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Ever since I was little I have always been immune to the cold. Not just because I'm a figure skater, but also because i live in St.Petersburg, Russia. It was almost never warm here in Russia.
I sat up in my bed and ripped my covers off. I got up and walked over to my dresser. I pulled out my skating pants and a black jacket, I have very strict skating attire. I pulled up my hair up into a ponytail and slipped on a pair of black athletic shoes. I walked into my kitchen and ate some leftover pancakes from yesterday.

"good morning Y/N" My mom says as she walks into the kitchen.

"good morning" i reply, giving her a quick hug.

After finishing my pancakes, I stood up and grabbed a water bottle from my cabinet. I filled it up and set it down on my  counter. I walked into my living room and grabbed my backpack, and slipped my water bottle into the pocket on the side. I grabbed the bag and yelled out  "bye mom!".

I walked out the door and started walking down the street.

I made it to the rink and walked inside. I went straight to the locker rooms and quickly put my skates on.

As I walked out of the room and onto the ice, I saw yakov with the other senior skaters, Yuri, Mila, and Georgi. I took my guards off and skated out onto the ice with the rest of the team. "Y/N you're here, start working on your short program for this season, i hope you remembered it" yakov said.

"Yeah I remember" i said, skating to the center of the ice.

I started the program, i was only running through the choreography of it though. Upon finishing, I heard someone call my name.

"Hey princess, need more time to warm up? You looked kinda stiff out there" Yuri yelled from across the ice.

"Shut up yurio" i said as I rolled my eyes, clearly not in the mood for his attitude.

He scowled and rolled his eyes in response.

Man he is such and asshole.

Later, after many, many hours of training we finally finished.

"Good work today, all of your programs are coming along nicely" yakov said, giving us the signal to leave.

I made my way off the ice and towards the Locker rooms.

"Yuri, Y/N could I speak with you for a second" yakov said.

I quickly turned around to face him, and so did Yuri. I saw yakov standing with a woman. She looked very stern and had her hair pulled up in a tight bun.

"This is Lilia Baranoskaya, a pristine ballet instructor. I'm sure you've heard of her, She has generously offered to train the two of you for the upcoming season" yakov said.

Yuri and I looked at each other and back at them.

"The two of you will be staying at my house, I suggest you both go home and pack your things. Be back here no later than 9:00" Lilia said turning around and walking off.

"Wait, am i gonna have to live with him?!" I exclaim in annoyance.

"Yea I think I'd rather kill myself than live with her." He added, giving me a look.

I scoff and look away.

"You two need to deal with it, I don't want to hear complaints from either of you. If you want to win, you will get over it." Yakov angrily said.

At first, I actually thought she was joking, but seeing yakov that serious made me realize that they weren't in fact,  joking.

"Yea whatever" Yuri says as he turns on his heel and walks away.

I turned around in disbelief and started walking to the locker room. I slipped my guards on over my blades and started on my way home.

I got to my house and tried to explain to my parents what was happening, they were very confused...and hesitant. "Honey..are you sure your ready to live somewhere without us? I don't know about this..also what will you do about school? Is Lilia going to teach you?" My mom asks, concerned.

"I'm not sure, but I know I can do this. I have to think about my future, skating is what I love and this is the only way to win. Im going to be fine, Yakov and Yuri will also be there so I won't be alone." I say, trying to ease her worries.

It took a lot of convincing and a lot of talking, but they eventually said yes!

"Thank you! I have to meet Lilia back at the rink before 9:00" I exclaim.

I went upstairs and grabbed 3 suitcases and stuffed them to the brim with stuff like toiletries, makeup, clothes, and shoes. Not to mention all of my skating supplies. Later, my mom and dad came up and helped me.

After packing everything up my mom  and dad drove me back to ice rink.

I saw yakov, lilia, and Yuri packing suitcases into a super fancy car, it almost looked like a limo. My mom and I unloaded the stuff and brought the luggage over to the car. We placed them next to Yuri's luggage and helped pack everything into the car.

"Goodbye sweetheart" my mom said as we packed the last suitcase into the car.

"Bye!" I replied giving her a hug.

I opened the door and sat down. I strapped on the seatbelt and waited. Yuri got into the car and sat down on the other side of me, and then Lilia and yakov got in. As we started driving Lilia told us about our schedules and where we would be staying. We would get up super early and go to the ballet room and dance and condition, and then we would go over to the rink and practice.

When we finally arrived at her house I started to unpacked everything. Her house was so huge, WAY bigger than my house. Lilia showed us to our rooms; my room and Yuri's room are next to each other.

Great.

I opened the door to see a beautiful white room with mirrors and paintings covering the walls. Books and plants were placed on shelves above me. I put my suitcases on the bed and started to unpack.

Yuri and I had a bathroom across the hallway from us, Lilia said we would have to share it.

Knowing his nasty ass he'll probably destroy it within two seconds.

I went in there and placed my hair products in the shower and set up my toiletries on the counter. The counter had two sinks and one big, fancy mirror. I made sure everything was organized and neat around the sink I chose to use. Then I went back into my room and set up my stuff in the closet and in the dressers.

"Y/N, Yuri come now" Lilia yelled.

I opened the door and started walking down the stairs. I walked over to Lilia who told me and Yuri that dinner will be ready soon and we need to get showered.

Yuri and I looked at each other.

both of us had a competitive look displayed on our faces. When she finished speaking we both dashed up the stairs bumping into each other as we made our way up. We both fell into the bathroom and looked at each other. "Move idiot I have to shower" Yuri shouted.

"So do I, bitch" I replied standing up.

"There's only one way to solve this, rock paper scissors" Yuri said holding his hand out.

"Hell yea! I'm a boss at this" I said extending my hand out to meet his.

"Rock paper scissors shoot!" We both said at the same time.

I put rock, he had put scissors.

"Shit" he said.

"at least tell me when you get out dumbass" Yuri added, clearly annoyed.

"I will~" i teased.

"And don't use all the hot water!" He replied.

"I won't" I said, pushing him out of my way so I could get to my room.

I had every intention of using all the hot water.

I walked into my room and got a towel and pajamas and then walked back into the bathroom and turned on the shower.

I got in, washed my hair and my face, then got out. I put my clothes on and sat down on the toilet. There was a small mirror that I decided to use to do my skincare. I tied my hair up in the towel and pulled out all my skincare. After, I decided to put on a clay mask and clean out the shower. I noticed the only thing Yuri had in there was a 3-in-one shampoo, conditioner, and body wash bottle.

I cringed at the sight of it.

I walked out of the bathroom and knocked on his door. "Finally your done-" he said abruptly stopping.

He looked up and me and looked concerned. "What the hell happened to your face" he said.

I rolled my eyes as his question.

"I want you to use my shampoo and conditioner, that three in one shit is disgusting"  I replied.

"What's wrong with my stuff it works just fine" he added.

"Yeah it would work just fine if you were a toddler, you need to take better care of yourself. And you should use my skincare products..you look like you need it" I smiled sarcastically and shut the door.

"What's that supposed to mean?!" He said angrily from behind the door.

I shrugged and walked away into my room. About ten minutes later I hear him yell.

"Y/N HOW DO YOU USE THIS SHIT".

I stood up and walked into the bathroom. He was sitting on the toilet staring blankly at the products.

"What is 'facial cleanser'?" He asked picking up a container.

"Exactly what it says genius, it cleanses your face" i replied.

I picked up each bottle and briefly explained how to use them. After a minute or two he got the hang of it and started correctly using them. I decided to wash the mask off my face while I had the chance.

After he finished lilia called us down for dinner. She made Pelmeni for dinner. We sat down and started eating. It was silent most of the time, except when yakov occasionally coughed.

We finished dinner and we headed upstairs since it was pretty late. Tomorrow at 7:00 AM Yuri and I had training in her ballet studio. Then afterwards we had skating practice. I set my alarm and quickly dozed off to sleep.

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I awoke to my alarm clock ringing. I tiredly turned it off and stood up.

I remembered I had training early in the morning, so I quickly put on my black athletic leggings and a black zip up jacket. I walked into the bathroom I shared with Yuri and quickly brushed my teeth. Afterwards I pulled my hair back and threw on some sneakers. I walked down the stairs to see Yuri in the kitchen on his phone. He was eating pancakes and looked extremely unhappy. He had his hair pulled back into a tight ponytail and had on his tiger t shirt with black leggings.

"So you finally decided to get up, jeez no wonder your always late to practice" he teased.

I fought the urge to snap back at him and grabbed a plate and put pancakes on it instead. They were surprisingly good. Yuri and I sat in silence on our phones until Lilia burst into the kitchen. "Why are neither of you done eating I said specifically to be in the ballet studio by 7:00 Am sharp and neither of you did so" she said angrily.

"What are you waiting for let's go" she added.

Yuri and I awkwardly stood up and followed her into the ballet studio. Neither of us dared to say a word in fear that Lilia might scream at us.

Once we got to the studio she had us do a pretty basic warm up. Afterwards it was like hell, if we so much as breathed the wrong way she'll yell at us and have us redo our dance. After that we had a break for a few hours until we had our skating session. I was laying down on my bed until I heard a knock at my door.

to my surprise, Yuri opened the door.

"Hey I wanted to know if you wanted to go shopping with me after skating, I need new clothes and I don't know what matches" Yuri said sounding very annoyed.

"Why do I have to do it" i asked.

"Because I asked Lilia if I could go and buy new clothes and she said I had bad taste and to come ask you to go with me" he said getting even more annoyed.

"Ok fine I'll come with you" i replied, laughing a little.

"K thanks" he said, shutting the door.

Later I was called downstairs for the on ice training session. I grabbed my skates and headed for the the living room. I flew down the stairs and saw Yuri,Yakov, and Lilia standing at the door.

"Ready to leave?" Lilia asked me.

"Let's go then" she added, opening the door.

We walked out of the house and into Lilia's very fancy car. I opened the side door and got into the back, Yuri sitting next to me. I put on my seatbelt and Lilia started driving. The ride was silent, as expected.

About 15 minutes later we arrived at the rink. I exited the car and walked through the glass doors of the ice rink. Yuri and I walked over to the benches and quickly laced up our skates. I walked over to the ice and put my guards on the ground next to the door. I skated out onto the ice where Yakov stood, and Yuri followed shortly after.

"I want both of you to run through the jumps in your program and once your warmed up we'll start running through the full thing" yakov said dismissing us to practice.

I went on the side opposing Yuri and immediately started practicing. The jumps in my program were a quad toe loop, triple toe loop, quad lutz, triple axel and a triple flip. I wish I could put more quads in but yakov said only two for right now. I started off with the quad toe loop and triple toe loop combination to get it out of the way. I fell a few times, but I soon started consistently landing it. Then I went onto the quad lutz, then the triple flip, and lastly I did my triple axel. After a good twenty minutes of jump practice yakov called us back to the center.

"It's time for you to perform your programs, and because your Grand Prix assignments will be announced soon I will be giving much harsher criticism" he said.

I wasn't really worried because I didn't think yakov could give any harsher criticism than he already does.

"Yuri your up first" yakov said.

"WHY DO I HAVE TO GO FIRST" he complained.

"BECAUSE I SAID SO NOW GO" yakov screamed.

I turned around and quickly skated off the ice hoping yakov wouldn't catch me as I tried to hold in my laughter. I took a deep breath and turned back towards the ice. Yakov was standing against the sides of the rink and Yuri was in his starting position. Yakov turned on the music, and I couldn't help but watch. He started skating, it was a lot different from the hot springs on ice event. I could tell he had been working on it a lot more. The way he moved to the music was so mesmerizing and graceful.

I looked away and my stomach started feeling weird so I sat down decided to tie my skates tighter. I took deep breaths to try and calm myself down but that wasn't working.

Not much later Yuri finished his program and yakov was talking to him about something. After his talk with yakov Yuri came off the ice and walked over to me. "Why is your face so red, are you ok?" Yuri asked with a confused look on his face.

My stomach starting feeling even more weird so I just said "yeah I'm fine..I just need to use the bathroom."

"I bet your just jealous because you know im better than you" he says.

I scowled at got up from my seat and ran into the bathroom. I looked into the mirror and saw my face, bright red. I ran my face under cold water and finally calmed down. I walked out and told yakov I was ready. I skated out onto the ice and got into position.

I was about to kick Yuris ass.

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Yakov turned on the music and I started. I put my body and soul into each individual movement as I turned and spun. I could feel the music coursing through me as I started my jumps, in which I executed (almost) flawlessly. This was the best program I had done yet. A few minutes later I took my final pose, I could see yuri looking at me from the corner of my eye. I smiled in triumph as I skated over to yakov. "Y/N that was your best performance yet, I've never seen you so motivated before" yakov said happily.
He didn't have much to critic expect a few minor things in my jumps, but nothing major. I skated off the ice to see Yuri angrily wiping the snow off his blade. "Hey yurio, like my performance?" I teased.
He loudly huffed and started wiping his skates even harder while trying to ignore me. I laughed a bit and sat down next to him. I started wiping off my skates and saw his beet red face.
"Ok ok I'm sorry for teasing you" I apologized.
"It's fine I guess" he added.
I unlaced my skates and and put on my sneakers.
"Are we still going shopping?" I asked him as I sat up.
He also sat up and said "yeah I mean, do you still wanna go?"
"Hell yeah, why wouldn't I be up for shopping" i replied
I grabbed my skate bag and we told yakov we were going shopping. He wasn't the most thrilled because we were going to do conditioning, but he let it slide.
I walked into the locker room and grabbed my wallet and phone out of my skating back.
When I returned, I saw Yuri waiting for me at the door.
"Ok I'm ready" I said as I smiled and ran over to him.
He gave a slight, almost unnoticeable, genuine smile in return.
Yuri walked infront of me and held the door open.
"Thanks" I said, responding to the kind gesture.
Yuri and I then started walking down the extremely cold streets of St. Petersburg.
Around 10 minutes later, we finally made it to the mall. By the time we got there I was freezing and visibly shaking. We stepped inside and it felt like heaven. The warm air surrounded me as Yuri and I started walking.
"Where should we go" Yuri asked me.
"I don't know...maybe American Eagle or Macys" I said.
"Those sound boring" Yuri groaned
"Would you rather me take you to the back of Spencer's? I can assure you that won't be boring" I said slightly annoyed.
"Yeah no thanks" he replied  giving me a horrified look.
"Alright American eagle it is!" I grabbed his wrist and started dragging him around to different stores picking out clothes for him.
When we got to American eagle we walked over to the men's section and started looking.
"So Yuri what kind of clothes are you looking for?" I asked him and I examined the clothing racks.
"I don't know, jeans and shirts I guess?" I replied.
"What kind of jeans? Skinny, loose, relaxed?" I ask.
"Idk I usually get black skinny ones but i dont really like them, I wanna get ones that are less tight" he adds.
"Then why don't we try relaxed ones?" I ask
"Whatever you think is best" he replies.
I reach up onto the top shelf where the relaxed jeans are and grab a pair but then stop myself.
"What size are you?" I add.
"I think like a size 2?" He says hesitantly.
I grab a size two and walk over to the dressing room area. I ask the lady for a dressing room and she unlocks the door to one. I wave over Yuri and give him the pants.
"If you need a different size tell me" I say as he walks into the dressing room.
A few minutes later he unlocks the door and comes out wearing the pants. He has his hair pulled back into a ponytail, is wearing a black sweatshirt.
"Does this look ok?" He asks
"Yea it looks fine" i reply as my cheeks turn a slight shade of pink.
"Alright" he adds as he goes back into the changing room and puts his regular pants back on.
We go back over to the pants section and get a few more pairs he liked, and some sweatshirts.
I walked up to the cash register and I paid for his things. We walked around the mall and bought thinks for another few hours.
After a lot of shopping we left the mall and walked down the street. I was kinda hungry, and I could tell he was too.
"Wanna stop at a seven eleven for some snacks?" I asked.
He nodded in response.
I saw one just down the street and pulled him into the store. Once we got in we both went our separate ways. I walked down the aisles and made my way back to the slushee machine. When I got there i saw Yuri grabbing a cup from the stand.
I walked over to him and also grabbed a cup.
"I didn't know you liked slushees" I said looking over at him.
"I guess there's a lot of things you don't know about me then" he said with an ever so slight laugh.
I smiled at him.
I filled up my cup and walked away to grab some snacks. After I had finished I started walking up to the counter, when I got closer I saw Yuri walking over from the other side. We both met at the same register and placed our stuff down together.
"That'll be 21.25$" the cashier said.
There was a lot of chocolate and Candy on the counter along with the slushees. I grabbed my wallet out but then I saw Yuri handing the worker money. I stood confused as he put the candy into a bag and handed me my slushee. We walked out of the store and it was almost pitch black outside.
We collectively decided to call Lilia to come pick us up. We walked over to a bench and sat down.
"You didn't have to do that I could've paid for it myself" i said.
"It's fine you paid for most of my clothes anyway" he added.
"Thank you" I said with a smile.
He looked away but then a huge gust of wind sent shivers down my spine.
I started shivering, but then I looked over at Yuri and saw him taking off his jacket.
And placing it on me.
"Yuri cmon you don't need to do that" I said as i started to take the jacket off.
"Yes I do, if you catch a cold from this it will be my fault for not helping" he said as he slips the jacket back onto my shoulders.
"Thanks.." I replied.
My stomach started feeling funny again so I turned away and went onto my phone.
Soon lilia arrived in front of us and and we both climbed into the car.
The time was around 8:30.
I decided to look out the window while we drove. When we made it back to the house Yuri and I separated our bags and went upstairs. Lilia seemed confused as to why I was wearing Yuris jacket but didn't say anything. I unpacked my stuff and got changed into something more comfortable. I walked into my bathroom and started my 'nightly routine'. I washed my face, brushed my teeth and all that stuff. I threw out my empty slushee cup and walked back into my room. Yuris jacket was laying on my bed, I contemplated whether I should give it back now or wait until tomorrow. I decided to give it back to him now since he might need it. I stood up and walked over to the door to his room. I took a deep breath and knocked.
"Hello?" Yuri said, tiredly opening the door.
"Here's your jacket back" i said handing it over.
"Oh thanks" he said turning away and putting it in one of his drawers.
"night" I said.
"Goodnight" he sheepishly replied.
I walked back into my room and laid down on my bed. I opened a bag of chocolates and started eating them. I scrolled through Instagram on my phone, most of the other Grand Prix competitors were on vacation at the moment. I yawned and set the alarm on my phone for 6:35 AM. I rolled over and closed my eyes, slowly drifting off to sleep.

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I woke up to my alarms like usual. I stood up Yakov turned on the music and I started. I put my body and soul into each individual movement as I turned and spun. I could feel the music coursing through me as I started my jumps, in which I executed (almost) flawlessly. This was the best program I had done yet. A few minutes later I took my final pose, I could see yuri looking at me from the corner of my eye. I smiled in triumph as I skated over to yakov. "Y/N that was your best performance yet, I've never seen you so motivated before" yakov said happily.
He didn't have much to critic expect a few minor things in my jumps, but nothing major. I skated off the ice to see Yuri angrily wiping the snow off his blade. "Hey yurio, like my performance?" I teased.
He loudly huffed and started wiping his skates even harder while trying to ignore me. I laughed a bit and sat down next to him. I started wiping off my skates and saw his beet red face.
"Ok ok I'm sorry for teasing you" I apologized.
"It's fine I guess" he added.
I unlaced my skates and and put on my sneakers.
"Are we still going shopping?" I asked him as I sat up.
He also sat up and said "yeah I mean, do you still wanna go?"
"Hell yeah, why wouldn't I be up for shopping" i replied
I grabbed my skate bag and we told yakov we were going shopping. He wasn't the most thrilled because we were going to do conditioning, but he let it slide.
I walked into the locker room and grabbed my wallet and phone out of my skating back.
When I returned, I saw Yuri waiting for me at the door.
"Ok I'm ready" I said as I smiled and ran over to him.
He gave a slight, almost unnoticeable, genuine smile in return.
Yuri walked infront of me and held the door open.
"Thanks" I said, responding to the kind gesture.
Yuri and I then started walking down the extremely cold streets of St. Petersburg.
Around 10 minutes later, we finally made it to the mall. By the time we got there I was freezing and visibly shaking. We stepped inside and it felt like heaven. The warm air surrounded me as Yuri and I started walking.
"Where should we go" Yuri asked me.
"I don't know...maybe American Eagle or Macys" I said.
"Those sound boring" Yuri groaned
"Would you rather me take you to the back of Spencer's? I can assure you that won't be boring" I said slightly annoyed.
"Yeah no thanks" he replied  giving me a horrified look.
"Alright American eagle it is!" I grabbed his wrist and started dragging him around to different stores picking out clothes for him.
When we got to American eagle we walked over to the men's section and started looking.
"So Yuri what kind of clothes are you looking for?" I asked him and I examined the clothing racks.
"I don't know, jeans and shirts I guess?" I replied.
"What kind of jeans? Skinny, loose, relaxed?" I ask.
"Idk I usually get black skinny ones but i dont really like them, I wanna get ones that are less tight" he adds.
"Then why don't we try relaxed ones?" I ask
"Whatever you think is best" he replies.
I reach up onto the top shelf where the relaxed jeans are and grab a pair but then stop myself.
"What size are you?" I add.
"I think like a size 2?" He says hesitantly.
I grab a size two and walk over to the dressing room area. I ask the lady for a dressing room and she unlocks the door to one. I wave over Yuri and give him the pants.
"If you need a different size tell me" I say as he walks into the dressing room.
A few minutes later he unlocks the door and comes out wearing the pants. He has his hair pulled back into a ponytail, is wearing a black sweatshirt.
"Does this look ok?" He asks
"Yea it looks fine" i reply as my cheeks turn a slight shade of pink.
"Alright" he adds as he goes back into the changing room and puts his regular pants back on.
We go back over to the pants section and get a few more pairs he liked, and some sweatshirts.
I walked up to the cash register and I paid for his things. We walked around the mall and bought thinks for another few hours.
After a lot of shopping we left the mall and walked down the street. I was kinda hungry, and I could tell he was too.
"Wanna stop at a seven eleven for some snacks?" I asked.
He nodded in response.
I saw one just down the street and pulled him into the store. Once we got in we both went our separate ways. I walked down the aisles and made my way back to the slushee machine. When I got there i saw Yuri grabbing a cup from the stand.
I walked over to him and also grabbed a cup.
"I didn't know you liked slushees" I said looking over at him.
"I guess there's a lot of things you don't know about me then" he said with an ever so slight laugh.
I smiled at him.
I filled up my cup and walked away to grab some snacks. After I had finished I started walking up to the counter, when I got closer I saw Yuri walking over from the other side. We both met at the same register and placed our stuff down together.
"That'll be 21.25$" the cashier said.
There was a lot of chocolate and Candy on the counter along with the slushees. I grabbed my wallet out but then I saw Yuri handing the worker money. I stood confused as he put the candy into a bag and handed me my slushee. We walked out of the store and it was almost pitch black outside.
We collectively decided to call Lilia to come pick us up. We walked over to a bench and sat down.
"You didn't have to do that I could've paid for it myself" i said.
"It's fine you paid for most of my clothes anyway" he added.
"Thank you" I said with a smile.
He looked away but then a huge gust of wind sent shivers down my spine.
I started shivering, but then I looked over at Yuri and saw him taking off his jacket.
And placing it on me.
"Yuri cmon you don't need to do that" I said as i started to take the jacket off.
"Yes I do, if you catch a cold from this it will be my fault for not helping" he said as he slips the jacket back onto my shoulders.
"Thanks.." I replied.
My stomach started feeling funny again so I turned away and went onto my phone.
Soon lilia arrived in front of us and and we both climbed into the car.
The time was around 8:30.
I decided to look out the window while we drove. When we made it back to the house Yuri and I separated our bags and went upstairs. Lilia seemed confused as to why I was wearing Yuris jacket but didn't say anything. I unpacked my stuff and got changed into something more comfortable. I walked into my bathroom and started my 'nightly routine'. I washed my face, brushed my teeth and all that stuff. I threw out my empty slushee cup and walked back into my room. Yuris jacket was laying on my bed, I contemplated whether I should give it back now or wait until tomorrow. I decided to give it back to him now since he might need it. I stood up and walked over to the door to his room. I took a deep breath and knocked.
"Hello?" Yuri said, tiredly opening the door.
"Here's your jacket back" i said handing it over.
"Oh thanks" he said turning away and putting it in one of his drawers.
"night" I said.
"Goodnight" he sheepishly replied.
I walked back into my room and laid down on my bed. I opened a bag of chocolates and started eating them. I scrolled through Instagram on my phone, most of the other Grand Prix competitors were on vacation at the moment. I yawned and set the alarm on my phone for 6:35 AM. I rolled over and closed my eyes, slowly drifting off to sleep.from under my covers and put on some leggings and one of the new shirts I had bought while shopping with Yuri yesterday. I pulled back my hair and walked downstairs to see Yuri making a pancake. He put syrup on it and sat down, it was then that I realized he was wearing an apron. I looked over and he saw me and almost flipped out. His face turned bright red and he started frantically trying to untie the knots that held  the apron together. I burst out with hysterical laughter and he got so angry I thought he was going to burst.
"STOP LAUGHING ITS NOT FUNNY YOU PIECE OF SHIT" he yelled but that only encouraged my laughter.
I finally calmed down and started apologizing to him but he just huffed and turned away. I stood up and got out a box of cereal from the cabinet along with some milk from the fridge. I sat down and ate. A few minutes later I finished and put my bowl into the sink. I started walking towards the ballet studio and Yuri followed behind me. We started our stretching and then it was hell, like always. After a very long and traumatic class we finally finished four hours later. While I was drinking water yakov walked in the door holding papers in his hand. Yuri and I looked at each other and we both knew they were the grand prix assignments. Yakov walked over and said "these are your assignments for this season."
"Y/N you will be at the Rostelecom cup, Trophée Laliquel, and skate America" yakov said looking at me.
I'll be going to the US and France! Now Im excited. "Yuri your assignments are the Rostelecom cup, Trophée Laliquel, and skate Canada. And hopefully you will both be going to Italy for the final." yakov said.
Yuri and I have two competitions in common, at least I won't be alone.
"This will be a breeze I could win this with my eyes closed" Yuri said very confidently which angered me.
"How are you so sure? I could probably get higher scores than you ever could" I said.
"Oh yeah? Well I bet I could place first in every event" he added.
"Is that a challenge?"
"Sure, like you could win anyway"
"Alright fine, the person who gets the most gold medals wins and the loser had to do whatever the winner wants" I said proudly.
"Ok bet" he said turning around and walking away.
This bitch was going doooown.
I was going to win no matter the cost. I got my bag and told yakov I was going out for a while. I think he knew that I was going skating but didn't really care. I walked out of the door and raced down the streets, I want to get in the most amount of practice time I can. The first competition we had was the Trophèe Laliquel which was in a week. I burst open the ice rink doors and throw my stuff down onto the floor infront of the benches. I unzipped my bag and took out my skates. I quickly laced them up, and then I was out on the ice. I hooked my phone up to the Bluetooth speakers and started my short program, I put as much effort as I could into it and finished it. I fixed all the things Yakov told me to fix and my program felt a lot smoother. When the music stopped I skated over to the side and grabbed my water bottle.
I felt nervous, scared almost.
I know Yuris a better skater than me, he's been doing it longer than I have and I don't know why I made that stupid bet. But I still have to try, I can't loose to him or he's never gonna let me live it down.
I took a deep breath and got back to practicing. I did my free program and it went just as smoothly as my short. I decided to take a small break and eat a snack. I grabbed my water bottle and skated off the ice. I was looking down at my phone when I tripped over my toe pick and fell flat on my face. I heard someone hysterically laughing. I immediately shot up from the floor and saw it was Yuri.
"SHUT UP" I screamed.
That only encouraged him, so I pushed him onto the bleachers. His face turned beet red within seconds, and he finally shut up. I didn't realize how close my face was to his and my face stated to heat up as well.
"Sorry..." I said sheepishly letting go of him.
"It's fine.." he replied awkwardly, and still quite flustered.
"Anyway I wanted to ask if you maybe wanted to watch a movie tonight? However that was before you decided to JUMP on me" He asked, getting slightly annoyed.
I stood up and then sat down on the bleachers next to him.
"I'm sorry! and yeah I'll watch a movie with you." I replied as my cheeks flushed a slight shade of pink at the thought.
We sat next to each other in an awkward silence
"What movie are we going to watch?" I asked
"I don't know, do you have anything in mind?"
"Ooo we could watch Dirty dancing!"
"What is that"
"It's a romance movie about this girl and guy who come from like different back, it's really good"
"Sounds cliche" he added
"Yeah but it's good" I argued
"Whatever" he said getting up and walking onto the ice.
I left my skates on the bench and headed up to the upstairs ballet studio for some off ice training. I connected my phone to the speakers and started stretching, but I couldn't help but stare out the window looking down onto the ice. Yuri was doing his program and he once again looked so beautiful. I continued my stretches but it was no use because I couldn't pull myself away from him. I decided to get myself together and  I started practicing my triple and quad jumps. I cant get distracted from my ultimate goal, beating Yuri.

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I spent the next three hours conditioning. I can tell my quads got a lot better just from that, and I'm excited to try them on ice. I got all my things together and walked back to lilias. Yuri had left about an hour before me, the cold air felt good after a long workout. When I got back to the house, i heard like love-y old Russian music playing from the kitchen. When I walked by I saw Lilia was in there cooking something that smelled amazing. I walked past her and up to my room, where I saw Yuri. I stopped in my tracks. He had just gotten out of the shower and only had on a towel around his waist with his hair slicked back. My cheeks started to burn red. He limitedly stopped when he saw me and started freaking out.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU LOOKING AT GO AWAY" he screamed.
"Sorry.." I said as I awkwardly walked into my room. I gulped at I walk into my room trying to process what I just saw. I grabbed a comfy pair of pajamas and went to take a shower, but I couldn't get that image of Yuri out of my head. I finished my shower and went downstairs for dinner. Lilia had made piroshkis for dinner! I sat down next to Yuri at the table and started eating. We sat in a really awkward silence like we always did. After that I went back up to my room and about 15 minutes later someone knocked on my door. I went to open it and saw Yuri.
"Do you still wanna watch that movie or no?" He asked.
"Yea of course I do" I replied.
I grabbed all of my fluffy blankets and brought them into his room. He had pictures of his cat everywhere, you would've thought his room was a fricken shrine. I sat down on his bed and he turned on his TV.
"So we're gonna watch that stupid movie you suggested earlier?" He asked lightheartedly.
"Yeah I guess, and it's not stupid it's actually a good movie" I huff.
"whatever you say princess" he added sarcastically.
I rolled my eyes, but I couldn't help but blush a little.
"Is this the one," he said as he pulled the movie up on some random streaming service.
"Yup" I said, getting comfortable. He pressed play and the movie started. I couldn't help but feel awkward, something felt weird. I felt really warm, and I couldn't fully relax or calm down. I took a few deep breaths and closed my eyes.
" getting tired already?" He said playfully.
"Um no actually, I'm just trying to get comfortable" I said with attitude.
"Alright" he adds. As the movie goes on I start to relax more. I'm cuddled up to a pillow and Yuri is laying on his back next to me.
"Hey yuri?" I ask.
"What's up?" He adds.
"Why did you want to watch a movie with me?" I question.
"Oh, because Lilia told me I should get to know you better or something stupid like that" he said carelessly.
I felt my stomach drop, I didn't know what answer I was expecting, but it certainly wasn't that.
I felt uncomfortable for the rest of the movie. Once it was over I said Goodnight to Yuri and walked into my room. I sat down and almost started crying. I ran to the bathroom and splashed water on my face, I need to get it together. Who cares if Yuri only talked to me because Lilia wanted him too? I'm so much better than his lame ass. I decided to do a calming face mask ( at 11:00 at night ) to help me relax. It actually helped a lot, but I couldn't figure out what else was wrong. It made my stomach feel off, but I decided that I should just sleep it off and get some rest.

I woke up the next morning determined to distance myself from Yuri and focus completely on my training. We leave for Paris in less than a week and I need to be in top shape. In our morning dance classes I worked extra hard to impress lilia, and it worked. She was very proud of  how far I've come within only a few weeks. Then we went to on ice practice and i absolutely crushed my short and free program and left Yuri speechless.
Yakov asked me if I wanted to add anymore quads in and I said yes. My new jumps will be Quad flip-triple toe, Quad lutz, triple Axel, Quad sal, and a Quad toe-Triple loop combo. Yakov asked me to do them, and I did, it wasn't as hard as I initially thought it would be.
As I walked passed Yuri, i gave him a smug look.
He looked back at me with a confused, and annoyed expression.
I went home that day ecstatic.
I was still pissed off about yuri, but I was so proud of myself for landing all those quads so I decided to reward myself by going and getting my nails done. I texted Mila to see if she wanted to go with me and she said yes. I put on a cute outfit and touched up my makeup a little before heading out. When I walked out of my room I saw Yuri standing outside.
"Where the hell are you going" he said looking me up and down.
"None of your business, and since when do you care" I said giving him a cold side eye.
"What's is your problem? You've been such a bitch all day! You ignore me, give me snarky responses, and give me weird looks whenever you get the chance!" He exclaimed.
"Why would you care!" I say, aggravated.
He gives me a disappointed look and walks away.
I continued on my way to the nail salon.
"OMG hey Y/N!!! I feel like I haven't seen you in years!" Mila said hugging me tight.
We walked into the nail salon and got mani pedis. One of the workers directed us to two chairs in the back and we sat down.
"So, anything interesting happen lately?" Mila asked.
"Not really, Yuri was being a real asshole yesterday tho" I added.
"I swear he's always being such a bitch, what happened?" She asked.
"He invited me to watch a movie with him and I thought he wanted to hang out and like become closer or whatever, but no he only did it because Lilia told him too!" I said annoyed.
" it's Yuri what did you expect? He'll do whatever Lilia tells him just so she dosent kill him" She laughed.
"I don't know I just thought he maybe actually wanted to hang out with me"I said shyly.
"Hmmmm I'm kinda sensing that you like him" she said smirking at me.
"I ABSOLUTELY DO NOT !!" I said loudly.
"That only further proves my point" she laughed as I pouted.
But there was no way I liked Yuri Plisetsky, there's no way I could ever like as asshole like him.

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After we got our nails done, I thought about what Mila said. She made the point of how I would only get this upset if I wanted him to like me. I don't think I like him? I guess I overreacted a little. I think I'm going to give Victor a call and see what he thinks later, but first I think I should apologize to Yuri for being an ass towards him yesterday.
I walked out of my room and took a deep breath as I knocked on his door. I looked down at the ground as I heard him tug on the handle.
"Im really sorry for being an asshole yesterday, I was in a really bad mood." I said looking up from the ground.
"It's fine, I get it" he said giving me a slight smile.
"So, we cool now?" I say hopefully.
"Yeah I guess" he replies.
"Good" I say, walking back to my room. I wish Victor were still here, but he's out in Japan with his "friend" Yuuri. I really miss him. He would always help me when I didn't understand something, and I really need his guidance right now. I sat down in my bed and pulled my phone from my pocket. I tapped on victors contact and held my phone up to my ear as it rung.
"Hello?" Victor said
"Hi Victor it's Y/N, I need your advice on something" I asked him.
"What up?" He replied
"Yesterday, Yuri invited me to watch a movie with him, I thought it was because he actually liked me and wanted to hang out, but turns out he only did it because Lilia told him too. I got really upset, and I can't figure out why" I said.
"Can you describe how you felt?" Victor added.
"It felt like my heart dropped into my stomach... I felt betrayed?" I replied.
Victor slightly laughed and said "Y/N, Im not going to tell you what I think because it's better for you to figure it out yourself. Think about Yurio and think about that heart drop feeling. When have you felt that before?".
I thought about it for a minute, and got nothing.
"Hey it's getting late here so I'm gonna go to bed alright?" Victor added
"Goodnight Victor"
"Goodnight Y/N"
Victor hung up and I couldn't help but feel like I was still in the same spot I was before.
After a long while of staring at my ceiling I decided that I was going to get no where. I rolled over and checked my phone again. It was 9:30. Time flies when your contemplating your life decisions.
I turned onto my side and shorty after I quickly fell asleep.

~ the day we leave for Paris ~
I woke up to the sound of Yuri pounding on my door.
" Y/N I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOU DONT GET UP IM GONNA BREAK DOWN YOUR DOOR" He yelled.
"Oh my god Yuri it's like 3 in the fucking morning our flight isn't until 7" I replied rubbing my eyes.
"I COULD HONESTLY CARE LESS NOW GET UP BEFORE WE MISS OUR FLIGHT" he added, walking away.
I had completely forgotten today was the day we left for Paris. I got up and loudly yawed. My room was a complete mess, there were clothes thrown everywhere and my suitcase was only half packed. Before heading downstairs to eat breakfast I fixed my issue with the suitcase and cleaned up a little. When I got down stairs I made myself a bagel and quickly ate it because I knew damn well if I took any longer Yuri would be on my ass. I took a shower and put on a comfy pair of sweat pants and a sweat shirt for the plane.  After I was done getting ready, I loaded my luggage into Lilias car and then waited on the couch until we left. Yuri was sitting across from me watching something on his phone and he was smiling.
"Watcha looking at Yuri?" I said getting up to look over his phone.
"Mind your business!" he stuttered, quickly turning his phone out of my view.
"Jeez calm down, we're you looking at a girl you like?" I said jokingly.
"Maybe I was maybe I wasn't" he said turning so the back of his phone faced me.
I felt my heart sink a little.
I frowned and silently moved away from him, retreating back to my original spot on the couch.
"Yuri, Y/N, let's go" Lilia said as she stood at the entrance of the living room.
Me and Yuri both stood up and followed her out to the car. When I stepped outside I felt the cold air engulf me. I quickly ran into lilias car and strapped on the seatbelt and turned on the heater from the back seat. Everyone got into the car shortly after, and then we were on our way to the airport. I put on my headphone and listened to some music to help pass the time, and before I knew it we had arrived. Yakov dropped us off at the airport entrance so he could go park. Lilia walked me and Yuri into the airport and over to TSA. The line was long and I was so tired I could barely stand. While we were waiting I sat down on my suitcase and went onto my phone. I checked my Instagram and saw that Yuri had viewed a few of my posts, including the shared post I had made with Mila yesterday. After a long while of waiting we finally made it through TSA with no problems. Lilia pulled me and Yuri off the the side so she could call yakov and see where he was. Apparently he was already at our gate so we headed over there. Lilia lead us around the airport for about 10 minutes before we finally made it to our destination. She got a little lost, but in the end we made it.
"Y/N , Yuri could you go get me some coffee please" Lilia asked.
"Uh sure..what kind?" I asked.
"Medium black coffee" she replied.
I grabbed my phone and started walking towards the nearest Starbucks. Yuri followed just behind me. When we got to the shop I walked up to the counter but before I could talk Yuri interrupted me.
"Can I get a grande black coffee?" He asked the cashier before turning to me and asking for my order.
"Um can i get a tall latte" I asked the cashier. He hit a few buttons and then Yuri ordered what he wanted. While he was ordering I started to pull out my wallet to pay but he stopped me.
"Cmon Yuri you don't have to pay I got it" I insisted.
"No I got it" he said handing the worker some cash.
"Cmon Yuri now I'm gonna owe you double from that one time at 7/11. Just let me pay!" I pleaded.
"You don't have to pay me back it's fine" he adds.
He then pulled me over to the side to wait for our order. I couldn't help but take slight glances at him. He looked so...sweet? I don't know how to describe it. I felt my face heat up a little bit, but thought nothing of it.
When our order came Yuri handed me my drink and took the rest. On the walk back to our gate I opened up Instagram and viewed Yuris page. Most of the pictures he had up were him at competitions, and his cats. As I was scrolling I accidentally liked one of his posts.
You would've thought I was the god damn flash with how quick I scrolled out of his profile.
A moment later i saw him pick up his phone, give a puzzled look, and look back at me.
"Why'd you like a post of me from last years Grand Prix?" He asked as we approached the gate.
"Uh no i didnt" i lied.
"Your an awful lier" He replied, continuing to walk.
Yuri gave Lilia her coffee as I sat down next to Yakov. Shortly, Yuri came back over and sat to my right. There was about an hour before our flight, so I decided to take a short nap.

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"Y/N? Get up the planes here"
I rubbed my eyes and looked over to see Yuri, Lilia, and Yakov standing in front of me. They all had their bags in their hands, I quickly got up and sluggishly grabbed mine.
They called economy boarding over the intercom and we got in line behind all the other people.
After a long wait, we finally got to board the plane.
"Yuri and Y/N, you two are sitting in front of me and yakov" Lilia said as she lifts her bags into the overhead bins. I opened the bin closest to my seat and shoved my suitcase in. I then immediately sat back down.
I fortunately had the window seat, and Yuri was on the isle.
After everyone was seated, one of the flight attendants started going over what to do during an emergency and the plane started taxiing. The flight was only about 3 hours so there was pretty much nothing to do.
After we were in the air I started to feel tired again. I reached down into my bag and pulled out a blanket and pulled it onto me. I curled up into a ball and put my earbuds in and listened to some music as I slowly drifted off to sleep.
As I started to loose consciousness my head fell to the side and rested lightly on Yuris shoulder.

After about and hour and a half I started to wake up. I rubbed my eyes, and then I realized what I was doing.
I was laying on Yuri.
My face turned bright red, he had his head slightly resting on mine while he scrolled through Instagram with the headphones on. I slowly removed my head from his shoulder and when he felt the sudden change in weight, he looked over at me.
"Good morning sleeping Beauty, you look lovely" he said sarcastically with a laugh.
I opened my phone and saw my hair in a giant mess. My face flushed red from embarrassment as I quickly re did it.
"Your so nice Yuri" I said, rolling my eyes.
"I know I am" he replied.
I huffed and leaned back into my seat and tried to open up Instagram but I forgot there was no internet. I threw my phone into my lap and looked up at the ceiling. There still an hour left in the flight and I seriously thought I was gonna die of boredom. I reached down into my bag and grabbed out a book I've been reading for a while.
As I started reading, i saw Yuri glancing at me from the corner of my eye.
"What are you reading?" He asked me.
"Harry Potter" i reply.
"Your such a nerd" he adds laughing.
I roll my eyes and go back to reading.

"Ladies and gentlemen may I have your attention please, the place will now start it's descent into Charles de Gaulle Airport"
I took my headphones out and started to pack up my things.
After everything was successfully put away I leaned back into my seat and looked out the window.
We were above the clouds and you could faintly see then remaining colors from the sunrise.
As I was staring out the window, I decided to think on some things.
The competition was two days away and I needed to win first place, most of the time the reason I don't score well is because I get nervous and rush my jumps. I need to come up with a way to not be nervous, but that's easier said than done.
When the plane finally arrived at the terminal Yuri and I got up and grabbed our luggage from the overhead bins and left the plane; Yakov and Lilia followed behind us.
"I have called an Uber to take us to our hotel" Lilia said as we made our way outside of the airport.
"Oh my god look! It's Yuri and Y/N!" I heard a girl squeal from behind me.
I turned around and gave them a friendly wave.
"You and Yuri are soooo cute together" one of the other girls squealed as she showed me something on her phone.
I could barely see what it was because of how fast we were moving, but it looked like an Instagram post.
When we got to the Uber I stared in awe at the beautiful city.
Once we got to the hotel, all the other competing skaters were there hanging out in the general area. I unfortunately didn't know too many people at this competition, except for Sara but we aren't really that close. Once we got our room key we went to the third floor and opened our room. It was a white room with two big beds, a small refrigerator next to counters with a coffee machine, and a beautiful balcony with a gorgeous view of Paris. I wheeled my suitcases over next to the bed closest to the balcony and plopped down face first into one of the pillows.
"Your still tired?" Yuri said as he put his suitcases down next to mine.
I lifted my middle finger into the air and flipped him off.
He let out a slight laugh and continued unpacking.
I got up and took out my free and short program dresses, I hung them up in a closet next to the bathroom door. I also grabbed my suitcase with my skates and stuff and shoved it in as well.
After I was done unpacking, I walked over to the balcony and sat on one of the chairs. There were two facing each other with a small black table in the middle. It was only around 11:30 ish, but the air was so much warmer than it was back in Russia. I sat and took in deep breaths of the fresh air.
"Y/N, just so you know tomorrow you and Yuri have practice ice at 1:30. After that you guys are free to do whatever" Yakov said as he opened the balcony doors.
"Alright" I replied looking back at him.
A few seconds later Yuri walks out onto the porch.
"Hey Yuri do you know what the hotel wifi is?" I ask.
"It's fourseasons310" he says as he sits down in the chair across from me.
I open my phone and type in the wifi.
As soon as I connected, my phone started blowing up with notifications.
Yuri looked over at me confused.
I opened up my phone to Instagram and saw a post of me laying on Yuris shoulder on the plane. We were both asleep and it was captioned 'OMG @Yuriplisetsky @Y/N #YuriandY/N'
Holy shit.
The post had over 25,000 likes in less than 2 hours.
I showed the post to Yuri and we both shared a look of confusion. Almost our entire fan bases thought we were dating.
"I mean it's not that bad, we can just explain that we're not dating" Yuri said, nonchalantly.
"Yea I guess your right" I replied, scratching the back of my head.
We sat in silence for a few seconds before Yuri awkwardly got up and went back inside. I took in a deep breath and rested my head on my chin, now feeling bored. I grabbed my phone out and decided to call Victor.
"Hey Y/N! What's up" he whispered as he answered the phone.
"Sorry did I call at a bad time?" I whispered in response.
"Nono it's fine...just give me a second" Victor replied as he made his way onto the balcony of what I assumed was his hotel room.
"Sorry about that Yuuri fell asleep and I didn't want to wake him" he added.
"It's fine, how was your flight to china?" I asked.
"It was fine, I don't have to ask about your flight thought" Victor said smirking.
"You saw the post?" I replied, sounding defeated.
"Yuuri was actually the one who showed it to me, but I didn't know you guys were dating" he added.
"Nononono we're not dating!" I exclaimed, my face turning red.
"Mhm.." Victor said skeptically.
"What do you mean 'Mhm..'???" I asked.
"Nothing, Nothing" he replied.
I rolled my eyes.
"Anyway I gotta go finish setting stuff up" I said.
"Alright, bye" Victor replied
"Bye" I said as I hit the hang up button.
I leaned back into my chair and and stared up at the sky. I walked back inside and scattered my makeup out on the bathroom counter.
I put my skincare and everyday makeup next to the sink, the rest of my makeup in a drawer, and my hot rollers under the sink.
I then walked out of the bedroom and layed down on the bed to pass the time.

— three hours later —

I got up from my bed and grabbed a casual red dress and walked into the bathroom. I grabbed my hot rollers from under the sink and plugged them into an outlet next to the mirror. I hung my dress on a towel rack next to the shower and sat down on the toilet. I pulled my hair back out of my face and grabbed a small mirror.
After putting on my makeup I grabbed one of the rollers and put it in my hair. I reached down to grab a clip but couldn't find any.
Shit
"Hey Yuri have you seen my roller clips?" I say in a panic.
"The bag of grey things?" He asks looking up from his phone.
"Yes" I add.
"I threw them on the floor somewhere" he said looking back down at his phone.
"I hope you kill yourself" I say as I retreat back into the bathroom.
I scavenge around on the floor until I find the bag shoved behind a metal trash can. I let out a sigh of relief and walk back to the toilet to do my hair.
After I finally got all my hair clipped up I sprayed it with hairspray and waited until it was completely set.
After it was don't I pulled out all of the clips and lightly brushed through my hair. I reached over to the towel rack and grabbed the hanger that was attached to my dress. I carefully removed the dress and slipped it on along with a pair of golden heels. I walked out of the bathroom and over to my suitcase where I pulled out a small box with my jewelry in it. I put on a gold locket, which had a picture of my mom and dad in it, and a pair of gold hoops.
I walked outside to get some fresh air, when I saw Yuri on the balcony.
He was wearing a black button down shirt with black dress pants and his hair pulled back in a ponytail.
My face burned a slight pink when I saw him dressed so elegantly.
"We're leaving soon" I stutter out as I turned around to go back inside.
Me, Yuri, Yakov, and Lilia all left the hotel room and headed to the restaurant.

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As we made our way to the restaurant, i walked beside Yuri, glancing at him occasionally. When we got to the restaurant, it was packed with people. We waited in a line for about 10 minutes before getting up to the hostess stand.
"We have a reservation under the name baranoskaya" Lilia said.
"Yes your table is ready, follow me" the hostess replied as she escorted us to our table.
It was a a circular table with a white cloth covering it. There were two chairs on each side, Yuri and I sat on the left side, Yakov and Lilia sat on the right.  I lifted up my menu and tried to read it but it was all in french, and I don't speak a lick of French.
"Yo Yuri what does this mean" I said as I pointed to a paragraph on the menu.
"Why are you reading the French side" he said, giving me a look.
"There's an English side?" I asked, slightly embarrassed.
He took the menu out of my hands, flipped it over, and gave it back to me.
"There" he replied.
"Oh" I said defeated as I read over the menu.

"Bonjour, my name is Vivianne and I will be your waiter this evening, can I get you guys anything to drink?" The waiter said with a thick French accent as she popped up infront of our table.
"I'll have a glass of Chateau Angelus red wine" Lilia says as she puts her menu down.
"Um I'll have a glass of Pinot Grigio" yakov says awkwardly.
"Can I have apple juice" Yuri says nonchalantly.
I kick his knee.
"What the fuck Yuri who orders fucking Apple Juice at a fancy French restaurant!" I whisper yell at him.
"What do you want me to order!?" He says back.
"I don't know but definitely not apple juice!" I say  as I roll my eyes.
"So apple juice or no?" The waiter says awkwardly.
"Uh yea sorry" he says, glaring at me.
"And what would you like ma'am?" The waiter asks me.
"Can I have cherry coke please?" I ask.
"Oh yea sodas so fancy Y/N that's what I should've ordered" Yuri says sarcastically.
"Shut up" I said as I kick him under the table.
"Oww" he whined as he reached down to grab his knee.
"Alright I'll be back with your drinks shortly" Vivianne says sounding slightly frightened.
I rolled my eyes as I looked back at the menu to look for something to order. I decided that I was going to get French onion soup because that was the only thing I was familiar with on the menu.
When the waiter came back with our drinks, she asked us if we were ready to order.
Lilia and yakov ordered some fancy French dish I had never heard of, Yuri got Alfredo pasta (which I hadn't seen on the menu), and I obviously got the French onion soup.

"So yuri, still confident your gonna win?" I tease.
"Yea why wouldn't I be" he says looking up at me from his phone.
"Just wondering, cuz you know I'm doing more quads than you are" I say as I take a sip of my drink.
He groans at my obvious attempts to annoy him.
"Also where did the find the Alfredo?" I add.
"In the pasta section?" He says with a snarky tone.
"Oh" I replied.

Around 20 minutes later the waiter comes back with our food.
"Does everything look ok?" She said after she placed down everyone food.
"It look great thank you" yakov says politely.
"Great I'll be back to check on your guys in a little" She adds as she walks away.

I ate some of my soup, and then looked over at Yuri.
"Yuri that smells really good, can I have some?" I say as I lean over towards him.
His face slightly reddens.
"ew no get your nasty face out of my food your gonna infect it" he said, pushing me away.
"Oh Yuri you suck" I say, annoyed.
I slightly gasp.
"What's wrong?" He asks.
"Oh my god Yuri look at that!" I say as I point to across the restaurant.
As he looks over I lean in and take some of his pasta, however he whips back and my face flies straight into his food.
I lift up my head, which is now covered in sauce, and wipe my eyes.
Yuri bursts out laughing.
"I hate you so much Yuri" i say, half joking.
I excuse myself to the bathroom, which is extremely fancy.
The lights are dimmed, and the walls look like they're straight out of Versailles.
I walk over to the mirror, and grab a crap ton of paper towels.
I wiped down my face first, then my hair.
The top of my head was completely slicked down with water so I pulled it back into a ponytail. I grabbed my handbag and pulled out my mascara, eyeliner, blush, and lipgloss. When I started doing my makeup, I heard someone open the door.
I look in the mirror and see Yuri standing in the bathroom with his eyes covered.
"Yuri it's just me in here, you don't have to cover your eyes" I said.
He removed his hand and looked at me.
"U-uhm I just wanted to say sorry for laughing, even though it was funny" Yuri said as he walked over towards me.
I face back to the mirror and re apply my mascara.
"It's fine I was being stupid, you don't need to apologize" I say with a  laugh.
He laughs.
As I reapply my makeup, I can feel his gaze upon me. My cheeks blush red as I try not to look at him.
When I finished I turned to look at him and he looked back at me.
I could tell he was trying to repress the blush on his cheeks.
"There's something in your hair" he says as he laughs hysterically.
My face goes completely red from embarrassment.
"Here I got it" he says as he reaches back and grabs a couple paper towels from the dispenser.
I looked deep into his eyes, almost in a trance as he gently cupped the side of my face with his left hand and carefully got some sauce out of my hair with his right.
I could feel my heart rate increase within seconds.
He turns around to throw away the paper towel and I'm still completely dazed.
"Are you ok?" Yuri says as his face flushes an even deeper shade of pink.
"Yeah I'm fine" I reply as I snap back to reality.
"You ready to go back?" He asks.
"Yea" i add as I make my way to the door.
We walked outside of the bathroom together, which earned many looks of disapproval from nearby older couples.
"Hey Yuri do you think those older couples would believe me if I told them you were a girl" I say through repressed laughter.
He rolls his eyes and pushes me forward.
"Owww" I say as I rub my back.
He lets out a smug huff in response.

"I got the dessert menu from the waiter if you would like to look at it" Lilia says and we sit down across from her.
I picked up the menu, and Yuri leaned over my shoulder so he could see it too. His face was incredibly close to mine and I could feel the warmth of his body on my own.
I struggled to keep my eyes on the menu.
I read through and everything looked really good. there were fresh croissants, macarons, hot chocolate, every sweet French delicacy.
But I wasn't hungry, I didn't even want to eat my soup that was not starting to get cold from the time I was in the bathroom.
My stomach felt queasy like I was gonna be sick, but I knew I wasn't. I couldn't get my heart to stop racing, and I could tell my face was red. I took a sip of my coke and went on my phone, praying it would distract me enough to the point where I can normally function again.

Yuri ended up not getting anything and eating his pasta, which I though was absolutely disgusting because my entire head was in it, but whatever.  Lilia asked the waiter for the check and we headed on our way back to the hotel.
When we arrived, I was exhausted. I threw off my  heels and grabbed a pair off pajamas from my suitcase.
"I'm going to shower" I said with a yawn.
I walked into the bathroom and started the shower.
I looked into the mirror and pulled out my hair tie. The top of my head was completely slicked down, and the bottom was sticking out.
I physically cringed at the sight.
When I stepped into the shower I immediately started washing my hair to try and get the cheese out of my hair. After that I washed my body and got out. I put my pajamas on and sat down on the toilet for my nightly routine. I did my skincare like usual, but it didn't feel usual.
Something was wrong.
I couldn't say what it was even if I wanted too, something just felt different.
It wasn't necessarily a bad feeling, it was just different.

When I finished my skincare I went back into the main area of the room and plopped down on my bed.

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"Get up we have practice" a voice said as my eyes flickered open.
When my vision fully cleared I saw Yuri standing above me with two cups of coffee, one in each hand.
"I got you coffee" he said nonchalantly as he placed the cup in his right hand down on the nightstand next to me.
"Thanks" I say as I sit up.

"Hey Yuri where did you sleep?" I asked as I sipped on my coffee.
"On the floor" he replied as he sat down on the bed across from me.
"Why" I asked "i can't imagine that being comfortable".
"Because im sure as hell not sleeping next to you" he spat.
"What's so bad about sleeping next to me?" I replied, annoyed.
"You kick in your sleep, you take up the entire bed, and you snore" he added.
I rolled my eyes and took another sip of coffee.
I got up and walked over to my phone which was plugged in next to my suitcase.
The time was 10:30.
I usually don't sleep in this late..I guess I was jet legged.
I pulled out a pair of black leggings and a black long sleeve shirt. I walked over to the bathroom and went in to change. I brushed out my hair and pulled it back into a ponytail and threw on a headband to keep the flyaways at bay.
I did my skincare and makeup and then walked out to put on my sneakers.

Tomorrows the short program which means I really have to work today.
I did some basic stretches on the floor to warm up and after I was done I sat down on the bed again to scroll on Instagram.

Bzzz Bzzzz

**Incoming call from Mila <3**

I quickly accepted the call and stood up to make my way onto the balcony.

"Heyy!! How's France?" She says as enthusiastically as ever.
"It's really nice! The restaurants are soooo fancy" I say as I sit down in one of the chairs.
"Omg I'm so jelly I wish I got to go to France" she adds.
I laugh.
"Anyways, I saw the post of you and Yuri. Was I right? Do you have the hots for him?" She asked with a laugh.
I looked around to make sure he wasn't in earshot.
"No I don't it was just some crazed fan jumping to conclusions" I reply as my face burns red.
"Was she really jumping tho? I mean If I saw that that's what I would've thought" she adds.
"I don't like him." I say firmly.
"Alright alright, but I'm keeping my eye on you two" She laughs.
I roll my eyes with a smile.
"Anyway I've gotta get going, since yakov and Lilia are both there with you guys I'm stuck here with my bitchy choreographer who keeps yelling at me for checking my phone on break" she huffs.
"Alright I'll see you later" I laugh as she hangs up the call.
I walk back Inside and I see yakov, Yuri, and Lilia about to walk out the door.
"Where are you guys going practice ice isn't until 1:30?" I ask.
"I rented out one of their ballet room so I can condition the both of you." Lilia says as she zips up her coat.
Ugh.
I roll my eyes and grab my skating bag and coffee as they start to exit the room.
I run out of the room and over to the elevator where they all stood. The door opened and we all got in, Lilia pushed the button for the ground floor and we started to descend. I took a sip of my coffee and leaned against the wall as we moved.
When the doors opened we walked outside and onto the bustling street. There was a black car sitting on the side of the road and Lilia and yakov climbed into the front seats.
"When did you guys get this?" I ask.
"While you were sleeping" Yuri replies as he climbs into the seat next to me.
As Lilia started driving, I looked at the beautiful stores and bakery's along the street.
"Hey Yuri we should totally go out and shop after this!!" I say enthusiastically as I look over at him.
"Sure" he said not looking up from his phone.

When we got to the rink I grabbed by stuff and walked in. It was much bigger then the rink I usually practice at, it had four rinks, a full sized gym, and multiple ballet rooms. Lilia asked the receptionist guy where to go and he said to the fourth floor.
We walked up the many flights of stairs and went into one of the ballet rooms.
Lilia unpacked her stuff and Yuri and I got to stretching.
"Alright, today we will only be doing minor conditioning because I don't want to overwork your bodies before tomorrow, however you will still be going through your program choreography and jumps" Lilia says as we finish warming up.
"Y/N, you first" She added.
I groaned and walked over the the center of the room and took my starting position.
I started my program, and every time I messed up she made me restart.
By the time I did It fully correctly I was bent over panting from exhaustion.
"A-am I huff done yet?" I said as I tried to catch my breath.
"Yes, that was good enough. Yuri your up next."
Lilia said dismissively.
He groaned and walked over to the center of the floor.
I sat down in the corner of the studio with my bag and pulled out my water bottle. Through my chugging, I watch Yuri go through the same torture I had endured. However, every time Lilia said something he would retaliate which made her make him redo the program more times. I laughed at his antics from the corner, and in response he gave me a bitchy glare.
I watched him as he danced through his program, he was a very elegant dancer.

I know I will have to put up a fight to win more medals than him, but humbling him in the slightest is definitely worth it.

I put down my water bottle and slid into an elevated split so Lilia couldn't complain I was slacking off. I grabbed my phone and took a picture of Yuri angrily dancing and posted it on Instagram with the caption "training! 🤍 @yuriplisetsky" and posted it.
I knew damn well he would flip out would he saw it, but it was just too funny.
After Yuri finished his program Lilia had us run through jumps, mostly the quads and triples because those were worth the most. By the time we finished that, we had about 5 minutes until our practice ice. Still in the ballet room, me and Yuri laced up our skates. We then headed down to the first floor and walked into one of the rinks.
"You two head out, we will be there in a minute" Lilia said.
Yuri and I stepped out onto the ice and stroked around to get a feel for the area. I did some single jumps to warm up, and then Lilia an yakov came onto the ice.
"Y/N you will be entering from over here and you will be facing that wall when you start your program" Lilia said as she pointed to the wall at the end of the rink.
"Go get in position, we'll run through your short program first" she added as she skated off to the side.
I skated to the center of the ice, facing the wall she pointed too. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Yuri skate off the ice and sit down on the fancy bleachers.
Lilia suddenly turned on the music and I started skating. I did my opening and then went straight into my jumps, which i landed almost perfectly. On my quad lutz I had 1/4 of a pre rotation which I didn't realize until Lilia yelled at me for after. I did some combo spins and then finished my program. I took my final position, huffing and panting out of breath.
I heard clapping from someone on the side.
I looked over to see yakov sitting next to Yuri clapping like he just watched the worlds greatest movie.
Yuri, however had his head sitting atop his hand and was scrolling on his phone.
I was kinda disappointed he didn't see.
"Alright you can go take a break, but tell Yuri to get on the ice when you get over there" Lilia said.
I skates off and threw my guards on over my blades so I wouldn't damage them on the metal bleachers.
"Hey Yuri, Lilia wants you on the ice" I say as I approach him.
"Alright" he says as he places his phone down.
I watched him as he slid on his gloves and fixed his ponytail. He got up and walked away, paying no attention to me. I sat down in his spot and was immediately met with boredom.
Out of curiosity, I picked up his phone.
I opened to his Lock Screen and saw messages from "Grandpa ❤️" and "Otabek 😎" but as I scrolled I saw multiple messages from "Mila 🖕" sent to him about 5 minutes ago.
I guessed at his password, but ended up shutting his phone down for 2 minutes. Then I had the genius idea to pull up a photo of him and use Face ID. I opened up my phone and scrolled onto his Instagram and pulled up a photo he posted while we were shopping at the mall. I held it up to the camera on his phone and surprisingly, it worked. I tapped on Mila's messages and the blood drained from my face when I read them
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Mila 🖕
Mila🖕
Dude just ask her out already!

Me
Are you kidding me? she'd never say yes

Mila 🖕
Shes literally your biggest fan why the hell would she say no?

Me
She's not my biggest fan

Mila🖕
Yea I'm pretty sure she is

Me
Regardless I'm not doing it

Mila 🖕
You suck

Me
🖕🖕🖕
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I stared in shock as I read through the messages. Who was this fan he wanted to ask out? And why didn't he tell me? I turned off his phone and slammed it down against the bleachers. I felt a burning betrayal in my stomach.
Why hadn't he told me?
I angrily stood up and walked off to the bathroom.
As I got down to the last step on the bleachers Yuri came walking off the ice.
"Hey Y/N did you see that I landed all my quads perfectly, you better be really to lose tomorrow" he said confidently as he wiped the snow off his blades.
"Ecstatic" I replied with a depressed tone as I passed him by.
He stopped wiping and watched me as I walked away. I didn't care, I just wanted to be far away from everyone. I walked into the women's bathroom next to the stairs and locked myself in one of the stalls. I pulled out my phone and dialed milas number.
"Hello?" She said as she picked up her phone.
"Who does Yuri want to ask out" I say sternly.
"W-what are you- I can't tell you that's that's private!" She exclaims "And how did you even know that Yuri wanted to ask someone out?".
"I went on his phone while he was running through his program and saw messages from you" I said as I shrunk down the wall.
"Look Y/N I'm really sorry but it's not my place to say anything..but don't pester Yuri about it, he's been really stressed because of it" she adds.
"I've gotta go, I'll call you later" she says as she hangs up the phone.
I lower the phone from my ear and onto the floor. I was overwhelmed by a million different emotions that nothing felt real. The world felt like it was crumbling from the inside out.
I felt a single tear shed from my eye.
I wiped it away as I sniffled and picked my phone up off the floor. I feel bad for Yuri, he dosent deserve to be stressed about asking a girl out, but I just don't understand why he wouldn't tell me.

I felt my phone vibrate and light up with a notification
"New message from: Yurio 😾"
The message read: "you ok?"
I unlocked my phone and quickly replied with "yea I'm fine, just felt sick".
I stood up off the floor and walked out of the stall. I looked at myself in the mirror and wiped away my slightly smudged mascara.
I walked out of the bathroom and over to the ice, where Lilia was standing.
"Where were you?" She said sternly as I walked onto the ice.
"In the bathroom, I wasn't feeling good" I stutter out.
"Well I hope your feeling better now because you need to run through your free program" she adds.
"Yea alright"

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I skated into the middle of the rink and took my starting position like usual.
It wasn't usual.
I heard the music start but I didn't feel like moving.
Against my will, I started my program.
I moved along with the music like I was on autopilot, not really thinking about the way I moved, just moving.
Thankfully my free program was more melodramatic than my short so no one really noticed I was actually upset. I went through my jumps and spins with ease, not really realizing I was doing them. When I finished the program I huffed and took my final position.
I looked around as I gasped for air.
I skated over to Lilia who was at a loss for words, which scared me because that usually wasn't a good thing.
"I'm sorry, I haven't been feeling very good" I say as I lean against the wall of the rink, trying to catch my breath.
"...No Y/N that was..beautiful" she says as if she were in shock.
...
"..really?" I reply as I feel the mood slightly lighten.
"If I were judging that, I would've scored you in the hundreds" she said smiling at me.
"I'm proud of you"
I could feel my eyes start to tear up as I smiled back at her.
She put her arm on my shoulder and told me that I deserved a break.
I skated off the ice with a smile on my face, completely forgetting about Yuris mystery crush.
When I stepped into the rubber flooring I saw Yuri standing at the entrance of the rink.
His face was slightly pink and I could see tears welling in his eyes.
"Are you alright..?" I ask, slightly tilting my head to the right.
"Psssht! I'm fine, out of my way I have a program to complete" he said avoiding my gaze.
As he walked by me I turned around and watched him skate into the rink with a confused look on my face.
I slid my guards on over my blades and walked over to my bag, which was on the bleachers. I grabbed out a snack and sat down.
The music for yuris free program started and i grabbed out my phone to pass the time.
I scrolled on instagram for the few minutes he was skating and when he was done, I walked off the bleachers and onto the floor.
Lilia and Yuri met me at the entrance to the rink.
"Both of your programs today were pretty good. I'm very proud of how hard you've worked up until this point.
However, that doesn't mean you get to stop so I am expecting this and above at tomorrows short program" Lilia sternly said as she slid her gloves off her slim hands and shoving them into her pocket.
"Also the two of you need things to wear to the gala at the end of the series, so while we're in Paris I suggest you do that" she added.
Yakov came down off the bleachers, carrying my things, and stood next to Lilia.
Lilia sighs loudly and then says "you will not have a budget on your attire to the gala, but if anything else is bought using my credit card it will be returned. Immediately."
"Do you understand?" She says with a serious tone.
"Yes" me and Yuri say in unison.
We walked out of the rink and out to the parking lot. Lilia started the car and we all got in.
She drove us back to the hotel and when we got inside I changed out of my skating clothes and put on a nice outfit to go shopping in. While I was in the bathroom I remembered the texts between Mila and Yuri and my heart sank again.
I couldn't really do anything with my feelings, if I asked Yuri about it he'd know I read his texts and I'd never hear the end of it, and Mila wouldnt be any help either. I groaned and threw my head back in frustration and sorrow. I took in a deep breath, and continued getting ready.
I changed my clothes and walked out of the bathroom to see Yuri waiting for me.
He was wearing cargo pants and a sweatshirt, both of which we had bought together at the mall.
"You ready?" He asks nonchalantly.
"Oh um yeah" I awkwardly stutter out.
He opens up the door and we walk down the hotel hallway to the elevator.
"Do you have Lilia's Card?" I ask, looking over at him.
"Yea, I grabbed it before you came out of the bathroom" he replies, hitting the button to call the elevator.
When the doors open, we simultaneously step inside.
I stood in the corner, next to Yuri who was on his phone.
I took in a breath, and got a whiff of Yuris cologne.
He smelled good, like a weirdly comforting kind of good.
I felt my face heat up, but luckily the elevator doors opened before Yuri could notice.
We walked out of the hotel and outside onto the street.
"Do you know where we're going?" I say.
"Yea, there's a popular mall nearby that has a lot of places we can look in" he adds, looking over at me.
"Cool" I reply awkwardly.
There was an awkward silence.
"What was that today" Yuri asks.
"Huh" I reply confused.
"When you were in the bathroom" he adds.
He looks at me out of the corner over his eye.
I felt my face go white.
what was I supposed to tell him? "Oh yea I was snooping through your phone and I found out you liked a girl and didn't tell me!".
"Like I said I..wasn't feeling good" I say as I avoid his gaze.
"Y/N I've said this before, you're an awful liar" he replies.
"Tell me what really happened"
"I told you what happened Yuri, drop it" I say with a sudden change of tone.
There was a strange beat of silence before he spoke again.
"Fine" he replied with a fake nonchalant attitude.
I watched with regret as he looked away from me, his gaze hardening on the ground.
I swallowed hard and took out my phone.
I tried to forget the conversation, but the guilt eventually got to me.
"I'm sorry Yuri, I didn't mean it to come off like that It's just..personal" I say as I look up at him.
He looks back down at me.
"It's fine, I get it" he replies, his face relaxing.

A few minutes later we approached the mall. Yuri reached for the door and held it open so I could enter.
"Thanks" i quietly said.
We walked down the hallway until we approached a bridal store.
"You wanna go in here?" I asked.
"Sure" he replied while sliding his phone into his back pocket.
We walked into the store and saw thousands of dresses and suits.
Yuri and I decided to split up and grab a few things we liked, and then meet up again at the dressing rooms.
I walked over to the area titled 'dresses'
And began my search there.
I grabbed a dark blue poofy floor length dress, a mid length satin black dress, and a wine red dress that was also floor length.
I walked over to the fitting room area and saw Yuri sitting down on a bench.
He looked up and saw me.
"I've been texting you for the past 20 minutes" Yuri says, obviously annoyed.
"Oh I wasn't paying attention...sorry" I say awkwardly.
He groans in response.
"I got us a room" he adds pointing to the door infront of him.
"Who's going first?" I ask.
"Do you wanna go first?" he says.
"Sure" I reply pushing open the door.
I locked it behind me and hung the dresses up on the wall.
I first grabbed the dark blue dress first and slipped it on.
I unlocked the door and walked out.
"What do you think?" I asked Yuri.
He looked me up and down.
"I think you look like a princess" he replied.
"In a good way or a bad way?" I added with a smile.
"Both I guess" he shrugged.
I laughed a little and spun around in the dress.
"I certainly feel like a princess...but I think it's a little much" I say as I lift up a little bit of the fabric on the skirt.
I walked back into the fitting room and took off the dress.
I grabbed the black satin dress and quickly put it on.
I looked in the mirror, the dress was extremely pretty. it was fitted around my body but left just enough room to move comfortably.  I once again unlocked the door and walked back out to the waiting area. "what do you think of this one?" I ask.
he looks up from his phone and scans the scene Infront of him.
his breath slightly hitched before he spoke, "it looks fine I guess".
"what do you mean fine, like fine as 'in meh it looks fine' or fine as 'in yea it looks fine!'"  I add.
"I don't know, I guess the second one" he says awkwardly.
I roll my eyes and retreat back into the room.
I slid off the black dress and hug it back onto the wall. I then grabbed the last dress, a wine red dress that was fitted along the torse, but flared at the bottom.
I zipped up the back and left the room again.
"Alright last one, what do you think" I say.
"It looks ok" he said nonchalantly.
"You're no help" I retort, making a face.
"I liked the last one more" he says, gaze returning to his phone.
"Do you think I should get that one?" I add.
"I guess" he replies.
I walk back into the room and take off the dress.
I slip the dress onto its hanger and grab the other two dresses and walk out.
"its all yours" I say sitting down next to yuri.
he grabs the pile of suits next to him and walks into the changing room.
i open my phone and scroll on instagram for a few minutes until yuri returned,
when he came out he was wearing a white suit, with a black tie.
"well?" he says after a few moments of silence.
"uhhh it looks fine i guess" I reply, mocking him.
he scoffs and turns around to go back into the room.
"it looks nice, but it kinda washes you out" i add.
"whats that supposed to mean?" he retorts.
"im just saying i think you should go with a different color, but if you like it then I dont really care" I reply.
he rolls his eyes and goes into the fitting room to change.
a few moments later he returns wearing a plain black and white suit.
"that one looks nice" I say, inspecting him.
"I feel like I look too boring" he complains.
"then go put on something more interesting" I reply.
the last suit he comes out wearing is a gorgeous red suit with a red tie, and black button of shirt.
I watched as he emerged from the room, my cheeks starting to turn a slight shade of pink.
"whats wrong" Yuri says, snapping me out of my trance.
"N-nothing im fine! you look really nice Yuri, i think you should go with that one" i say awkwardly.
his cheeks pinkened and lips ever so slightly curled into a smile.
he turned around and walked back into the changing room without a word.
when he came back out , he was back in his normal clothes and carrying the pile of suits.
"done?" I ask.
"yea" he replies.
I walked back to the dress area and hung up the dresses I wasnt going to buy, and then met up with yuri at the cash register.

"did you guys find everything ok?" the lady asks as she rings up our stuff.
"yup!" i cheerfully say.
"alright, your total is 709.57" she adds.
yuri pulls out the card from his pocket and proceeds to purchase our clothes for the gala.
"have a nice day!" the lady says, handing us our stuff now put into pink bags with white tissue paper.
"you too!" i reply, grabbing the bags.
i handed Yuri's to him and we walked out of the store.

we walked around the mall for a little, until a cafe caught my eye.
"Yuri!! look at that café we should get something to eat!" i say excitedly.
''do i have to" he complains.
"absolutely!" i reply, grabbing his arm and dragging him into the restaurant.
I opened the door and we sat down at a two person table next to one of the windows.
I picked up the menu and began to read it.
"make sure you read the english side this time" he says with a sly smile.
"i hate you" i say reply rolling my eyes.
"hate you too" he adds with a smile.

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"What are you gonna get?" I asked him with a smile.
"I don't know, maybe like a latte ?" He said as he picked up his menu.
"I'm gonna get a hot chocolate" I added happily.
"You're such a child" he replied lightheartedly.
I rolled my eyes.
Soon a waiter came by and took our orders.
"You excited for the short program tomorrow?" I asked him, resting my head on my hand.
"I'm excited to score higher than you" he laughed.
"Yea in your dreams asshole"
"But to be honest I'm a little nervous, I really wanna have a good start to the season" I add.
"I'm sure you'll do fine, but obviously not as good as me" he replies.
"Is everything you say backhanded" I say.
"I can't help but say the truth" he adds with a cocky smile.
"Here you guys go!" The waiter says as she places down our drinks down on the table.

"Thank you!" I say as she turns to walk away.
I lift up the hot chocolate and lightly blow to cool it off.

Ding!

I heard the message notification come from yuris phone.
I watched as he picked it up and start rapidly typing.
"Who ya texting?" I ask.
"Nobody" he says coldly.
Could that be her? The girl he wants to ask out?
I quickly shut my mouth after the realization.
I took a sip of my hot chocolate, but it burnt my tongue.
"Shit" I whispered as I covered my mouth.
"What happened?" He asks looking at me from behind his phone.
"Nothing I’m fine” I replied, my voice monotone.
My expression sank, and I sat swirling the small spoon in my hot chocolate until Yuri finished texting.
"Ugh" he groaned as he dropped his phone onto the table.
"Whats wrong?" I asked noticing the sudden change of mood.
"Nothing" he said as he rested his palm on his forehead.

I decided not to pry, mostly because I didn't wanna hear Yuri talk about some other girl, but also because I really didn't know what to say.
"Why don't we head back, it's getting kinda late" I suggested as I put my hand on his, plastering a fake smile on my face.
"Yea..we should get going" he said as he quickly slid his hand away from mine, his face now a light shade of pink.
I pulled a few Euros out of my bag and walked up to the register with Yuri.
"Here" I said as I handed the waitress the money.
"Thank you, come again!" She said as we turned to leave.
We stepped out of the café and started walking back down the steps of the mall.
The entire time we were walking back to the hotel it was silent. Occasionally Yuri would get a text notification but other than that no words were shared.

When we reached the hotel we knocked on our room and Lilia quickly opened the door.
"You guys were out way too late! If the two of you perform badly at the short program tomorrow because you're tired you will be in serious trouble!” she lectured as we stepped through the door.
I walked over to my suitcase and pulled out a pair of silk pajamas, which I only wear before competitions.
I walked into the bathroom to change. I quickly slipped out of my clothes and into the new ones.
I sat down on the toilet like usual and wiped off my makeup. I put on a face mask and walked out of the bathroom and plopped down onto my bed. I was both mentally and physically exhausted, I plugged my phone in next to my suitcase and immediately fell asleep.

beep beep

my alarm clock buzzed in my ear. I sluggishly rolled over and yanked my phone off the charger to checked the time.
'7:30 AM'
I scoffed and sat up on my bed.
I looked over and saw Yuri eating at the small table in the corner of the room, Lilia and yakov no where to be found.
"..where are Lilia and Yakov?" I ask, my voice raspy.
"They went to go pick up some stuff" he replied, shoving a spoonful of cereal into his mouth.

I unlocked my phone and took in a deep breath.
Today marks the first competition of the series, and the first chance I have at getting a lead in the bet.
Yuri competes before me, so at least I'll have an idea of what I'll have to beat before I go on.
I walked into the bathroom and lathered my face in cleanser, like I did every morning.
While I was rinsing my face in the sink I heard the hotel door open and slam shut.
Lilia and yakov were back.
I walked out of the bathroom and saw them placing food onto the table yuri was sitting at.
"What is this shit" Yuri said as he picked up one of the containers.
"It's a yogurt parfait, and do not use such foul language with me" Lilia scolded.
I sat down across from Yuri and grabbed one of the yogurts.
I took off the plastic lid and shoved a big spoonful into my mouth.
"What's it taste like" Yuri asks, giving me a confused look.
"Vanilla yogurt, granola, and berries?" I reply giving him a look.
As soon as I finish my sentence he takes the spoon out of his cereal and takes a spoonful of my yogurt and huffs it down.
"What the fuck Yuri!" I hissed.
"I just wanted to try it" he adds rolling his eyes.
"Well now your spit is in my yogurt!" I exclaim.
"You'll live" he replied, slouching back in his chair.
I grabbed a paper towel and scooped up any part of yogurt he might’ve touched.
“Yuck” I thought as I threw the towel into the trash.
After I finished my yogurt I started to get ready for the competition.
I walked over to the tiny closet in the corner of the room and grabbed out my short program dress. It was red with lots of black lace and jeweling.
I snatched up the dress and a of a pair of tan fleece tights. i stepped into the bathroom and slid on the clothes. I started brushing out my hair, and then slicking it back into a tight bun.
I opened the drawer connected to the sink and pulled out my makeup bag. I layered on primer, foundation, concealer, contour, and blush and then dusted my eyes with a black eyeshadow.
I drew on a sharp wing of eyeliner and then lightly dusted my face with glittery setting spray.
I unlocked the door to the bathroom and walked out.
"What took you so long" Yuri whines.
"I was getting ready??" I reply matter-of-factly.
"I could never spend that much time getting ready" he adds as he passes me, entering the bathroom.
"Yea don't worry we can tell" I scoff.
He huffs and angrily slams the door.
"I HATE YOU" He yells from inside the room.
"The feelings mutual" I reply, making my way over to my suitcase.
I pulled out my team jacket, which was red, white, and blue and had 'RUSSIA' spelled out across the front.
I unzipped the front and layered it over my dress.
It covered almost the entirety of dress, only leaving the skirt showing.
I plopped down onto my bed and scrolled on my phone for the time being.
About five minutes later I heard the bathroom door creek open.
Yuri stepped out of the room wearing a black, almost suit like outfit with a fancy desgin on the sleeves and chest.
He had his hair fully slicked back into a ponytail, and I won't lie, he didnt look awful.
I turned my attention back onto my phone and saw a new message from Mila appear on my screen.
My heart sank, as memories from yesterday came flooding back in.
I took in a deep breath and pressed on the message.

"Good luck today"

The message read.

"Thanks”

I replied as I quickly exited out of the conversation.
I sighed and threw my head back onto my pillow.
"Y/N were leaving soon"
I looked down at my phone and saw the time was 12:30.
I quickly sprung up from the bed and slid on my sneakers.
I grabbed my bag and put on my headphones and waited until everyone was ready to leave.
Lilia lead the way out of the room, as Yakov, Yuri, and I followed out.
When we reached the car I hopped into the back and Yuri sat next to me like he always did.

Lilia parked the car in the section reserved for the competitors and we entered through the back doors of the rink.
"Names please" a lady sitting at a plastic table said sternly.
"Yuri plisetsky and Y/N L/N" Lilia spoke.
"Your all checked in" she said, allowing us to enter.
The rink looked different than it did yesterday, it felt bigger, more intimidating. I gulped and walked over to the stairs leading to the ballet rooms.
I opened the door to the room and tossed down my bag and started warming up.
"Make sure you two stretch and run through your programs on the floor, I have to go and check myself in. Behave." Lilia said as she made a swift exit from the room.
I sat down on the floor and started stretching.
I could feel the pressure starting to get to me, my heart was beating out of my chest and I could feel my stomach in my ass.

"Are you ok?" Yuri asks.

"Huh" I say as I snap back to reality.

"Are you ok?" He repeats.
"Oh yea I'm fine" I say, exhaling my breath.
"You suck at lying, what's wrong" he says, sitting down across from me.
"I'm just nervous...It's the first competition and I don’t wanna mess it up” I reply.
“if it goes wrong you still have time to turn it around" he says as he slides into a split.
"Yea I guess, but there's just so many people.." I add, as I stretch my straddle.
"those people don't matter, who gives a shit about them. I'm the only one who you should listen to" he says as he scoffs.
"And why should I do that?" I reply with a laugh.
"Because I said so?" He adds as he rolls his eyes.

We continued stretching in silence until Lilia came back from registration.

Lilia groaned as she entered the room.
"Why can't anyone do their job I mean does it really take you 15 minutes to check my damn papers. I have skaters to prepare!" She yells.

Yuri and I look at each other in confusion.

"I trust the two of you are stretched because I cannot deal with anymore incompetence today" Lilia said as she sat down in a plastic chair near the corner of the room.
I nodded.
"Good. Y/N run through your program. please." she added as she rubbed her temples in frustration.
I got up from the floor and got into position.

Performing for Lilia and Yuri was a breeze, they watch my programs all the time. But would I be able to perform the same infront of hundreds of people?

I heard the speakers click just before my music started.

I took in a sharp breath and began my program.

I huffed as I took my final position.
I looked over to Lilia, to see her reaction.

"Not bad, however you're missing that emotion from the other day. You need to resurface that to win" she bluntly said.

But I didn't want to think about that, hell I was avoiding it like the plague.
I just nodded and sat down.
She called Yuri to start his program and I took a sip of my water.
I don't even know how i would feel that again, I mean it was kindve an 'in the moment' thing.
But I had to do it regardless, because I need to win no matter what.

Before I knew it, it was time for the men's short program. I sat on the bleachers next to yakov, Lilia was somewhere with Yuri getting him ready.
Around 30 minutes go by and we're almost finished with group one.
I watched as the last person skated, I felt a twinge of anxiety knowing Yuri was in the next group.
And that I was competing in about an hour.
The Zamboni cleared the ice, and I saw Yuri and Lilia enter the main area out of the corner of my eye.
"Group 2s warm up starts now, you have 7 minutes." A lady said over the loudspeaker.
I watched as Yuri stepped onto the ice and skated around the perimeter. As he started warming up his jumps, I felt myself grow anxious.
I leaned back in my chair and took a breath.
After the seven minutes were up, the first person in group two started his program.

The programs flew by and before I knew it, it was Yuris turn to skate.
I watched as he unzipped his jacket and handed it to Lilia.
She leaned into his ear and whispered something.
He looked like he'd seen a ghost, but gave lilia a slight nod before he was interrupted by the announcer.
"Representing Russia, here is Yuri Plisetsky!" The lady said as Yuri skated towards the center of the ice.
My heart was beating out of my chest as the arena fell silent.
The moments before the music started were always the worst.
All of a sudden, the speakers flick on and the music started.
I watched as he skated, my breath hitching on every turn and jump.
He looked abnormally nervous.
I'd seen him get anxious before competing, but never during his actual program.
I wonder what Lilia said.
But on the bright side, he looked really into the music. Like you could feel it radiating off of him, which was also not normal.
As he took his final position the crowd erupted into applause.
I clapped as Yakov stood up to go meet him and Lilia at the kiss and cry.
On one of the TVs I saw him pop up. He was drenched in sweat and had a cat plushie in his lap. Lilia was talking to him, but once again I couldn't tell what she was saying.
"And now the score for Yuri Plisetsky" the announcer said.

I gulped and stared at the screen.

"98.75"

He shrugged and made a face at the average score.
I mean average for him at least.
On another note, how the hell am I supposed to beat that!
I groaned and slapped my face.
Moments later Lilia, Yakov, and Yuri came back and sat down on the bleachers with me.
"Have fun beating that" Yuri teased.
"Psssht I could beat that in my sleep" I replied, rolling my eyes with false confidence.
"Yea ok, I'd like to see you try" he added leaning towards me.
"Fine! I'll put your shitty score to shame!" I replied angrily, also leaning towards him.
"That's enough! you two are so immature!" Lilia scolded.
I huffed and slouched back into my seat.
"Y/N we need to start stretching. You're up third in the second group" Lilia adds getting up from her seat.
"Alright..." I sighed as I stood up and followed her off the bleachers.
We walked into an iscolated area behind the rink.
I stretched out my splits and warmed up my jumps.
Before I knew it, the first group was done and I had to get out on the ice soon.
"Y/N..whatever happened the other day I need it to happend again" she said as she walked me out to the ice.
"Group 2s warm up starts now, you have seven minutes" the lady says once again.
I stepped onto the ice and skated around the perimeter. I started working on my jumps, feeling the ice once again.
I wasnt happy with Lilia's comment, but I trust she knows what she's talking about.
I knew what I had to do.
After I got off the ice, and moments before I went on for my program, I grabbed my phone and re-read the messages.
They seemed more real than ever before, maybe it was the adrenaline, maybe it was the anxiety, but I have never felt something so strong in my life.
"Good luck" Lilia whispered in my ear as I stepped out onto the ice.
"Representing Russia, here is Y/N L/N!" The announcer spoke as i stepped onto the ice.

People clapped from all around the stadium, but I really felt nothing from it.

My breathing was erratic and my heart was pounding as the music started.

Then I found myself in a state of nothingness.
I felt light and calm as I continued through my program, the music guiding me along the ice. I felt slightly uncomfortable with how calm I was, given the intense state I had found myself in moments before.
I landed all of my jumps and as I took my final steps in the program the crowd erupted into cheers.
I relaxed out of my final pose and skated off the ice.
"That was almost perfection Y/N, you did well" Lilia said with a slight smile.
I smiled back and walked towards the kiss and cry.
"Wow I'm surprised you didn't shit your pants out there" a way too familiar voice said behind me.
"You're such a comedian Yuri" I reply with an eye roll.
I step onto the kiss and cry platform and sit next to Yakov, who had the same cat plushie with him from earlier.
I held my breath as I waited for the scores
"And the score for Y/N L/N...94.01"
The crowd cheered and I pulled Yakov into a big hug.
"A new personal best!" He says happily.
I get up and walk over to Yuri.
"Guess who just scored a new personal best!" I rub in his face.
"And yet your personal best isn't even close to my average score" he scoffs.
"Whatever, I'm still winning because I'm in first and you're in third!" I laugh.
"We'll see where you place after the free skate loser" he adds as he sticks his tongue out at me.
"You're disgusting" I laugh.

Chapter Text

On the way back from the rink, I was giddy with excitement.
However, Yuri didn't look too happy.
I watched awkwardly as he scowled in the silent car.
"Hey Yuri...you did really well today," I said, breaking the deafening silence.
He dosent reply.
"..Yuri?" I add.
"Yeah, whatever." He finally says, his voice cold.
My once-happy expression falls as I look away from him.
As we continue on our way back to the hotel, I sneak glances at him every once in a while.
He's always on his phone with the same solemn expression on his face.
Sometimes he'll be typing, sometimes he's just looking out the window with it face down until he gets a notification. Then the cycle repeats.
I pull my phone out of my pocket and open it to thousands of messages congratulating me on my score.
It was a bittersweet moment, I was so happy about my score..but I also felt bad about Yuri..but I also didn't care because I was winning.
I swallowed my empathy and decided to allow myself to be happy, regardless of how he was feeling.
When we got back to the hotel, Yuri didn't say a word.
All he did was grab a pair of pajamas and walk into the bathroom, the door slamming with a loud 'thud'.
I awkwardly walked over to my bed and sat down, waiting for either Yakov or Lilia to break the silence.
Twenty minutes later I heard the bathroom door creak open and saw Yuri walk out, a boatload of steam pouring out from behind him.
"Jeez save some warm water for the rest of us" I complained.
"My bad let me go fetch a bucket and get some extra hot water just for you" he spat as he turned and sat on his bed.
"Just because you didn't get the score you wanted dosen’t mean you get to be an asshole" I say, clearly annoyed.
"I can do whatever I want" he replies.
I roll my eyes and divert my attention to my phone.
I posted an Instagram story, thanking everyone for their support, but I seriously couldn't help but feel bad for Yuri.
I sighed and got up and stood beside his bed.
"What?" He groans.
"Come here," I say with little context.
"No thanks, I'd rather not.." he adds, rolling his eyes.
"Get up," I say again.
"No"
"Oh my god Yuri move your ass!" I exclaim.
"Fine stop fucking yelling!" He adds as he reluctantly gets off his bed.
"We're going somewhere," I say, slipping on my shoes.
"I'm not dressed, sorry" he replies with a 'too bad!' Look at his face.
"It doesn't matter, you don't need to be dressed" I add.
"Let's go," I say as I open the door.
He groans and slides on his shoes.
We walk out the door and head outside.
"Mind telling me where we're going?" Yuri asks, obviously unhappy.
"You'll see," I said as I led him down the street.
We walked for about twenty-five minutes until we reached a small, secluded park.
It had benches and flowers and a gorgeous view of the city.
"We're here," I said with a smile.
"Where are we" Yuri asks with a confused look on his face.
"It's a park. Duh?" I reply.
"Well no shit, how do you know about it" he asks as we wander over to one of the benches.
"When I was a kid my mom took me here. She studied abroad in Paris and told me it's where she would go to relax" I reply.
"Ok, so why did you bring me here" he adds.
"Because it's pretty, and quiet, and maybe it will get you to chill the fuck out because there's no way you're gonna do any better tomorrow if you keep bitching about your score" I chuckle.
"I'm not bitching I'm just upset" he says as he rolls his eyes.
"Same thing" I reply.
"You're really fucking annoying sometimes" He adds, his tone playful.
I laugh, and a small smile appears on his face.
"But seriously I don't get why you're so upset it's really not that bad" I reply, a more serious tone to my voice.
"It's not bad, but it's not good either. It's first or nothing" he replies.
"That's a little harsh don't you think?" I add.
"Harsh is how you win"
"But have you won?"
It's silent for a moment
"You can't be so hard on yourself Yuri," I say, softly placing my hand on his.
He slides his hand from underneath.
"I don't need you to tell me what I already know" he replies.
A good twenty minutes pass.
It's silent most of the time, but it's not an awkward silence, it's comforting.

"I think we should head back," Yuri says, scooting to the edge of the seat.
"I guess" I add, standing up from the bench.
When we arrive back at the hotel room, Lilia and Yakov have dinner on the table.
"You ordered?" I ask as I see plates of pasta and salads on the table.
"Yes, come eat," Lilia says as she wipes her mouth with a napkin.
I slip off my shoes and take a seat at the small table next to her.
"Pasta? Didn't we have pasta like two nights ago?" Yuri says, referring to the restaurant.
"The carbs are good for you" Lilia adds.
Yuri shrugs and takes a bite.
After dinner, I excused myself from the table and went to shower.
After showering, I went to my bed and laid down.
Yuri was on his phone, the bright screen light fuzzy in the corner of my eye.
I could just barely make out what he was doing.
He was texting Mila.
I sighed and rolled over onto my other side so I didn't have to witness any more than I already had.
I actually had zero idea what he was texting her about, I just didn't want it to be about her.
That mystery girl.
The girl who was apparently too special for him to tell me about.
I hated her.
I pulled myself out of my head and decided shitting on some rando I knew nothing about wasn't worth the time and I eventually fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning to Yuri shaking me out of bed.
"Get up asshole you're gonna make us late" he said as he aggressively shoved my body.
"We're not gonna be late" I grunt as I sit up.
"Yeah now we're not, because I woke you up" he adds as he walks over and sits back down on his bed.
I sighed as I threw my head back against the headboard.
I looked at the tiny alarm clock on my bedside table and saw it was 9:30.
I practically flew out of bed and rushed to brush my teeth.
I can't believe I actually forgot to set my alarm.
I swiftly slicked my hair back into a tight bun and brushed on some dramatic makeup.
By the time I finished, it was nearing 10:50 and I was starving. I grabbed a peach yogurt from the fridge and sat down at the table.
"That's what you're having for breakfast?" He says with a judgmental look.
"What's wrong with it?" I ask as I place a spoonful in my mouth.
"You're gonna end up puking on the ice if you eat that," he added as he crossed his arms.
"Literally how?" I reply.
"Because it's most likely expired," he says as he leans against the wall.
"What it's not-"
I turn the cup around and look at the date listed just next to the barcode.
It had expired a month ago.
My eyes widened as I ran over to the sink and spat out the yogurt along with many peach chunks.
In my hurry, I forgot about one of Lilia's only flaws.
She doesn't believe in expiration dates.
I could just barely hear Yuri laughing over the sound of the tap water rushing next to my ear.
I turned off the faucet and wiped my tongue on a clean washcloth.
“Screw you” I say as I throw the piece of cloth at him.
"Ew, you should be thanking me! If I hadn't told you I would've been holding your hair back while you blow peach chunks into the toilet," he says with a smug smile.
"The only thing you're good for" I reply angrily.
"Doing what? Telling you how not to get food poisoning?" He laughs.
I groan as I sit down on my bed, accepting defeat.
85% of the time when I'm with Yuri, I want to bash my head into a wall.
The other 15% of the time is when he's sleeping.
Or when he shuts his fat mouth.
Or when he's not talking to that random bitch on the phone.
Or when he decides he actually wants to hang out with me.
I am snapped out of my internal temper tantrum by Lilia busting through the door.
"Kids let's go. I have snacks in the car we're late" she says as she shoves her head through the doorway.
I grabbed my bag and headphones and headed out to the elevator with Lilia.
When we got outside, Yakov was sitting in the car listening to the radio.
We hopped into the car and Lilia started driving towards the rink.
I popped on my headphones and listened to music on the ride there. At one point I briefly looked at the snacks Lilia packed, but decided I couldn't trust them after the incident this morning.
When we arrived, we followed the same steps as before, went in through the back doors, checked in, and headed up to the ballet rooms to stretch.
The rink had a lonely feeling to it today, like a dark, dimly lit living room where the TV is playing but nobody’s there. I placed my bags down in the ballet room and started stretching. My stomach felt uneasy, probably because I hadn't eaten, and the pre-skating nerves weren't helping.
I grabbed onto a chair and pulled my leg up, sucking in a deep breath between my teeth. I then turned and stretched the other side.
Yuri was in the other corner, stretching in a straddle position.
A while later, we finished stretching and headed down to the stands before the men's free program. I sat next to Yakov on the chilly bleachers and watched as the first group performed.
Before I knew it, Yuri was on the ice.
I watched as he danced; he almost looked like a different person.
He was graceful and so beautiful, unlike his usual self.
I caught myself staring for too long, and quickly averted my gaze.
I knew that nobody could tell I was watching, but I almost felt flustered when I realized what I was doing.
I took a sip of water as he finished up his program, gently tapping the side of the bottle instead of clapping to cancel out my recent staring dilemma. He doesn’t get that much credit.
As he glided off the ice, I quickly stood up to congratulate him.
"Nice performance," I say as I lean against the bleachers.
"Well no shit it was nice" he replies as he swiftly squirts water into his mouth.
"Are you sure? How do you know I wasn't just feeling charitable?" I say, clearly taken aback by his words.
"Because you're never just “feeling charitable”" he says with a cocky smile as he walks off to the locker rooms.
At that very moment, I realized that the Yuri on the ice and the real Yuri were two very different people.
I scoffed and walked back to the women's locker room to meet Lilia before going on for my free program.
"Y/N, how are you feeling?" She asks as she crosses her arms.
"I'm ok..a little nauseous," I confess as I lean against the wall.
"It's just the nerves, I'm sure you'll be fine," Lilia adds, placing a comforting hand on my shoulder.
I softly smile and walk with her out to the rink entrance.
They called for the women's group to warm up, and I took a sharp breath and went onto the ice to warm up.
I went through the basic elements of my routine, popping a few of my jumps, but I knew it was just the nerves.
When I stepped off the ice, Lilia handed me my water bottle, and I took a few sips before handing it back to her.
I waited impatiently as I counted down the number of skaters before me.
5...then 4...then 3...then 2...then 1..
And finally, it was my turn.
They announced my name, and I stepped onto the ice, having done this so many times that it was like second nature.
I smiled and skated to the center of the ice before taking my starting pose.
The music began, and I skated my routine, as per usual, but I couldn't help but feel nauseous.
I went into a spin and felt myself traveling, which wasn't a good sign. I'm also certain that I popped my double axel, and that didn't help my stomach either. As my program came to an end, I could feel my gut begin to churn. The second my music ended I bolted off the ice and ran straight into the women's restroom. I tripped over my toe pick and fell into one of the stalls, causing my knees to scrape against the rubber. I lean over the toilet and gag, but nothing comes up. A nasty pattern of dizziness, gagging, and sweating goes on for about 5 minutes until I hear footsteps enter the bathroom. I rest my clammy forehead on the toilet seat and hope it's my guardian angel coming to put me out of my misery.
"I brought you some medicine, Lilia said It would help with the nausea. She said to just let it sit under your tongue," an all too familiar voice says from behind me.
The person who entered the bathroom was, in fact, not my guardian angel but Yuri. I make an incoherent noise to signal my understanding, afraid that I'll gag if I open my mouth. I gently peel back the thin foil covering the drug and place it lightly under my tongue. After a few seconds, my nausea begins to lessen, however, not much later the foul taste of the medication hits my tongue. It tastes like mixed berries on crack and battery acid. If my nausea hadn't gone away, I'm sure I would've vomited on the spot. When I feel safe enough to speak again, I turn around on the floor and face Yuri.
"Thanks.." I mumble, wiping the cold sweat off my forehead.
"Are you sure you're done blowing chunks? I dont want to have to clean that up," he says as he leans against the doorframe.
"I haven't actually thrown anything up, I just keep gagging," I reply.
"Oh, so you were just being dramatic then. Also, didn't I literally say this was going to happen this morning? Thank god I didn't have to hold your hair," he adds with a bitter laugh.
"Ive literally been sweating my ass off, shaking, and gagging for the past like five minutes and you dont get to just walk in here and be like "oh so you're just being dramatic" when clearly im not," I spat, obviously annoyed.
"you know you have a fucking attitude problem right? Whatever get up off your ass were leaving," Yuri replied with a cold tone.
I slowly stood up onto my feet, but my legs started to give. I began falling forward, but Yuri caught me. He gently wrapped his arm underneath mine and grabbed my side, giving me extra support. He placed me down on a tiny bench near the exit of the bathroom and kneeled down infront of me.
"you didn't even think to take off your skates first?" he asks, the question clearly rhetorical, so I remained silent.
He began gently untying my skates, his fingers pulling at the delicate laces. I leaned my chin in the palm of my hand and secretly watched. Seeing him be so gentle almost made my heart flutter. He then slid my skates off my feet and stuffed the laces into the shoe.
"Do you need help getting up too?" he asked coldly.
"I'm not sure, I think I need your skinny twig arms to help me up!" I add sarcastically.
"your such a bitch" he scoffs as we walk out of the restroom.
"That was so unoriginal, -5 points" I reply, unimpressed by his insult.
"what the hell does that even mean" he adds, but before I can reply I’m cut off by Lilia.
"Oh, sweetheart, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have brought those yogurts!" she says as she engulfs me in a hug.
I assume Yuri informed her of the yogurt incident.
"It's ok.." I manage to squeeze out through the tight embrace.
"I'll get you whatever you want for dinner, and you can sleep in tomorrow our flight back home isn't until 5..but we do have a layover in London for a few hours so you might not be able to sleep on the plane..." Lilia adds, slowly forgetting what she was originally talking about. We walk outside into the moist air, and I hop into the backseat of the car.
Yuri sat to my left, and Yakov was already in the driver's seat. As the car started moving, I began to feel the toll my dry-heaving episode left on my body. My eyes felt heavy, and my seat was abnormally comfortable. I quickly dozed off and fell over to my left.