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Everybody knows. They can see it all over your face. You smile when your with friends or having your picture taken. You make it look like your keeping yourself busy.
Promoting one thing or another. You post on social media hoping to keep up the facade that nothing is wrong. But something is wrong. Your heart broken. Someone once told you that your eyes never lie. Everybody knows. Everybody can tell in your fake smile just how heavy your heart feels.
Why did this have to happen? Why a seperation of us you tell yourself? So you go about your day as usual. Pretend your not missing half your heart. Hoping that your soul mate feels your pain and that she is expirencing the same loss you are.
You promise to talk and text, and face time each other. To tell each other that this is only for a short time. You promise to share your feeling with each other and to be honest with your feeling. You promise each other to fight for your relationship and to keep the love alive.
When your in from of the cameras you smile is a 1000 watt smile. You are happy to be home, to be near friends and family. To be near the beach where you can surf and lay in the warm sand.
You have friends joining the team and you will finally be like your own soccer family.
But there is something missing. Your one true love. The person that encouraged you to be you. To stay strong knowing the world only saw you as number 2, a back up for someone who has reached her prime but won't quit. You traveled the world for her yet you make the choice to come home without her. You knew months ago you were going to be separated. You both thought you were prepared to be apart. You were wrong. Its like your heart is dying but you fake a smile to cover it up.