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CA: kar no you dont understand i need this
What were you thinking, agreeing to this campaign with your kismesis? She’s the best FLARP player you know! If you want to top her, it’ll take more than your good looks and charm: it’ll take a worthy Clouder. A Clouder that can match her own skill and vigor. That’s if you’re lucky enough to acquire one in the first place.
Your name is Eridan Ampora and, to begin, you desperately need to find a Clouder. Not just any Clouder but a brilliant, experienced, good Clouder. And no matter who you try to recruit, the role will not be filled, a baffling scenario for sure. You’d think they would be more considerate in the presence—online, that is—of someone of your status. The idea that you would even approach so many brinesuckers with an opportunity should be reason enough to return the favour, or at least provide you with a valid reason for declining. You don’t just mess around when it comes to FLARP. Every campaign is a change to prove yourself, to learn from your previous faults and build off of them.
But sometimes special cases arise where you just need to prove you’re better than…her.
CG: YOU THINK I DON’T KNOW WHY YOU “NEED” THIS, AMPORA? YOU THINK i DON’T SENSE THE ABHORRENT INTENTIONS BEHIND THIS?
CG: I’D RATHER THROW MYSELF INTO A PIT OF MY OWN VOMIT THAN HELP YOU IMPRESS VRISKA.
CA: ok maybe this is somethin you dont yet grasp
CA: vvris is a great player kar and gettin that kinda recognition from someone like me says a lot
CG: OH FUCK, HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SO MISTAKEN? HOW COULD I HAVE SAID NO IN THE FACE OF THE VIOLETBLOODED PRINCE HIMSELF??? I HEREBY REVOKE ANY AND ALL COMMENTS I’VE MADE EVEN VAGUELY IMPLYING YOUR DESPERATE ATTEMPTS TO MAKE YOUR RELATIONSHIP WORK OUT. I SEE NOW THAT YOU HAD ABSOLUTELY NO INTENTION OF THIS SORT. PLEASE, TAKE MY PROSTRATIONS IN YOUR GENERAL DIRECTION AS PROOF OF MY REFLECTION. PERHAPS I SHOULD SLIT MY PIPETTE SO YOU CAN COMPARE MY REPULSIVE BLOOD TO THE DIRT ON THE BOTTOM OF YOUR SHOES I JUST FINISHED KISSING?
CG: DON’T PULL THIS CRAP. I DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT.
CG: AND TO BE CLEAR, I WAS BEING SARCASTIC AGAIN.
CG: DON’T YOU HAVE A MOIRAIL?? ASK HER INSTEAD, SHE’S TOLERANT ENOUGH TO HAVE YOUR PILLAR WITH THIS KIND OF STUFF.
CA: shes
CA: this isnt about her
CA: and jabs at my kismesissitude dont do nothin our relationship is as stable and pitch as could evver be possible wwhat wwould you knoww
CG: I WOULD KNOW A LOT, CONSIDERING I’M YOUR NUMBER ONE SOURCE OF COMFORT WHEN SHE BLOCKS YOU.
CA: thats beside the point
CA: wwhat the hell did i do you didnt havve a fuckin issue wwith it last time
CG: **LAST TIME** I DIDN’T SEE BEHIND YOUR FUCKING RUSE!!
CA: i dont knoww wwhat youre talkin about
CA: fine
CA: tell me wwhen you change your mind
-- caligulasAquarium [CA] ceased trolling carcinoGeneticist [CG] --
He can be so close-minded sometimes.
You run through your other options in your head. And no, that sorry excuse for a purpleblood won’t do. Not because he’s a poor Clouder, nor that he’s any more of an asshole than you. He’s simply too unnerving. It’s odd. The only troll who agreed right off the bat was an annoying fuck. God, he got under your skin.
Kanaya is a midblood but she’s the closest option you have to a proper highblood. Nearly everyone in your friend group relies on her so she’s bound to help you, especially given how dire the situation is.
You open a new window on Trollian for your chat with Kanaya.
-- caligulasAquarium [CA] began trolling grimAuxiliatrix [GA] --
CA: kan can you be my clouder
GA: What
Oh, Kanaya. Doesn’t she know your specialty is being exceptionally unclear?
CA: wwhy do you alwways wwhat evverythin i say i thought you wwere supposed to be smart or somethin
CA: and i dont think it gets any clearer than that
CA: no one wwants to be my clouder for tomorroww
GA: Why Did You Wait Until The Eve Of Your Session
CA: i dont knoww wwhy are you askin so many questions
CA: im hurryin a bit im a busy guy you knoww schemes aint gonna scheme themselvves
CA: plus all the good sea dwwellers aint avvailable youre my best option kan
CA: so yes i am puttin in the effort and your implications are stupid
GA: Have You Considered That Your Aggression May Not Leave Your Propositions Very Desirable
CA: wwhat you think i sound desperate
CA: or needy
CA: im not needy im just askin people to be considerate for a change theres nothin needy about that
CA: besides i dont got to be
CA: wwait does this mean youre considerin takin up the offer
GA: Maybe Youve Received This Answer Already
GA: Or If It Doesnt Give You Too Much Credit You May Have Had The Underlying Suspicion
GA: I Do Not Want To Be Involved In Your Rivalry
CA: ugh
CA: ok you knoww wwhat this is the second time today that our relationship has been insulted and ivve about had it up to here wwith you nooksuckers
CA: and that doesnt make any sense either dont you wwant to be around your arrogant glubbin girl crush
CA: to think i savved you a seat directly betwween the twwo of us i guess my expectations wwere too high is that it
CA: tch
Hold for a theatrical pause.
GA: No Youre Just Incapable Of Telling When Someones Had Enough
CA: forget it
CA: this probably aint evven the right offer to be givvin you ill find someone else an youll think about this later wwishin youd taken your chance
-- caligulasAquarium [CA] ceased trolling GrimAuxiliatrix [GA] --
To be quite honest with yourself, you’re not even sure what half of that was. Sometimes the words really do just drain out of your mouth. Or rather, your point stumps? You’ll work on the metaphor later.
You’ve considered in the back of your mind that maybe your obvious disdain for transparency comes from the need to leave people questioning. You must remain mysterious, you never know who might sabotage you. Especially those glubbing land-dwellers. God, is it hard conversing with the enemy.
Well anyway, when a guy runs out of people to offer a job to, they take drastic measures.
That means it’s time to ask someone else, a risk not too many would dare take. There’s the kitty cat shipper cavegirl. What was her name again? Naplar? Nutela? You’ll remember once you get talking. There’s also her moirail, the indigoblood. You will admit, while you’re not too close with the guy, he may be your best bet. He’s familiar with FLARP and his obsession with highblood morals could make him a challenging Clouder. He might be perfect for Vriska.
Upon opening the chat window, you’re bombarded with some of the most excruciating dialogue you’ve laid your glance nuggets on. When did this conversation even happen? Why did he say that? Why were you even conversing with him in the first place??
“No way.” You close the window.
Okay, so, maybe it would be a little discomforting knowing the weird sweaty guy is on your team. Vriska would be able to sense your desperation right away. He’ll be your last option.
It seems that none of your alternatives will work. Perhaps you need to take Karkat’s advice, Feferi really is your best choice. Naturally, you had considered her first, but you instantly backed out. You two had gotten into a pretty nasty argument last time, summoning your intense fears she might have been on the verge of letting you go—again. You managed to save your moirallegiance, luckily enough. What would you do if you failed this time?
Feferi is kind. She’s beautiful and sweet and her words don’t only mildly anger you without a discernable reason. Talking to her is different from talking to the kitty cat shipper cavegirl—whatever her name is—or at least that’s what you think. Emotions are hard and even harder when you’re still growing up and trying to figure things out.
The first step to this process is unblocking your moirail—arguably the hardest part. Feferi can be mean, sure. She can be ignorant sometimes too, and even a little snooty. But she’s still your moirail.
Hopefully that will change soon, though. You have had your moirallegiance going strong for almost a sweep, at this rate she’s bound to have realized what a perfect match you are for each other. Unblocking Feferi’s going to require a bit of smoothness, maybe an apology or two? Talking to Feferi has made that easier over the sweeps, this’ll be a piece of grubcake.
You open your chat with Feferi and linger over that unblock button for a moment. You take a deep, reassuring breath and click.
-- caligulasAquarium [CA] unblocked cuttlefishCuller [CC] --
-- caligulasAquarium [CA] began trolling cuttlefishCuller [CC] --
You freeze. You don’t want to come off too sorry, nor too confident. You’re gonna have to use your wit to start this off well.
CA: glub
Wonderful, Eridan. Knowing Feferi, that’ll be the perfect way to grab her attention…or at least, when she notices your message. Jeez, has it been five minutes already? Time sure does fly. In the meantime, you suppose you’ll respond to this new message that just came in.
-- apocalypseArisen [AA] began trolling caligulasAquarium [CA] --
AA: i heard y0u need a cl0uder
CA: yeah wwhat of it
AA: well im 0ffering 0f c0urse!
AA: y0u think y0u can play flarp with0ut me
AA: im pretty much what kept my last campaign g0ing
CA: not interested
CA: look i dont knoww if you knoww this its been a wwhile since vvris and i got to go up against each other and by noww it seems to be a bit of a rare occurrence i got on my nubs so im only lookin for the best a the best
CA: if she knowws im botherin to hire lowwblood scum because no one else wwanted to take the role shell knoww i got desperate
AA: this is why i want t0 ask as much as y0u want me t0
AA: but...
AA: as an experienced cl0uder i might be y0ur best bet
AA: c0me 0n eridan remember h0w it all went the first time we played
CA: oh god dont remind me
CA: i wwas so fuckin bad i dont wwanna havve to think about wwhat a failure i wwas back then
AA: if thats h0w y0u feel then i supp0se y0u rec0gnize h0w much y0uve impr0ved!
AA: y0u never w0uld have ended up here if it werent f0r me
CA: ugh
CA: howw did you evven find out about the campaign
AA: a little chirpbeast came al0ng and gave me all the details
CA: awwfully vvague but alright
AA: i have a feeling 0ne 0f these days s0mething imp0rtant will happen
AA: think ab0ut it
AA: what if this is the last 0ne y0u ever get
AA: id l0ve t0 see h0w that plays 0ut fr0m afar but itd be even m0re enticing t0 have a fr0nt r0w seat in it
CA: uh
AA: 0r i c0uld be a player 0n y0ur team!
CA: somethin just came up ill get back to you later
AA: well keep in t0uch
-- caligulasAquarium [CA] ceased trolling apocalypseArisen [AA] --
What a freak, even for a rustblood. She did seem awfully eager but she would be the last person you’d pick as your Clouder, at least for this particular campaign. You sink into the cushioning of your chair, staring at the teal ceiling of your hive. You’re quite happy here—as happy as you can be—though Feferi tends to complain about your separation from the sea. She claims it’s “ironic” and sometimes even a little “fishy” considering you’re a sea-dweller bent on eliminating all land-dwellers. Even thinking about her puns makes you shudder.
The waves still do speak to you in some way, they always have. They splash against the shorelines constantly, swift reminders of something you left behind. But they’re loud and crashing. A thunderous roar in the sky is more you. Formless, sharp, quick and unpredictable. Unlike the sea, obnoxious and repetitive and constant. Thunder strikes and sticks in your webby sponge clots; the sea leaves its whispers like a hissing serpent, continuously. Long story short, it’s not pleasant and Feferi is too happy-go-lucky to see that. You can swim, sure, you were made to do that, but you just can’t put your point stump on why it’s so difficult to.
CC: Glub 38(
Oh, wow, took her long enough. It seems your greeting wasn’t as effective as you had anticipated. A couple more times ought to do the trick.
CA: glub glub
CC: SIIIG)()()()(
CA: glub
CC: -Erifin, I don’t feel like glubbing wit)( you rig)(t now!
CC: You reelly )(urt me and now you’re trying to pretend it didn’t )(appen by distracting me wit)( glubs!!!
CA: FUCK i knoww
CA: you didnt evven say anythin wwrong to me i just got kinda irritated i guess
CA: i promise ill uh
CA: be better
CA: better than a bad person normally is
CA: and that means a lot comin from me i swwear it on my aquatic vvascular system
CC: I don’t doubt t)(e sincerity of t)(ese kinds of promises, -Eridan, but you say t)(is ALL T)(-E TIM----E!!!!!
CC: T)(en you end up getting mad and blocking me not even a couple )(ours later!
CC: W)(at kind of moirail am I going to be if I am not even allowed to ask about your feelings????
CA: ok fef i get wwhy youd be mad but i mean it this time
CA: things like this take a lot of wwork for me to say im completely honest evvery time
CA: look im gettin rid a my accent just so that we can talk about this without the moronic distractions
CC: 38(
CA: i dont wanna fuck this up fef if i didnt care then i wouldnt say this all the time
CA: thats a lotta energy bein drained when someone does that same thing over and over again in a attempt to make things right
CC: ALL YOU JUST DID WAS D-ESCRIB-E R-EDUNDANCY!!!!
CA: oh COME ON
CC: I don’t know )(ow to stop you from blocking me again. It is so frustrating because I reelly am trying my best.
CA: im tryin my best too fef
CA: ill make it up to you alright
CC: Are you s)(ore?
CA: yes
CA: im shore
CC: 38)
You’re just that impressive. With the easy part down, all you have to do next is find a way to steer this pale moment of forgiveness in the right direction. And that direction happens to involve FLARP.
CA: ok so noww that wwe got that out a the wway and evverythins good and wwell
CA: i mean wwhale
CC: )(-E)(-E)(-E!
CA: i need to ask you for a favvor
CC: 38o
CA: yes stare in complete and utter awwe at these letters wwith those wwide glubbin bulbs
CA: vvris and i are goin to start this pre planned campaign
CA: an as you knoww shes a bit of a competition
CC: You want me to play wit)( you??
CA: wwell no
CC: Am I allowed to play in t)(e clampaign at ALL?
CA: no fef im gettin to that
CA: im requirin a trusted and experienced clouder
CA: it appears that no one has agreed yet
CA: so im hopin youd havve it in your soul to take that place for me
CC: Again?
CA: yes again
CC: Well...t)(e t)(ing is...
CC: I don’t like being a Clouder very muc)(!
CC: -ESP-ES)(-ELLY AFT-ER LAST TIM-E.
CA: last time is behind us noww didnt my apoloy just a couple seconds ago mean somethin to you
CC: Of course it means somefin! But I can’t understand )(ow you t)(ink trout -EV-ERYFIN t)(at )(apprawned last time it would be )(ealt)(y to retry.
CC: I’m not against a clampaign, but I’d prefer to be a player!
CA: ill think on it
CA: i still need a clouder though
CC: I’m s)(ore I can ask around mys)(ellf for a bit. 38D
CA: no fef this is my job
CA: i knoww vvris better than anyone else its up to me to prepare a good team wwith a good clouder
CC: Just tell me w)(at you are looking for in a Clouder, I’ll get it done for you!
CA: wwell
CA: i need you to check wwith me after you find one instead a lettin vvris knoww
CA: my approvval means all im the leader here alright
CC: Great!
CA: for starters no lowwbloods
CA: someone wwith experience and knowwledge
CC: )(ave you asked Gamzee yet?
CA: im not done my list
CA: wwe dont wwant em to be too biased but still biased enough to givve her a challenge she might not be expectin
CA: like ter wwill be for me you knoww their team already
CA: she wwont be against that anywway the girl likes a challenge
CA: and also not gam
CA: i havve my reasons
CC: R-E-ELLY trying to impress )(er wit)( t)(is, )(u)(, -Erifin? 38O
CC: S)(e must be pretty lucky to )(ave suc)( a gentleman for a kismesis!
It’s comments like these that fill you with a mix of both hope and disappointment, strangely. Hope that this proves your romance is reddening more, but disappointment that Feferi may not be brave enough to compliment you directly. As a self-proclaimed romance connoisseur yourself, this is a clear indication of a nervous crush. Probably. Nonetheless, you expertly dodge the subject, a perfect move to get a girl to go after you.
CA: hm
CA: wwwwell anywway i need to take care of some crap get back to me wwhen youvve got that clouder or wwhatevver
CC: Sea you, –--Erifis)(!
-- cuttlefishCuller [CC] ceased trolling caligulasAquarium [CA] --
You let out a frustrated yet dreamy sigh. Your campaigns with Vriska are nothing short of adventurous, and the more you think about this one, the more anxious you grow. Only a day left, you promised her. Hopefully that won’t come to bite you in the ass.
You shut your husktop, groan and rest your head on the table. The fear of screwing this up is overwhelming and you want to take advantage of all the moments of privacy you can. Your vascular system collapses and expands rapidly, nerves darting everywhere, like marchbugs under your dry skin. Your lusus is outside, fortunately enough. If he saw you struggling he would grow clingy again. Skyhorses are surprisingly more aware of their trolls’ feelings than other lusii. It’s upsetting that you, of all trolls, had to end up with such a lusus. God, is he annoying.
Feferi often tells you that the reef excites her when she's frustrated with other trolls. You always tell her it’s stupid though you tried to force yourself to follow her advice some time in the past. Eventually, you gave up. Maybe now would be a good time to try again?
Exiting your hive, you slowly bring yourself to the shoreline at the back. Your clothes certainly aren’t made for swimming, but you don’t have the energy to change into one of your other outfits. The feeling of the waves makes you uneasy. If you thought merely pondering the sea was bad, this is definitely worse. You hesitantly reach for the clip of your cape, not breaking your gaze, as though it is a wild beast needing to be tamed. You inhale deeply, the water’s salty aroma of the water filling your nostrils, and unclip your cape, abandoning your scarf in the process. Some sweeps ago, you were able to dive in as eagerly as Feferi can. Now look at you, you’re a mess, carefully inching toward the sea like a fucking crab.
You make your way into the water, lukewarm only below the surface, as though there’s some sort of cool crust. The waves push you back toward the shore and you shudder. You’re handling this pretty well for someone who hasn’t swam for over a sweep. You’re still uncomfortable as hell but, hey, it’s a start, maybe.
It only gets worse as you dip your head in. So much for shaping your hair this morning. The reef isn’t too far from your hive so you ended up with lighter horns than some other violetbloods, a natural adaptation to help you blend in with your environment. It’s strange that your fins feel so awkward here too. Some sea-dweller you are, Eridan. Your frown deepens.
You glide forward, where you presume the nearest reef is. Swimming feels slightly more comfortable than treading does, and with the ways in which your kind has evolved, you can swiftly move onward, and even downward. Threads of daylight disappear the further you travel. You’ll admit, this lack of light is beginning to make you hungry. You haven’t eaten enough today, no different than the other bilunar perigees in the dark seasons. Perhaps you could find the time to grab a snack while you’re here?
An influx of pastel colors startles you from your wandering thoughts. The coral reef is straight ahead. It’s certainly large and spacious but most of the fish dart away at the sight of you. Of course, trolls are at the top of the subsistence hierarchy, so you had fully expected the reaction. The smaller fish won’t sustain you though. It seems to be time for a little hunting.
You won’t deny that you’re curious about the state of your skills in this field. You have never been the greatest hunter in aquatic environments—at least not without a weapon—and always tend to avoid it as a whole. That being the case, you should've left your glasses on land, they keep floating away from you. You’re lucky to have that chain, not that it’ll do much more than choke you while you’re here.
You cautiously creep toward a small hole in the coral and peer into it. A large fish stares back at you, unmoving, quite the easy catch. It dodges your reach. You thrash your hand around aimlessly, hoping to catch it by surprise, only for your glasses to float off your face. Instinctively, you reach for them with your other hand, losing your focus for half a second.
“Fuck!”
It slipped away.
So much for this chain, huh? Couldn’t even succeed at the one job it had. And from the looks of it, neither could you, as your hunger clearly has not yet been satisfied. Deciding this is dumb and pointless, you hastily swim back to the surface and toward your hive, not bothering to take in the beauty of the area, now faint as could be. This venture made you a little less nervous for the time it had lasted, but you only returned more disappointed than when you’d left. The hope has only exhausted you more. Shocker.
Well, now your clothes are soaking, with no good cause for it either. Did you get something in your eyes, why is your vision so blurry?
Shit. Your glasses. They must have left you while you were coming back. Why are you even surprised at this point? Disappointment deepens into pure disgust as a scowl claims its place on your visage. You’re cold and wet. You didn’t expect things could get more miserable than they already were. Picking up your scarf and cape, you wrap them back around you for warmth and head into your hive, shivering.
On the bright side, your skin is nicer now. The difference is extremely noticeable since it’s been so long, but the good doesn't outweigh the bad.
-- arachnidsGrip [AG] began trolling caligulasAquarium [CA] --
AG: Hey, dualdum8ass.
CA: wwjat
CA: wwhat
AG: How’s it looking with the camp8ign, huh? ::::)
AG: Got your things together yet? Primed those skills? Got your irons in the fire? 8ecause my irons have 8een scorching for an un8elieva8le amount of time. 8y now they’ve made it to the 8ack 8urner 8ecause you’ve taken so long to upd8 me on this. Yaaaaaaaawn.
CA: huh
CA: im not gonna tell you wwho my teams cliuder is wwho the fuck do you take me for
AG: A complete and utter tool, that’s who!!!!!!!!
AG: You’ve only got a limited amount of time, Orphaner. 8etter prepare yourself for this session. I heard it’s fit for one of us. I need to know how much cele8r8tion it’ll 8e worth once I kick your ass.
CA: ill havve you knoww ivve thought wwell and thoroughly about this already
CA: i havve it all in the bag perfectly prepped
CA: if you thought it wwas a challenge before youll rethink evvetythin noww
AG: Challenge???????? Hahahahahahahaha, you’ve got to 8e kidding me!!!!!!!!
AG: That’s definitely unexpected.When was the last time you 8ested me in this?
CA: those wwere practice rountds they dont ckount
AG: Hahahahahahahaha, you’re culling me here!!!!!!!!
AG: What the fuck is up with your spelling???????? I’d think for such a royal freak you’d take a little more care talking to me. God, you’re even more of a toll than I initially thought.
AG: Keep stalling, Dualscar. May8e one day you’ll get 8etter at it. :::;)
-- arachnidsGrip [AG] ceased trolling caligulasAquarium [CA] --
That certainly could've gone better. She saw straight through your act. Not only that, you also made yourself look like a complete and utter tool with what ever the fuck is up with your spelling. You can still get yourself out of this hole, Eridan. There’s still hope. Feferi’s finding a Clouder. Just hope she doesn’t pick that good for nothing pissblood or you’ll have more to worry about than your performance during the campaign.
Oh no, the pissblood. Your patience dissipates at the thought. You send a message to Feferi.
-- caligulasAquarium [CA] began trolling cuttlefishCuller [CC] --
CA: havve you got that clouder picked out i havvent got all day remember
CC: Relax, fussyfins! )(e’s still deciding w)(et)(er or not )(e s)(ould take t)(e role. You know )(ow indecisive )(e can be.
“)(e”? You suppose that nails it down to a few trolls, at least one that you know of. You’re lucky Feferi didn’t go on a search for a troll you don’t know, it’s one of the many reasons you were hesitant. She knows a lot more people than you, likely because she tends to be good at leaving first impressions.
CA: wwho is it
CC: I said WAIT!!! I asked around and a couple people agreed, t)(oug)( I can’t decide w)(ic)( one would be beta. >38/
CA: that choice is suppused to be mine fef noww tell me wwho they are you promised me
CC: YOU AR-E B-EING V-----ERY PUS)(Y RIG)(T NOW, YOU KNOW T)(AT!!!!
CC: 38P
CA: FUCK sorry
CC: God, you can’t even let me do t)(is one t)(ing on my own, can you?
CC: Do you fis)(trust me t)(at muc)(?
CA: wwhat
CA: no
CA: of course not
CA: i wwouldnt trust you to make good fish puns though that one sucked
CC: Anenomeway, if you insist, Sollux is considering! But Aradia some)(ow managed to find out as w)(ale and offered.
CC: It was very kind of )(er to do t)(at, but it gave me a W-EIRD F-E-ELING??
CA: she trolled me too abiut it
CA: good thing you told her off caose the blood thing still matters
You pause but she doesn't respond. Then it hits you.
CA: wwait
CA: the blood thing still matters wwhy the FUCK did you ask the pissblood
CA: its like you completely ignored wwhat i told you
CC: )(ON-ESTLY, I know you )(ad good intentions w)(en you said t)(at to me, but I reelly don’t believe Vriska is too concerned about blood.
CC: Just because someone )(appens to be lower on the caste doesn’t mean your entire clampaign will FALL APART!!!!
CA: you dont fuckin knoww that
CA: wwhos the one vvrises pitch for huh are you implyin i dont knoww nothin about my kismesis
CC: T)(AT’S NOT W)(AT I’M SAYING IN T)(-E SLIG)(T-EST!!! It is just t)(at forcing your own beliefs into somet)(ing so simple makes you appear stuck-up, w)(ic)( is D-EFINIT-ELY not a trait s)(e will like!!
CA: pshh
CA: its not just my personal beliefs fef its the wwhole purpose of the hemospectrum
CC: W)(AL-E YOU SIL-ENC-E YOUR IGNORANCE S)(AFT AND STOP T)(INKING W-E AR-E B-ETA T)(AN -EV-ERYBODY FOR ON-E MOMENT???
You’ve upset her now, nice going.
CA: ok fine ill put the blood stuff in the back a my thinkpan or wwhatevver but that still doesnt make him a good choice
CC: You )(ave no reason to say t)(at.
CA: yes i do
CA: he is ovver dramatic and attention seekin and hes just tryin to find a wway to sabotage my stuff wwith vvris
CA: hes got you twwisted around his nub fef you needa stop complainin about me and start wwakin up to realize hes playin you like a stringed wwooden instrument
CC: I’m realizing t)(at you )(ave been a real blow)(ole to me lately.
CC: I don’t want to )(ave it come to anenomet)(ing drastic, -Erifin, but t)(is is becoming more emotionally taxing t)(e longer it goes on for, you know t)(is already!!!
CA: wwait
CA: wwhat
CA: no im sorry i didnt mean it like tjat its just hard to explain wwhat im thinkin
CA: dont do anythin youll regret fef please
CC: It is almost like you are TRYING to make me end t)(is!!
-- caligulasAquarium [CA] blocked cuttlefishCuller [CC] --
Some things never change.
You cover your face in your hands, a tug itching at the corners of your mouth. You take in a sharp breath. Too soon, Eridan. That was too soon.
You’ll solve this. You always do. You hover over the unblock button, a fierce tremble to your hands, but you don’t click. Instead you grip tufts of your damp hair. You don’t care enough to figure out what emotion this is. You fucked up and you feel like an asshole again. All because of some fucking goldblood.
Feferi has been so obsessed with him lately. If she’s involved, he needs to be involved as well. He may be something keeping your relationship from flourishing. That and the way you deal with conflict. She cares about him more than she cares about your relationship, doesn’t she? She values him. He’s what makes her happy, not you. He doesn’t deserve that.
You can’t bring yourself to talk to Feferi at the moment. You can’t apologize or make another promise you might not keep. You can’t go see her or try again to convince her to be your Clouder. You’re not sorry, you haven’t gotten to that point yet. You let out a frustrated sigh and twist your rings around your fingers. You close the chat's window. This day has been awful.
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