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From: [email protected]
Subject: If you could change my name, would you change it to yours?
Yoongi,
I will never forget how you mistook me as our professor back in college. How dare you? I don't know if I look that young or that old? But right at that moment, when I saw how you got flustered and not talking to me even if we were seatmates, made me realize that I wanna make you get shy and falter for the rest of our life.
I wanna be by your side forever and just watch how your pale skin colors in blooms of pink and red when you caught me staring at you.
People say your eye color at first glance is black. But I think when the light hits them it turns brown. And if I really look closely at it, around the iris, the color is pure amber. But when you look at the sun, they almost look blue, and that's my favorite.
You are easy to like, Yoongi. Others may say they can't step near you because they're intimidated but no, you are the kindest, the most beautiful, the most lovely, chaotic, loud and quiet, graceful in one body. And that is so easy to be near you because you are you.
And I loved you that fast,
Seokjin
💌💌💌
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Re: If you could change my name, would you change it to yours?
Agust D,
I heard your song on my way to the train today. You are the brightest star when you're doing your music, Yoongi. I still have the recording of Taehyung asking you to play piano for him when he is having his audition at school music club and he's playing his trumpet.
You're so graceful and clean. Your fingers fit so much on every white and black key of the piano and later that night, it fits in my hands. It's rough on my likings but you are gentle on holding me.
And when you played your own composed music the night when you said "I love you." the first time and ask me for a silly slow dance, I can't grasp how beautiful your mind is, how marvelous your music, and how genius you are on those sweet and mellow melodies. You lull me and make me fall more in love with you.
You are in every beat of my heart, Yoongi. Your voice is my favorite note and your life is a whole song I want to listen to or even sing it for you and with you.
Thank you for producing the music we hear, Yoongi. You don't know how many people were saved because of your lyrics and the poetry. You gave us your song and you let it be our life story, our dialogue, and our honesty when we can't find the right words.
You speak for us through your music and I am so lucky to have always heard it the first time. And you are the happiest when you make music and when joy radiates from you, it directly goes in me and now we are both happy.
And I am so proud of you for every success you achieve and know that I will always be your first and last fan in this world. I love you, my little rockstar! ♡
Write me a love song,
Seokjin
💌💌💌
From: [email protected]
Re: If you could change my name, would you change it to yours?
My love,
You once asked me if I believed in soulmates. I didn't answer right away and just stared at your bare face, your expecting eyes, and your glowing smile. You asked me again but I still don't give you my response.
Because I'm so afraid that when I answer it, my voice may come out shaky, because when I think of soulmates – your name is next through it.
You are my soulmate, Yoongi.
There is a push from the universe the moment you first talk to me and how I can't. You are the one that the world made for me, Yoongi. And I was made to wait for the exact moment for you. My waiting has the purpose of meeting you.
My red string.
The other half of me.
You were the one who completes me and I'm so afraid that if I said that, you would be weirded out. But when you smiled at me, your gummy smile, and in a shy glance, said, "I think you're my soulmate."
And everything my head told me of doubts and fears vanished and kissed you that moment.
I feel like I know you already when I don't even have a glace to your face. I feel like I knew you for a long time even if I don't know your name. And I feel like in every universe, you and I are bound to meet.
So, Yoongi, wherever you are, whoever you are with, and whatever you are doing. Please, just wait for me. Because soulmates are bound to meet and I promise to be patient in every universe I am with if I am able to meet you and be happily and completely whole with you.
Unconditionally yours,
Seokjin
💌💌💌
From: [email protected]
Re: If you could change my name, would you change it to yours?
Yoongi,
I miss you.
Even thinking about it, I am missing you more.
I missed your kiss on my lips, on my cheeks, on my shoulders, and hips. I missed your touched in my hands, in my waist, and in my face. I missed your voice that so so deep and so so sweet. I missed your smile on my silly jokes. I missed your laugh when the stupid protagonist on our movie night made dumb decisions.
Yoongi, I missed you so much. :( I missed your quiet days and loud nights. I missed your nose – I wanna boop it all the time. I missed your thin lips that can be perfectly slotted on mine. I missed your large hands that can easily hold me day and night, so so so sturdy and so so steady.
I missed the beat of your heart. I missed your calm breathing in my chaotic mind. I missed everything about you, Yoongi. :(
How can I miss you so much when I can still feel your lips on mine? How can I miss your touch when I can still feel your warm embrace? How can I miss you when your voice is tattooed on my head? How can I miss you when your heartbeats are like mine?
How can I miss you when you are always running on my mind? Maybe, that's why I am missing you, because you are always on my mind. Damn it. If you could see my thoughts, you would see your face, Yoongi.
How can I miss you this much, Yoongi? :( I missed you so much that my heart hurts. I love you. I love you so much.
Please, missed me too,
Seokjin
💌💌💌
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Re: If you could change my name, would you change it to yours?
Yoongles,
I saw a cat on my way to lunch. It was a gray one with brown eyes. I wanna adopt him and take him home but the apartment is not permitting it. Good thing and thank god, I have a human cat in you.
Did you know you look so adorable in your pouty lips in the morning while scratching your soft tummy? I wanna extend our mornings like that everyday just to hear you purr when you snuggle to me closer. Your body heat takes away the coldness in the morning breeze. And I always miss you when we separate to face our daily lives.
You know, I never got scared when you easily fit inside my house. It feels natural having another body on the silent hush in my living room, in the kitchen, and even in the bedroom. It always makes my heart mushy when I can see two mugs in the sink, 2 pairs of utensils and house slippers, and your coffee maker that I need to unplug every time.
You were destined to be in my house, Yoongi. And I'm so glad it became our home when you finally moved in.
I expect more good mornings with you, I always wanna go home knowing you are there waiting in warm hugs and millions of kitten kisses, and I am content just to be near you.
You are my home,
Seokjin
💌💌💌
From: [email protected]
Re: If you could change my name, would you change it to yours?
Yoongi-yah,
I'm so sad right now.
My boss raised his voice to me when it's not even my fault. I wanna quit my job and just be your house husband – make you breakfast, clean the house, read recipe books, and just wait for you everyday. I know you will be okay with it but I love my job too.
Designing games is therapeutic and I love how you praise me and indulge me when I get a client for my ideas. I love seeing how proud you are to me and I am planning to see that spark and fondness in you for as long as I can.
So I will be okay, after all this day, I can hear your soothing voice that will lull me to sleep and your touch that will heal every ache that I have.
I can't wait to go home to you,
Your Seokjinnie
💌💌💌
From: [email protected]
Re: If you could change my name, would you change it to yours?
Yoongs,
I am looking now at our wedding band.
I remember the look in your eyes when I said "yes" and it is already engraved in my core memory. How your hand shakes when you put it on me and how you kiss them like sealing them with your utmost love. Thank you for being brave and asking me to marry you, Yoongi-yah. And know that you were my one and only choice of marrying.
I always knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you, it was the first time when I said "I love you." and you cried and even let me repeat it. It was sooo long when I said it back to you. And thank you for being patient with me and waiting for me. You are my best decision, Yoongi.
It's not that I don't love you for 2 years of dating before saying it but I believe saying it lessens its sincerity. I wanna have my words to its full effect and I don't wanna lose their meaning because you are waaay more than that. I'm sorry for every time you said you love me, I return it with a kiss.
You are more than I love you, Yoongi. You are more than I miss you. You are more than the kiss we share. You are more than I wanna spend my life with you. You are more than every word I can say to you.
You were the every reason why love exists to me, Yoongi. No words and actions can convey my deepest adoration for you.
You are my devotion, Yoongi.
My love for you is like bodies of water, it is formless and shapeless but so so so peaceful and steady and strong. So, thank you for choosing to be with me for the rest of your life too.
You are my love language,
Seokjin
📨📨📨
From: [email protected]
Re: If you could change my name, would you change it to yours?
What the heck, hyung?! I thought something happen
Bcos my emails blown up
Ok i love you too☹️
Can u go home now🥺
I miss you
Pls come home
I'm waiting
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