually loved it probably the most in the whole encounter. They were soft and I would definitely enjoy the embrace if I was with him.
Wait a minute – What the hell was I thinking!? As if a relationship with Kalona was even some sort of an alternative. He had ruined everything by killing Heath because he was possessed by jealousy and possessiveness. Those were definitely not traits I wanted my lover to have. In fact, I loathed such traits because they only brought unnecessary poison to relationships. Kalona was definitely not an option!
Unfortunately, soon after we returned to the House of Night, I realized that I was in trouble because when we were in the same space often, my desire to go to him just grew and grew. The worst thing was that Kalona followed my struggles with an amused look on his incredibly handsome face. It was hard for me to not to look at him during meetings and it was even harder to look away from him. He was an absolutely incredible sight and he was even more amazing when he was flying in the night sky. Sometimes I wondered how wonderful it would be to fly with him but I wouldn't have that pleasure because I didn't have wings. I wondered if I could use air to help me with that but I hadn't dared to try it. I also found myself thinking about asking Kalona to take me on a flight tour but I put that thought out of my mind immediately. I couldn't do it! I had to continue resisting him as best I could. I was not allowed to give up at any price.
"Wouldn't it be easier if you just gave in, my little A-ya?" Kalona finally asked me a few days later after one of our meetings. Everyone else had already left and I was just leaving the room when he opened his mouth. There was that familiar seductive tone in his voice that made me shiver with pleasure. I couldn't allow myself to give up just like that.
"Leave me alone, Kalona", I said in response and left the room. His amused laugh followed me down the hall. He could read me like an open book and I hated it. He clearly knew something I didn't want to admit even to myself even though I knew the truth – I wanted him but I’d much rather denied the truth than admit it to anyone.
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One day, however, I came face to face with the truth. It was one of those days when I had a particularly hard time resisting the seductive immortal angel. When the meeting ended – and I felt like I didn't even remember anything about the topic of the conversation – I left the room wondering what the hell I should do with this problem. I couldn't really talk about it with my friends because they didn't understand why I had a hard time resisting Kalona's seduction. They thought it was easy but they didn't share their soul with the girl made for Kalona. That was the reason why it was so terribly difficult for me to resist him. My soul and my whole being wanted Kalona's embrace because it was meant to be.
Suddenly Kalona was standing right in front of me in the yard of House of Night and had the most charming smile on his face as he took a step towards me. The lingering longing in my soul for his embrace only grew stronger the closer he came. I automatically took a step back and soon leaned against the wall behind me. Kalona came to me and then he just pulled me into his arms and pressed his lips against mine without saying a word. I didn't even have time to prepare to resist him and that's why my arms wrapped around his neck in an instant, pulling him even closer and he deepened our passionate kiss. When he finally wrapped his wings around me, the last shred of sanity disappeared from my mind as his hands caressed my skin under my shirt, sending intense shivers of pleasure through my body and into my soul. I had never felt anything like this before in my life and it felt like a drug that I would definitely get hooked on if I could enjoy it long enough.
When we stopped kissing, we were both out of breath but satisfied. We smiled at each other and I couldn't stop looking into his eyes because there was such a gentle and loving look in his eyes that was just an incredibly sweet sight. If this was the real Kalona, I liked it. I had met this Kalona before in my dreams but this was no pretense. This was the same Kalona who had surrendered to A-ya's love long ago in the cave where he had been imprisoned with the girl. I stroked his cheek and he just sighed in pleasure. This is exactly what he really needed – someone who would truly love him without ulterior motives.
“Are you still going to deny the truth?” Kalona asked me quietly.
"No", I answered immediately and smiled. "I just can't do it anymore."
Kalona returned my smile, clearly pleased with my answer.
"But for safety reasons we can't be together. Under no circumstances can Neferet find out about this because she would hurt you by hurting me or vice versa,” I continued. “This must remain a secret that only we know about.”
"You haven't told the others about us?" Kalona asked me.
“They are aware but they wouldn't understand,” I said.
Kalona nodded and then he kissed the crescent moon on my forehead which was incredibly sweet of him. I smiled at him and then I hugged him for a while in silence. In the end, however, we had to part because we both had responsibilities to attend to. He released me from his embrace and bowed to me like a warrior honoring his High Priestess. Then he spread those magnificent wings and soared into the air.
“Be careful, Kalona,” I told him.
Kalona smiled at me. “I'm always careful,” he said gently and then he flew off into the night towards the Mayo Hotel where he was to watch over Neferet.
I sighed. I felt strangely liberated now that I had admitted the truth to myself. It didn't feel bad at all. In fact, I felt like I did the right thing by allowing my heart to love Kalona. Eventually me and him would be separated though because he would return to Nyx’s realm one day but I wasn’t going to let that stop me from loving him.