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❝What could you find on the bookshelves of a forbidden library? What secrets lie on the manuscripts that were supposed to never once see the light of day? Were you in the position to break that rule —keep out—, would you?❞
You could not blame Mafuyu for the places its mind wandered to when left idle , as someone whose most memories got taken from them and the people around them reminded them of that fact every waking moment it was not difficult to understand the agonizing curiosity that void was always under , it knew that there was a reason for the amnesiac barriers that were put between it and the memories , but still there was that gnawing temptation that compelled it to look for answers even though countless times Asa had advised void not to . That was one such day when the temptation of curiosity was far stronger , the gnawing bites at it far more difficult to ignore , unbearable … It made Mafuyu restless , and yet void would still try its best to keep voidself in check , no good results could be awaited from an internal effort of discovery , not at that time .
Staring out the window on the train that took void back from Osaka to Tokyo did little to take its mind away from that uncomfortable sensation , that restlessness , ever since the accident it had never been that strong , but it would power through , it had to . Waking around the train it saw everything there was to see , once , twice , even three times , back to its cabin it was , that had been … a completely useless endeavour , back to looking out the window , slightly delirious , it was so quiet with only void in the fronting room at that moment , were it not alone the next events could probably be avoided , if only Asa or Hina had been there with Mafuyu . The nature panorama turned to city scape , they had finally gotten to Tokyo .
“Mrrp?” A tiny sound made by Niccori checking on void , nudging the lead towards it as they should start getting ready since the train would soon reach the station .
It pat his head once , putting the lead on and smiling slightly , it didn't take long until they had to get out of the train , somehow that trip had been excruciatingly long and gone by alarmingly fast at the same time , Mafuyu couldn't understand how could that be , that was contradictory and yet both felt true … Dizziness , so light headed , at a moment's notice nothing felt real , the mere state of ‘reality’ feeling more like a suggestion that the brain on that body couldn't begin to comprehend . Niccori tried to take it to a place in the station that could be more quiet , where maybe Mafuyu could calm down , but not that wasn't the time , it definitely was the time and void should have followed his lead , but in its haze it had to it NEEDED to get home , there void would be safe to recuperate however it needed to , that all would be okay … All would be okay .
And so they took a taxi to the apartment , time stretched thin and ran like molasses while at the same time going as fast as pouring rain , how could that be ? Mafuyu didn't know , but it would soon get worse when it seemed time stopped … The first memory to appear was the day its mother blamed void for getting lost in the amusement park … The times she tried to throw away voids beloved synthesizer came next … Telling it couldn't go to nursing school and it had to be a doctor , then that it should stop making music … All of the manipulation and the surveillance … The crashing sound of the glass bowl falling on the ground the day it was disowned coincided with the driver telling void it had reached its destination .
Void couldn't feel its feet as it stepped out of the taxi with Niccori , it trembled as it walked towards the apartment door , turning the key felt painfully slow but it was now back inside , at the safety of its own home , where nothing could hurt it , nothing except itself … Mafuyu's head pounded , an excruciating pain that felt as if it was being used as a drum from the inside … Inside … Why couldn't it have listened to Asa’s warning , it wished now that all of that would have been kept from void forever , but it did , it listened , it kept itself from going after that , why did that still happen , why did everything spill out ? … Brains , the human mind , aren't perfect , Mafuyu had , unfortunately , been a victim of that .
Loud , so loud , and so painful , ‘I don't want this anymore, I want to go back, I want to go back to the restless silence, I don't want to BE HERE ANYMORE’ it screamed all alone in the fronting room hands on voids ears , the body trembling , standing still in the middle of the living room . One step forward , and then another , until it was in the kitchen , slowly a drawer was opened , inside a sharp knife , carefully picked up by the void with a strong grip . Emu listened to the quiet rummaging on the kitchen and decided to go out to check what was happening , she was , however , only in time to see the sharp silver blade of the knife stabbing Mafuyu the first time and she only was able to mover her body to try to stop it after the third one , when it was already too late … By the fourth one the lifeless body fell to the floor , the surface being slowly bathed in scarlet from the blood that flowed seemingly with no end . And suddenly everything was quiet .