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"I know he don't love quite like I love him..." those words resonated like an echo in that almost empty apartment, if it wasn't for him.
Rui was talking to himself, ¿Had he finally lost his mind? ¿Or was it the effects of the alcohol making its appearance?
"God... What am I saying? I must... stop drinking" A sigh escaped his lips as he looked at the half-drunk bottle of liquor and the already empty glass that was next to him.
Rui and Tsukasa knew each other from their high school years, after being best friends for a couple of years, they started to date. Rui remembers that day as if it were yesterday, especially the whole show that Tsukasa put on when he asked him out in front of the entire school.
Their first kiss, the first "I love you", the first date, everything was buried deep in his memory, but... Will it really be the same for Tsukasa? Does he also keep those memories close to his heart?
They have been living together for a year, everything seemed to be perfect, their relationship, the life they had together. At what point did it change? At what point did everything start to rot?
For a month now, Tsukasa, his beloved boyfriend, the boy who stole his heart one and a thousand times, seemed different, as if he was someone else. He came home more and more late, other times he didn't even appear at all, he seemed distant, as if something inside him had changed. ¿Had their little fairy tale finally come to its bitter end?
The only times he came home was to "release stress", those loving and passionate nights worth remembering that they used to share.. simply ceased to exist, desire had died and only lust was left behind, together with the aggressiveness and barely any interest in the other person that was brought with it.
At some point did it occur to Tsukasa that those tears that fell from his lover's misty eyes were not from pleasure, but from melancholy? At some point would he have thought about the one he supposedly loved instead of himself and his own satisfaction? ¿At least once?
All Rui did was holding on to every measly ounce of affection, he wanted to believe that things would go back to normal, that at dawn that sweet boy he fell in love with would be sleeping next to him again, and that he would stay forever. But deep down he knew that those days were far from coming back, he knew that, as soon as the pale moonlight left, the blonde would already be somewhere else, only leaving behind his smell of rose perfume.
"This... will end. Everything will be like before... Huh?" His little conversation with himself had been interrupted by the thunderous sound of the door, he had returned.
"Rui?" Tsukasa asked as he approached the purple-haired man, who he found lying on the couch. "Were you drinking?"
"Tsukasa!" A little smile formed on his face when he saw him.
"Rui!" He shouted his name, standing with his arms crossed, waiting for an answer.
"Hmm... A little, I was waiting for you."
Tsukasa let out a sigh. "Rui, I already told you it's not necessary... Come on, let's go to bed," he said as he helped him up.
"I know... but I want to do it," he responded, leaning on the blond until he reached the room.
"God... you'll never change" he chuckled, as he wrapped him in a hug.
"No, I won't" he said to his lover, while returning that loving hug.
Tsukasa just stared at him, without saying a word.
"Uhhh? Is something the matter?" He asked.
"I love you," the blond placed a soft kiss on his lips.
A smile formed at the corner of Rui's lips. “I love you more.”
One more kiss, his wine-stained lips, and a single phrase "I don't want to go to sleep yet". That was the start of a night that would mark the beginning of the end, although neither of them were even a little aware of it.
Because to Rui it felt like a dream come true, even if it was just for tonight, until he haunted him again, he would have the man he fell in love with back once more.