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When Elijah was executed, Caleb didn’t know how to feel. Their last conversation together more or less broke his heart. Elijah had tried to convince him that he had never loved Caleb in the first place. He very quickly realized how much of a lie that was, and the conversation changed to how Caleb should move on.
For a while Elijah was all the city talked about. He was everywhere, on TV, the internet, magazines and newspapers. After a week they forgot about him and moved on to the next big thing. Caleb hadn’t moved on. He wasn’t sure if he could.
The world had never seemed bright in Caleb’s eyes, but now it was like all color was gone. The morning after Elijah’s execution Caleb’s mom had come to visit and help clean his apartment, she had noticed Caleb looking more sad then usual, but he played it off like he had just had a bad morning.
When he would go out to smoke a cigarette on the balcony, he longed to hear a certain someone call him by his stupid nickname, and sometimes he thought he actually heard it, but there wasn’t anyone there.
Eventually Caleb decided staying in the apartment waiting for something that wasn’t going to happen was too painful.
The elevator didn’t lead to the rooftop of the apartment building so he had to take the stairs. It was painful on his legs, but he ignored it. The door to the rooftop was unlocked and he let himself out into the chill night outside.
As he walked over to the edge of the building he looked over the city he had grown to hate more over the course of his life. The bright lights of the billboards were blinding his eye, and he thought back to his last conversation with Elijah.
Elijah had told him to forget everything about him, that Caleb should be selfish and find his own happiness out in the world. That there was someone else out there who deserved him more than Elijah did.
Caleb didn’t think he could ever forget Elijah, and the love he felt for him. He also didn’t think he could find someone else out there he would want as much as he wanted Elijah.
He looked over the edge of the building. The building had 5 floors and the ground was nothing but asphalt.
Caleb had always been somewhat of an asshole his whole life, he knew that. After the accident, if it hadn’t been for Elijah, he would have felt like a complete waste of space. Elijah had told him to be selfish so that was what he was going to be.