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It has been almost three weeks since Kanan and Ezra left. They were sent on a top secret mission by Senator Mon Mothma herself. It has been very quiet on the Ghost, except for the occasional squabble between Zeb and Chopper. Usually I like quiet, but Ezra promised me before he left that he would contact me, and I have yet to hear from him. I’m not gonna lie, I miss him.
We became pretty close after Kanan lost his sight and cut himself off from all of us. We both finally had something in common: we missed our “dad.” We spent a lot of nights just crying together, talking about our favorite memories or missions. Things were going great for the two of us. Then I had to face my family and help my people on Mandalore, and now he is on a secret mission for who knows how much longer.
A faint beeping breaks me out of my thoughts. Where the heck is that noise coming from? I see a holoprojector on my nightstand with a little red, blinking light. How did this get in here? After a little examination, I realize that it’s Ezra’s. I decide to answer it, knowing full well it may not be him and could be a trick, but I don’t care. What if it is him?
“Hi, Sabine.”
“Hi,” my face lights up seeing his.
“Boy am I glad to hear your voice. I’ve missed you so much.”
Wait. He misses me? “I’ve missed you too. How is the mission going? Have you seen or found anything exciting?”
“I can’t divulge any information over comms because of the secrecy of the mission, but yes, we have. I’ll tell you all about it when I come home.”
“Do you know when that will be?”
“Soon. We’re in the final stages of the mission. I hear that…”
Soon? Final stages? That means he’s really coming home. That means we can finally spend time together again, but wait. Would he want that? What if he spent all those months with me just because he was lonely? What if I’m the only one who feels something for him? Am I the only one? Does he still like me? He used to but I used to think that was only a childhood crush. Maybe I was right. Maybe he doesn’t care about…
“Sabine? Did you hear what I said?”
“Huh?” No I didn’t. I can’t get my thoughts to settle. Everything is out of control.
“I’ll just tell you when I get back. And hey! I got a surprise for you.”
A surprise? For me?
“I’ll see you soon. Okay?”
“Yeah… um Ezra, can I tell you something?”
“Of course. Anything.”
I pause a moment before I speak again, not sure if I should say it. “Ni kar'tayl gar darasuum.”
“What?”
“I have to go Ezra. Talk soon.”
I can’t help but feel that I just made a huge mistake. What if I’m wrong?