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The Long Way Home

Summary:

When he can finally get a good look at them, Kim Dokja realizes that it’s two teenagers that assaulted him, a boy and a girl. The boy, his short brown hair tucked mostly under his cap, is in tears. It makes Dokja’s heart twist up and clog his throat painfully so he turns to the girl. She too, however, is near tears, clinging onto his hospital gown with trembling hands.

They’re both so much larger than he expected them to be which fills him with both regret and bewilderment. Why would he expect anything of these children?

He doesn’t know who they are, after all.


Or: Kim Dokja wakes up, despite it all, except his memories have not returned with him. In navigating the relationships he has with his companions, he begins piecing together the enigma known as Kim Dokja. Once he is whole once more, then his companions will have the peaceful ending they deserve. Thus Kim Dokja must decide how much he is willing to sacrifice to regain himself. The subway tracks are loud, but Kim Dokja is determined to rise above them for the sake of those he loves.

Notes:

Hello everyone, this has been a fic about a year in the making, the inklings of which have been floating around since I first finished the novel. It's been a lot of work and editing to get to this point as I keep wanting to have a better story, but more than anything I want to release this out into the world. I want to give a HUGE thank you to the lovely friends of mine who beta-read this and sat through my screaming, lacer and loki and ruka y'all are the best <3

This fic is me doing my best to shove all my emotions about the characters I fell in love with into one consolidated work while also navigating how I think things could go post-epilogue. To anyone who happens to read it, I hope you enjoy.

I've taken a lot of inspiration from amazing fanworks and meta I've come across, but a special shoutout to these 2 fics:

 

unwind the world, is your nightmare gone? by Scribblurri

 

Some kind of Heaven by Lacertae

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Chapter 1: Prologue

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He's always hated reaching the end of a book. It’s like watching the world crumble away before his eyes. The flowers arranged so lovingly in the vase wilting as they meet their inevitable demise. 

 

Someone had once told him that he should reread the story to learn something new. That the story would change once he read it again. He would see a new perspective, understand the characters better. Enjoy the story in another way. 

 

But what does he do when the story is without an ending? 

 

It had been a novel liked by no one else. Found on a whim, he had followed that novel for years. And yet as he could sense the story nearing its natural conclusion, the narrative drawing to a close, character arcs playing out their final beats, everything lending itself to a beautiful and perfect ending- it stopped just as quickly as it had begun. 

 

In some ways, it was a worse ending than anything else. No resolution, no happily ever after, just some vague lines about how the future is in the readers’ hands. It’s a cop out, obviously. However, he reads over that ending chapter over and over, despite its flaws. What happened to the protagonist? Did his companions ever manage to get their feelings across that unreachable gap? Was anyone truly saved? Was it a victory that had meaning? 

 

He would like to think so. Comments are disabled for the final chapter, so he can’t give the author his thoughts directly. The longer he ponders it, the more sure he becomes. These characters- these people - will be happy. They must be happy. He may not be able to read about it, but it must be so. 

 

If only the author hadn’t been so stingy with their words, he thinks. He would have loved to see a proper conclusion. 

 

More than anything else…yeah, more than anything. 

 

He closes his eyes, the last thing in his sights the final page of that novel, taunting him ever so lovingly. 

 

Maybe he’ll dream of it. 

 

His epilogue.